sigh I know this rejection was expected, and frankly, I was crazy for getting my hopes up, but I'm feeling the blues now and I have no other outlet to expel my emotions, so sorry, guys. :\ Spoiler tagged to spare you.
! Even though I have a ton of contingency plans in place and I know I'm in a comfortable position, I feel like… like nothing, now. This transfer meant so much more to me than higher education. It was an outlet for me to escape the shit I put up with at home. It was my ticket to greener pastures, and it was the next step to where I wanted to be. Looking at it now, I had literally no shot at getting into any of these schools, but I had some semblance of hope. Now, I feel like I'm fated to be nobody. I was counting on using this as an outlet to put myself on the map somewhere. But there are simply far better people out there, getting their chance to take the world by the reins while I fester in the middle of nowhere for the rest of my life. sigh
I'll feel better in the morning, but I really needed to get that off my chest. V_V