@cooldud_21:
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Shit, this is what knocked my ass out of college. I procrastinated too damn much, was too damn unmotivated and too damn lazy. And it's something I still deal with and I don't even know why I feel this way. I came up with a few ideas to fight my laziness back in college but I had already missed too many days at that point so they kicked me out before I could try them, but I'd still recommend them:
- Go straight to the library right after classes and do your work; don't fuck around
- If you're finding it hard to do something, force yourself to do it and once it picks up after a minute, it'll be easier to just do
- I'm serious about that second line, just fucking force yourself to do it; trust me on this one
Other shit like… maybe you're generally not too good in certain areas. Hell, I want to be a writer and I suck at doing essays their way I guess, so I was planning on getting tutored. And I was going to try for therapy so I think you got the right idea there. It's not all about popping pills and medicine, they might present a viewpoint that you haven't thought about before. It'll expand your perspective and possibly give you an idea about how to conquer your procrastination.
Good luck.~
@Hiroy:
Hehe. It's always fucking people with you.
How about persons or humans? To be frank, I don't actually understand what you mean by this line. >_>
But yah. I get what you mean and I like the analogy. I guess I gotta learn to give some "pushers" a chance, because hell.. I'd probably regret the opportunity to know someone behind a bad first impression or even lasting impression.
Ah man, I learned to stop trusting my first impression of people a long time ago. Because truth be told, most people are actors anyway. At least about 90% of the ones around me are, I know that much. I'm just assuming it's the same everywhere but I think there's a good basis for that assumption, at least for America. And sometimes you know, I can see where they're coming from with it. Hell, even I joke around a lot to cover up the fact that I'm actually pretty miserable.
The ones that get me are the ones that don't know when to quit acting. That shit bothers me. Because none of us are fucking buying it anyway. But as for everyone else, yeah I've definitely been surprised by people more than once. It seems like more often than not, people do a complete turn-around from whatever bad or generic first impression they introduce themselves with.
I'm most likely guilty of it too because most of my friends have told me about how surprised they were when they got to know me.
As for what you think about yourself, well… We all been there. "Almost all" of us atleast. I say dumb things, pick the wrong people to fight with, mock things I end up regretting later, and even(currently) hold a massive grudge over a select few people due to a particular incident. Moderation over my own personal feelings is something I gotta used too, because I just hate acting out because of my own misinterpretations or lack of understanding.
This right here in the bold. And I'm not pointing fingers, I'm actually going to tell you something about myself. When I was younger, and to a lesser extent even now, I was aggravated and angry and mistrusting towards everyone. Through my own lashing out, I actually managed to fuel a whole lot of drama that, at the time, I didn't understand where was coming from. I thought people were starting shit with me and the natural response should be to tell them to fuck off.
But it really gets to you, man. I had to learn that there's no need to start shit all the time. And truth be told, I keep making it seem like it was my fault but nah… it was mostly them starting the shit up. But I definitely added fuel to it. And it's not like I didn't have the right to be mad, hell no. I definitely had that right and I'm not sorry for all that shit…
But even my ass was in the wrong sometimes. That's what ended up getting me to take a good long look at it. And so the way I handle it now is to, as calmly as possible, let them know exactly why it is I'm pissed off and try to be respectful in the process. Sometimes people really do just mess up but as long as you don't come at them with malicious intent, most issues can be resolved.
The true instigators are the ones that won't even give you the time of day to act mature and try to resolve things like a sensible adult. And I've definitely been guilty of that.
Once again, not pointing fingers. That was more like a confession of my own.