Nah, this topic in particular.
Although, if you want to make a thread for your singing (or forum members singing, which would be kinda cool) go for it.~
Nah, this topic in particular.
Although, if you want to make a thread for your singing (or forum members singing, which would be kinda cool) go for it.~
Hmm.
Maybe I will~
My day was grats on 20k members AP forums.
Anyway… got a severe confidence boost. I thought I wouldn't be able to do it, but on my semi-marathon training schedule I had to do 9 miles straight. Turned out to be a lot easier than I thought. Started cramping up at 4.5-5.0 mile range, changed my running style to avoid further cramps and eventually dissipated my existing ones (avoided swinging my arms, kept them almost completely straight, just used my legs for a while). Very excited for this run, semi is coming up in about a month, let's hope I can finish it in 2 hours, the standard time for non-competitors. Supposedly it's better for your feet to run like a "pigeon" (hard to explain) but that was destroying my feet so I'm gonna hold off on that 'til after the semi, then start building towards it when I get ready to do a marathon next year. It's apparently more efficient, less injuries, all positives... Except for the fact that it's weirdweirdweird.
Re-opened Ask Scratchmen Apoo.
Again.
Had a brilliant weekend.
I'm getting a new roommate tomorrow. Hopefully she's nice, haven't even seen her yet.
School starts next week.
Aaaand I'm still afraid of wasps.
i had my first skype group call last night, and it was fucking awesome.
definitely trying this again soon.
I was gonna complain about having to pull weeds in my front yard, but then I remembered Kenny's yard hell, so I won't. Although it would have been nice if I hadn't had to pull weeds in a yard full of little spider nests. I kept expecting spiders to jump up on my hand when I bent down to pluck stuff.
@Demonicpoodle:
Supposedly it's better for your feet to run like a "pigeon" (hard to explain)
oh god really? I've secretly tried walking like a pigeon before. I mean dem birds got swag if you pay attention the way they move their feet.
oh god really? I've secretly tried walking like a pigeon before.
Pfff, now that's just silly.
Today was relaxing. It makes up for how absolutely awful yesterday and the days before were. After being so tolerant of people having shallow first impressions of me due to my race or height for years, it finally got to me. I can't let that get to me ever again, because spending a few days hating myself and being sensitive does not really fix anything. Hopefully I met people in real life down the road without this exclusive mentality, or be in a group that does not immediately single me out.
Today was relaxing. It makes up for how absolutely awful yesterday and the days before were. After being so tolerant of people having shallow first impressions of me due to my race or height for years, it finally got to me. I can't let that get to me ever again, because spending a few days hating myself and being sensitive does not really fix anything. Hopefully I met people in real life down the road without this exclusive mentality, or be in a group that does not immediately single me out.
I'm so sorry, buddy. :(
You're more than the sum of your parts. People can't define you so simply.
You're bigger and better than whatever they "think." You're Akeem Fuckin' Mayers.
A few weeks ago I had a similar problem with some friends who don't see me often making constant references to my race (and the race of others there), as a joke.
They didn't realize how NOT cool it was: they didn't get it. I probably should've blown up at them right then and there, but I took them aside later and gave them the business, in private.
"I am not your 'black friend.' Don't make me out to be. I don't put you in a box, so don't do the same to me."
Ashamed, they apologized when they realized what they had done, but probably haven't figured out it's why I don't hang out with them very often. Their loss.
Don't let people "other" you, label you, or make you feel any different from them if you don't want them to. It'll eat you up inside.
Tell 'em to take their little census box and stuff it.
Today was relaxing. It makes up for how absolutely awful yesterday and the days before were. After being so tolerant of people having shallow first impressions of me due to my race or height for years, it finally got to me. I can't let that get to me ever again, because spending a few days hating myself and being sensitive does not really fix anything. Hopefully I met people in real life down the road without this exclusive mentality, or be in a group that does not immediately single me out.
Do you mind elaborating a bit more? Also what's height or race got to do with first impressions? Are you sure it's actually that and not how you present yourself?
Side note: don't you live in the US?
@Nia:
Pfff, now that's just silly.
you're right! What I should be doing is finding a pigeon costume to wear as I run through the streets.
Just found out ill be in a 4 man team for work this fall. Other then me it consists of….
An older man that is a part time southern baptist preacher.
A redneck ginger with an unhealthy love for firearms
A girl who eerily reminds me of the character Snoop from The Wire.
Gonna be an interesting season.
Just found out ill be in a 4 man team for work this fall. Other then me it consists of….
An older man that is a part time southern baptist preacher.
A redneck ginger with an unhealthy love for firearms
A girl who eerily reminds me of the character Snoop from The Wire.Gonna be an interesting season.
This sounds like a set-up to a sitcom.
Woody's Round-Up, coming this fall~
Do you mind elaborating a bit more? Also what's height or race got to do with first impressions? Are you sure it's actually that and not how you present yourself?
Side note: don't you live in the US?
I'm just taller than most people, and that leads to these silly little assumptions. Aside from that, I don't really want to talk about what happened in detail, so don't bother prying.
And no. I'm sure I present myself well enough.
"He's a decent looking for a black man"
Yes. I dress in how I see fit to satisfy this superficial and suppressive quota. NOT!
I'm so sorry, buddy. :(
You're more than the sum of your parts. People can't define you so simply.
You're bigger and better than whatever they "think." You're Akeem Fuckin' Mayers.
A few weeks ago I had a similar problem with some friends who don't see me often making constant references to my race (and the race of others there), as a joke.
They didn't realize how NOT cool it was: they didn't get it. I probably should've blown up at them right then and there, but I took them aside later and gave them the business, in private.
"I am not your 'black friend.' Don't make me out to be. I don't put you in a box, so don't do the same to me."Ashamed, they apologized when they realized what they had done, but probably haven't figured out it's why I don't hang out with them very often. Their loss.
Don't let people "other" you, label you, or make you feel any different from them if you don't want them to. It'll eat you up inside.Tell 'em to take their little census box and stuff it.
Yeah, that's pretty much sums it. Except that they aren't really friends and just old acquaintances from college. It was all sorts of silly, and I wished I spoke up.
I'm not sure if I'll ever speak up though. I can never see myself being attached to such people for so long. And the problem does not exist with just people outside my race either. There's even ignorance within my race. Between being identified as a token black guy or a black guy… I'd rather just be a human that expresses his own free will. As hard as society makes it for me to continue thinking and acting by that notion, I won't give into it. Seriously. I was thinking about changing myself to satisfy one or the other over these recent days :T Glad that's off my mind.
Thanks for words again bro. Your story inspired me in some ways.
Just found out ill be in a 4 man team for work this fall. Other then me it consists of….
An older man that is a part time southern baptist preacher.
A redneck ginger with an unhealthy love for firearms
A girl who eerily reminds me of the character Snoop from The Wire.Gonna be an interesting season.
Why does this sound like a TV show?
I'm just taller than most people, and that leads to these silly little assumptions. Aside from that, I don't really want to talk about what happened in detail, so don't bother prying.
And no. I'm sure I present myself well enough.
"He's a decent looking for a black man"
Yes. I dress in how I see fit to satisfy this superficial and suppressive quota.
Ekeem I won't pretend to understand your situation as I feel like I live in a place where it's the complete opposite. My flatmates black as fuck and proud of it, people make the random jokes, but it's something that works both ways and not something people Constantly bring up in some bid to ostracize him.
In fact I find myself going mad at him for being so carefree but hey, maybe I should lighten up a bit more on this topic in general.
Maybe in a country full of convicts and immigrants everyone acts like they are on par with eachother.
"He's a decent looking for a black man"
This is getting weird. Really weird. I mean people who are close to me saying things that might change the way I see certain group of people.
When my mom came home, she started to tell me (again) that men/boys are really hopeless and stuff like that and warned me yet again that I should prepare for the worst (i.e. nor or hardly finding a good companion).
Even though she speaks from experience, I don't want to fully believe this. It's just hard to see clear when others who mean a lot to me tell me things that suddenly changes my view on different things. Back and forth.
This is all too confusing. sigh
Ekeem I won't pretend to understand your situation as I feel like I live in a place where it's the complete opposite. My flatmates black as fuck and proud of it, people make the random jokes, but it's something that works both ways and not something people Constantly bring up in some bid to ostracize him.
In fact I find myself going mad at him for being so carefree but hey, maybe I should lighten up a bit more on this topic in general.
Maybe in a country full of convicts and immigrants everyone acts like they are on par with eachother.
Being black in the states is probably different than being black in Australia.
I'm sure there are some commonalities, but yeah,
The US has a real complicated, fucked up internalized history of hatred and self-hate.
It's difficult to explain to someone who doesn't live it.
Being black in the states is probably different than being black in Australia.
I'm sure there are some commonalities, but yeah,
The US has a real complicated, fucked up internalized history of hatred and self-hate.It's difficult to explain to someone who doesn't live it.
And that's what I hate about this between us three on this same old topic. I've been and lived in various places and had mates of all races in each, yet still can't come close to understanding what it's like in the US.
It must be really messed up judging from stuff we've discussed before, so much so it effects you to this degree even though you are both fighting it all the time. Well if you get fed up you can always come to oz.
My mom decided to buy me a lot of baking supplies, including vanilla extract, confeconer's sugar, unsalted butter, white and chocolate cake mix, and chocolate chps.
I'm thinking of making cupcakes.
And that's what I hate about this between us three on this same old topic. I've been and lived in various places and had mates of all races in each, yet still can't come close to understanding what it's like in the US.
It must be really messed up judging from stuff we've discussed before, so much so it effects you to this degree even though you are both fighting it all the time. Well if you get fed up you can always come to oz.
Haha, well, it's sorta, "when it doesn't suck it's great but when it sucks it SUUUUUCKS."
Normally one wouldn't have to think of this sorta thing, but when and where it does crop up it's like someone put a finger in an old wound that never quite healed right.
My grades were posted today. Straight A's, yo. Also, I'm self-teaching myself Russian. This is stuck in my head:
Not only do I have to work 6 days this week, but the truck came in late for processing today.
Naturally this means we have to unpack 500 boxes tomorrow on top of being tired. Yay~
Also it's still so fucking hot residents are still being advised to stay indoors. Really messes with my jogging schedule. B(
This sounds like a set-up to a sitcom.
Woody's Round-Up, coming this fall~
Why does this sound like a TV show?
I know right? At first i thought I was the normal one until i realized that I'm the nerd who spends most of his time on the internet or playing video games, I fit in perfectly.
I go back to school starting August the 28th. But I think I going to take the last 10 days off of work so I can have as much fun a possibly before then. School is not bad though, I love the college life.
Finished cutting the grass. Ants have easily become my most hated anything ever. There are too many fucking ants on our yard. I convinced my grandmother that we need to burn these motherfuckers. This is going to bring me more joy than it should.
Fuck ants.
@Uncle:
Finished cutting the grass. Ants have easily become my most hated anything ever. There are too many fucking ants on our yard. I convinced my grandmother that we need to burn these motherfuckers. This is going to bring me more joy than it should.
Fuck ants.
Now you realize how I feel when I think of burning zombies.
@Uncle:
Finished cutting the grass. Ants have easily become my most hated anything ever. There are too many fucking ants on our yard. I convinced my grandmother that we need to burn these motherfuckers. This is going to bring me more joy than it should.
Fuck ants.
I told you you shouldn't go without a flamethrower.
So came back from my 12 hour shift in the morning, during which I got dreadfully depressed after listening to the BBC's Olympics closing ceremony recap. I just felt the indifference I feel towards my country all the more during that discussion.
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This is getting weird. Really weird. I mean people who are close to me saying things that might change the way I see certain group of people.
When my mom came home, she started to tell me (again) that men/boys are really hopeless and stuff like that and warned me yet again that I should prepare for the worst (i.e. nor or hardly finding a good companion).
Even though she speaks from experience, I don't want to fully believe this. It's just hard to see clear when others who mean a lot to me tell me things that suddenly changes my view on different things. Back and forth.This is all too confusing. sigh
You said she's dating someone, maybe he just pissed her off ?
Killing many insects such as ants, termites, or bees is the funnest thing ever. I recommend the hose. Or a large shovel.
Killing many insects such as ants, termites, or bees is the funnest thing ever. I recommend the hose. Or a large shovel.
You do realise you're pretty much asking to forfeit your immortal soul right here and now right ? :P
Killing many insects such as ants, termites, or bees is the funnest thing ever. I recommend the hose. Or a large shovel.
Is this how the mind of a serial killer starts off as.
i don't like chasing and squashing cockroaches because they run too quickly. so I just pour lots and lots of water and watch it try to scurry off but there's too much water and its legs wiggle and it floats around a little until they finally give up and slowly wither away
also, i want Sai's cupcakes.
i don't like chasing and squashing cockroaches because they run too quickly. so I just pour lots and lots of water and watch it try to scurry off but there's too much water and its legs wiggle and it floats around a little until they finally give up and slowly wither away
also, i want Sai's cupcakes.
I'm gonna decorate them with little drawings
I'm gonna have chocolate frosting and then make a Danny Phantom doodle in vanilla frosting on top and vice versa.
I'm gonna have fun~
A colleague of mine killed a wasp yesterday by catching it in a plastic cup and slipping a few squirts of disinfection spray in afterwards. The wasp slowly choked in the toxic fumes and crawled helplessly in the foam.
It was glorious.
Great… thanks to someone, I'm now watching Gravity Falls.
This is so good, though.
I know right? At first i thought I was the normal one until i realized that I'm the nerd who spends most of his time on the internet or playing video games, I fit in perfectly.
You need to like… secretly film everything that happens.
With yo' TV crew.
I'd ttly watch that show.
Great… thanks to someone, I'm now watching Gravity Falls.
This is so good, though.
It's an alright cartoon. A bit overhyped by some.
I'm gonna decorate them with little drawings
I'm gonna have chocolate frosting and then make a Danny Phantom doodle in vanilla frosting on top and vice versa.
I'm gonna have fun~
Sorry trapped, they're mine now.
@No:
You said she's dating someone, maybe he just pissed her off ?
Well, one of her friends got pissed at her boyfriend, so that could be the reason. Still, my mom tells me the same thing way too often and it got confusing. I don't know what to think:/
A colleague of mine killed a wasp yesterday by catching it in a plastic cup and slipping a few squirts of disinfection spray in afterwards. The wasp slowly choked in the toxic fumes and crawled helplessly in the foam.
It was glorious.
So raise your hands again if you're a bug exterminator? Remember when AP was gonna form a group of bug slayers? There should be a club exclusive to people who enjoy killing insects in terrible ways. Then you can fly around the world and get paid to slice wasps in half with your bare hands and then light them on fire.
Great… thanks to someone, I'm now watching Gravity Falls.
This is so good, though.
Atta boy.
It's an alright cartoon. A bit overhyped by some.
You have bad taste.
Spent the past few days marathoning Hokuto no Ken. Glad I did, some realy interesting designs there even if there are….issues.
I discovered a wonderful store today that sells all manners of organic food, snacks and confectionary. I think I'll be paying that store frequent visits in the future, just their collection of tea and dried fruit was enough to boggle my mind~ AND THEY SELL MALTESERS. Life = made. May not be organic, but it's my favourite chocolate.
So raise your hands again if you're a bug exterminator? Remember when AP was gonna form a group of bug slayers? There should be a club exclusive to people who enjoy killing insects in terrible ways. Then you can fly around the world and get paid to slice wasps in half with your bare hands and then light them on fire.
I fully endorse this idea.
Torture porn movies ain't got nothing on toxic fumes and sheer ripping power inflicted on insects!
@Nia:
Sorry trapped, they're mine now.
There's also gonna be Syn, Leo, Loki, Fenton, Phantom, Sam, a Pineapple, a Scarf, and a Cane, three others that spell out Psych Lock MD, Me and Mari, Hattori… I'm forgetting some, I know it. Mari, what else did I say I was gonna pipe?
You should make a Geno one.
You know, for the fuck of it.~
There's also gonna be Syn, Leo, Loki, Fenton, Phantom, Sam, a Pineapple, a Scarf, and a Cane, three others that spell out Psych Lock MD, Me and Mari, Hattori… I'm forgetting some, I know it. Mari, what else did I say I was gonna pipe?
Vlad Plasmius's hairdo :ninja: I don't care if you try to do normal Vlad or ghost Vlad btw. Not sure if you mentioned Croco. Oh and Iron Man?
This is a good day to sit around with my hair up and listen to some chill playlists.