Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD

Arei

Confession:

So, I've had two OP cell phone charms on my phone for a few months now (Luffy holding an Egg tart next to the Macau old church thingy, and SogeKing) and I've been waiting for the glorious day when some mysterious OP fan will spot my cell phone, and say, "GOOD MAIDEN, mine eyes doth glance upon thy OP phone charms. Care to partake upon a most civilized chat about this noble topic on which I admire?"

Instead some hyper 11 year old at work noticed and said "YOU LIKE ONE PIECE?" I wanted to die..

One of my co workers freaked when she heard that my text tone is a den den mushi and asked if I liked One Piece . I was so excited but she only watches the anime and is way behind :'D but it's someone!

I've got a few OP stickers on the back window of my car and I've caught people tailing me taking pictures… But I have a giant Cactuar on there too so that might be it lol.

Femme

@Arei:

One of my co workers freaked when she heard that my text tone is a den den mushi and asked if I liked One Piece . I was so excited but she only watches the anime and is way behind :'D but it's someone!

I've got a few OP stickers on the back window of my car and I've caught people tailing me taking pictures… But I have a giant Cactuar on there too so that might be it lol.

I'm happy for you :D OP fans seem so scarce where I'm from that I'll probably be the one to walk up to someone who has op merch. Ooo i actually have a second unopened Sogeking phone charm in my purse. First adult I meet will get it.

C_uggs

[hide]Well today I wanted to go to the opening of the new library. But then again, my mother "got sick" and she made me take her to the public hospital (which I hate), she underwent several procedures and takes several medications, all useless (all diseases are psychosomatic) and this situation is the same for seven years.

I'm doing my best to help her (and I'm ashamed to say that I can do almost nothing), but … Seven years and nothing?[/hide]

Noqanky

Just ranting here

! I'm doing much more badly than I thought.
Been looking forward to this weekend due to seeing friends at a college reunion, and I've been really needing that after weeks of being alone in silence and exhausted. So even though I got a strong fever and couldn't even go to work, I made my strongest effort to meet with them because I really really needed someone to talk.
My god, it all went so wrong. I feel even worse now, because I kept on just being there pretty much without really existing. They just kept talking about their things and tv shows and I was still completely alone. They would sometimes speak about how it'd be cool if we could get together more to do things and I mentioned it'd certainly be cool if we could do so next weekend. They all said that it'd be too soon and they just didn't have time, forgetting that next weekend is my birthday completely. They also all know about my recent break up and descent into depression but no one makes any effort to talk to me or even distract me. There'd be times I would be talking to someone, go to the bathroom, and when I'd come back they had left to go somewhere else spontaneously with other people.
! Worst of all, I ran into my ex and she just completely ifgnored me, like I was absolutely no one. After two years, after asking me a couple of months ago to propose to her once she graduated, after saying she loved me only four weeks ago … she just completely ignored me and kept on talking with her friends and having fun. Such a tremendous punch in the gut, and after that my mood died completely and all my friends did was play games while I just sat there depressed. By myself. The ones who weren't playing would just go on skype in their phones to talk to other friends.
! I'm exhausted. I make it my deal to be extremely caring and supportive of people. I work hard every day to make kids feel better about themselves and make sure they accomplish their dreams. I have a tradition of coming up with extremely elaborate and well thought out presents for people, and I'm attentive to when they might need me. And while I ask for nothing in return, it really stings when at the moment I need people the most, I essentially become a ghost to everyone. It's the people I support and care for the most that now barely even notice me. It genuinely feels like being someone with a lot of empathy just winds up meaning you end up carrying the weight of the world and when you fall no one is there to carry you. I always have to get myself back up and I don't know how much longer I can keep on doing that. Every time this happens a bit of me dies and my scars and fears just get worse and worse.
! Just wanted to type things out. I know it will get better, because it has to. At some point I will need to get up because my students need me, and my family needs me, but right now I wish I could just collapse under the weight of everything and not get up.

Oathkeeper

Poor Noqanky. Here have a Pep Shower.

Who knew Yu Gi Oh had such a cute ending.

Satsuki

@Noqanky:

Just ranting here

! I'm doing much more badly than I thought.
Been looking forward to this weekend due to seeing friends at a college reunion, and I've been really needing that after weeks of being alone in silence and exhausted. So even though I got a strong fever and couldn't even go to work, I made my strongest effort to meet with them because I really really needed someone to talk.
My god, it all went so wrong. I feel even worse now, because I kept on just being there pretty much without really existing. They just kept talking about their things and tv shows and I was still completely alone. They would sometimes speak about how it'd be cool if we could get together more to do things and I mentioned it'd certainly be cool if we could do so next weekend. They all said that it'd be too soon and they just didn't have time, forgetting that next weekend is my birthday completely. They also all know about my recent break up and descent into depression but no one makes any effort to talk to me or even distract me. There'd be times I would be talking to someone, go to the bathroom, and when I'd come back they had left to go somewhere else spontaneously with other people.
! Worst of all, I ran into my ex and she just completely ifgnored me, like I was absolutely no one. After two years, after asking me a couple of months ago to propose to her once she graduated, after saying she loved me only four weeks ago … she just completely ignored me and kept on talking with her friends and having fun. Such a tremendous punch in the gut, and after that my mood died completely and all my friends did was play games while I just sat there depressed. By myself. The ones who weren't playing would just go on skype in their phones to talk to other friends.
! I'm exhausted. I make it my deal to be extremely caring and supportive of people. I work hard every day to make kids feel better about themselves and make sure they accomplish their dreams. I have a tradition of coming up with extremely elaborate and well thought out presents for people, and I'm attentive to when they might need me. And while I ask for nothing in return, it really stings when at the moment I need people the most, I essentially become a ghost to everyone. It's the people I support and care for the most that now barely even notice me. It genuinely feels like being someone with a lot of empathy just winds up meaning you end up carrying the weight of the world and when you fall no one is there to carry you. I always have to get myself back up and I don't know how much longer I can keep on doing that. Every time this happens a bit of me dies and my scars and fears just get worse and worse.
! Just wanted to type things out. I know it will get better, because it has to. At some point I will need to get up because my students need me, and my family needs me, but right now I wish I could just collapse under the weight of everything and not get up.

Oh, sweetie, don't let it break you. That sounds like complete crap and I wish I could help you more other than just say "hang in there." I would also suggest talking to a therapist, but I know you have like zero time right now for anything. You're supporting your family, but they're not recognizing the support you give them? They should be called out for that.

In the meantime, have DJ PON-3 rockin' down the street, because I can't stop watching this and I hope it can cheer you up a bit.

Oathkeeper

I might have AIDS… Im scared as hell

Purple Hermit

@Noqanky:

Just ranting here

! I'm doing much more badly than I thought.
Been looking forward to this weekend due to seeing friends at a college reunion, and I've been really needing that after weeks of being alone in silence and exhausted. So even though I got a strong fever and couldn't even go to work, I made my strongest effort to meet with them because I really really needed someone to talk.
My god, it all went so wrong. I feel even worse now, because I kept on just being there pretty much without really existing. They just kept talking about their things and tv shows and I was still completely alone. They would sometimes speak about how it'd be cool if we could get together more to do things and I mentioned it'd certainly be cool if we could do so next weekend. They all said that it'd be too soon and they just didn't have time, forgetting that next weekend is my birthday completely. They also all know about my recent break up and descent into depression but no one makes any effort to talk to me or even distract me. There'd be times I would be talking to someone, go to the bathroom, and when I'd come back they had left to go somewhere else spontaneously with other people.
! Worst of all, I ran into my ex and she just completely ifgnored me, like I was absolutely no one. After two years, after asking me a couple of months ago to propose to her once she graduated, after saying she loved me only four weeks ago … she just completely ignored me and kept on talking with her friends and having fun. Such a tremendous punch in the gut, and after that my mood died completely and all my friends did was play games while I just sat there depressed. By myself. The ones who weren't playing would just go on skype in their phones to talk to other friends.
! I'm exhausted. I make it my deal to be extremely caring and supportive of people. I work hard every day to make kids feel better about themselves and make sure they accomplish their dreams. I have a tradition of coming up with extremely elaborate and well thought out presents for people, and I'm attentive to when they might need me. And while I ask for nothing in return, it really stings when at the moment I need people the most, I essentially become a ghost to everyone. It's the people I support and care for the most that now barely even notice me. It genuinely feels like being someone with a lot of empathy just winds up meaning you end up carrying the weight of the world and when you fall no one is there to carry you. I always have to get myself back up and I don't know how much longer I can keep on doing that. Every time this happens a bit of me dies and my scars and fears just get worse and worse.
! Just wanted to type things out. I know it will get better, because it has to. At some point I will need to get up because my students need me, and my family needs me, but right now I wish I could just collapse under the weight of everything and not get up.

It's always darkest before the dawn, so they say. And if she doesn't feel the need to even put a thought of consideration to you, then it perhaps really is for the better that you devote more of your energy to other activities. But regardless, I can assure you that things will definitely without a doubt turn around at some point. I haven't any familiarity with your crew from college, but perhaps they don't know how to respond to help you, or maybe it's been awhile so they're not sure how best to approach. But at the very least, take some time to do stuff you really enjoy, especially this week seeing as it's your birthday. :)

wolfwood

@Oathkeeper:

I might have AIDS… Im scared as hell

Why would you think that you have HIV?

Nami

@wolfneeds:

why would you think that you have HIV?

Because he needs some attention again.

Oathkeeper

Wow you are heartless. Nami-Chan. I DO deserve that though.

Ok, sorry. I just did the most stupid thing ever and went to a gay sauna and had sex with someone I've never met before.I really do hope Im wrong and I REALLY hope that Im just being a whiny attention whore.

No Maam

@Oathkeeper:

Wow you are heartless. Nami-Chan. I DO deserve that though.

Ok, sorry. I just did the most stupid thing ever and went to a gay sauna and had sex with someone I've never met before.I really do hope Im wrong and I REALLY hope that Im just being a whiny attention whore.

I do hope so too dude, for your sake.

Satsuki

If you are afraid you have HIV then go to an STD clinic and get tested ASAP so that you can know for sure and put your worries to rest. There is no other way.

wolfwood

And you assume that every stranger who is gay has aids? Odds are he didn't have anything

In the unlikely event that this was the case i'd assume that the infection risk depends on what you did.

Stupid of you to do anything without a condom though. But if you are worried contact a clinic and get tested i guess.

Oathkeeper

I used a condom. I hope everything will be OK…

wolfwood

If you used a condom i can tell you right now that you don't have HIV

Satsuki

If you used a condom then the chances are almost nil. But again, if all you are going to do is worry then go to an STD clinic and get tested so you can be 100% sure.

Monkey King

@Nami:

Because he needs some attention again.

I guess you would know huh.

Outerspec

@Oathkeeper:

I might have AIDS… Im scared as hell

If you want to assuage your fears I'm sorry to say you'll have to wait a little while before getting tested. Even if you are infected right now (not likely and hopefully not) you wouldn't show up positive on your results if you got tested tomorrow. You have to wait until after the "HIV window period" which can be anywhere from 9 days to 6 months. Here's more info on that.

http://www.sfaf.org/hiv-info/testing/hiv-test-window-periods.html

HIV is a serious matter so I'm just throwing that information out there for anybody to know.

taboo

@Oathkeeper:

Wow you are heartless. Nami-Chan. I DO deserve that though.

Ok, sorry. I just did the most stupid thing ever and went to a gay sauna and had sex with someone I've never met before.I really do hope Im wrong and I REALLY hope that Im just being a whiny attention whore.

maybe you shouldn't fuck strangers

Nami

@Monkey:

I guess u would know huh.

Seems you have a problem with me. How about adressing it steaight.

See, I was right about Oathkeeper.
Hmm, AP hasn't given me enough attentention. Let's say I might have aids, cus I had sex.with a stranger. And a condom. I'll just leave out that little detail at the start.

Louis-1988

@Oathkeeper:

I might have AIDS… Im scared as hell

1. You don't just contract AIDS overnight. It usually takes years for HIV to progress into full blown AIDS.

2. If you have even the slightest inkling that you might have been exposed to the virus and it's been less than 3 days you should be busy making sure you get tested, and if necessary receive post-exposure HIV prophylaxis treatment, not posting about it on an anime forum.

3. Not every homosexual male is a walking fleshbag of AIDS.

Oathkeeper

@Nami:

Seems you have a problem with me. How about adressing it steaight.

See, I was right about Oathkeeper.
Hmm, AP hasn't given me enough attentention. Let's say I might have aids, cus I had sex.with a stranger. And a condom. I'll just leave out that little detail at the start.

I really dont have a problem with you Nami Chan. I DO deserve your suspicion and I REALLY hope you are right in me being an attention whore.

Nami

The first 2 sentences aren't about u. I wouldn't care less if u would have a problem with me.

wolfwood

Alright reel it in now people. You can fight on any other platform you'd like, let's leave this thread be

Oathkeeper

@Nami:

The first 2 sentences aren't about u. I wouldn't care less if u would have a problem with me.

Ok that's it.

What did I do to you? I know I been attention whore-y in the past but I have done anything to you to treat me like this. Are you mad because of how I treated Rin? I would really love to know to correct this issue if possible.

Pochipochi

Seriously, leave it Oathkeeper, as well as anyone else who might still want to talk, Wolfwood just spoke up about this. Take this to PMs. Take this elsewhere. Cool off from this thread.

New page, move on.

Oathkeeper

Ok Sorry. Im going to drop it entirely then. I dont go well with PMs.

Majora

I read all of the OP's confessions. Pretty interesting stuff. He's definitely had some kind of life.

DemonX

I must confess I do not find this amusing. Not at all.

Nolus

So you've probably read my "status updates" recently in the Day thread so you know that I kinda fell in love again. But this time, the boy also fell in love with me, so it's the best feeling in the world right now for me.

And with this feeling came thousands of more. For example I started to hate distance and the fact that teleports aren't invented yet.
More seriously, there is another boy (who is, again, younger than me. I see a pattern here). He was the first one to truly notice that something was going on between me and the other boy (for comprehension's sake, BoyA will be the one I'm in love with and BoyB will be the other). So after talking with me, BoyB admitted that he was kinda into me too but was afraid to take the first steps because he saw that I was… how do I say it... fragile. And didn't want to hurt me accidentally or something like that. He's totally cool with us getting together, he doesn't want me to choose him or anything.

I don't know, I just wanted to write this somewhere, because it occupies my thoughts a little bit too much nowadays.

The other thing is a little bit... well I know I have nothing to hide but I'll still put hide tags around it so those who don't want to read it can skip it.
[hide]If everything goes right, he'll come to Budapest for two days in May. I, of course, will be putting him up for the night. This is all nice and dandy. I even said we have a substitute bed and all that so he has a place to sleep. After we left this idea a little bit under-developed, I wanted to make extra sure of each other's intentions so I asked him if our relationship was a romantic one. He said yes.
Some time after that when we talked more about our meeting I realized that we might want/try to have sex when he's here. Naturally we started talking things over (buying condoms etc.). And he even began asking for advice from his best friend.
And now I'm sitting here and thinking how strange this situation feels. You'd probably guessed that I'm a virgin and I've never ever kissed before. He too is in the same situation (no girlfriend/sex before). He says he wants to make sure it'll feel good for me too and that it won't hurt that much. He's so kind and caring~

I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's a very strange feeling I'm having now with all kinds of new emotions.[/hide]

Arei

@Nolus:

So you've probably read my "status updates" recently in the Day thread so you know that I kinda fell in love again. But this time, the boy also fell in love with me, so it's the best feeling in the world right now for me.

And with this feeling came thousands of more. For example I started to hate distance and the fact that teleports aren't invented yet.
More seriously, there is another boy (who is, again, younger than me. I see a pattern here). He was the first one to truly notice that something was going on between me and the other boy (for comprehension's sake, BoyA will be the one I'm in love with and BoyB will be the other). So after talking with me, BoyB admitted that he was kinda into me too but was afraid to take the first steps because he saw that I was… how do I say it... fragile. And didn't want to hurt me accidentally or something like that. He's totally cool with us getting together, he doesn't want me to choose him or anything.

I don't know, I just wanted to write this somewhere, because it occupies my thoughts a little bit too much nowadays.

The other thing is a little bit... well I know I have nothing to hide but I'll still put hide tags around it so those who don't want to read it can skip it.
[hide]If everything goes right, he'll come to Budapest for two days in May. I, of course, will be putting him up for the night. This is all nice and dandy. I even said we have a substitute bed and all that so he has a place to sleep. After we left this idea a little bit under-developed, I wanted to make extra sure of each other's intentions so I asked him if our relationship was a romantic one. He said yes.
Some time after that when we talked more about our meeting I realized that we might want/try to have sex when he's here. Naturally we started talking things over (buying condoms etc.). And he even began asking for advice from his best friend.
And now I'm sitting here and thinking how strange this situation feels. You'd probably guessed that I'm a virgin and I've never ever kissed before. He too is in the same situation (no girlfriend/sex before). He says he wants to make sure it'll feel good for me too and that it won't hurt that much. He's so kind and caring~

I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's a very strange feeling I'm having now with all kinds of new emotions.[/hide]

Ahhhh I'm smiling so hard right now, so happy for you Nolus!!! I hope everything goes well when you get to meet in person, and he is a swell guy :love:

Also why in the hell is it saying there are more pages but they loop back??? Was there another pissing match I missed?

Foolio

@Arei:

Also why in the hell is it saying there are more pages but they loop back??? Was there another pissing match I missed?

It's being annoying for some reason but at this point I think I'm just going to start a new thread. Almost 4 years and 680+ pages is a good run.