@Nolus:

I'm seriously contemplating suicide again. [hide]I just can't take it anymore, and never will be able to heal. Not even so I can at least function at a low level. I seriously just want to end it all.[/hide]

Life is so ridiculously tough: But look how much you've survived. You've been through a lot of shit and you're still here. You're strong and kind, you can get through this. Sometimes it take a shitload of near endless suffering before the good times roll in. You've been through so much, I know you've got the strength to carry on. Be safe Nolus, and know we care about you here.

@Captain:

My mother left several medicine she took, most boxes are closed and within the expiration date. Among those there are medicines with black stripe and ones with red stripe in the boxes, that within the regulation of therapeutic goods in Brazil, means:Black Stripe Medicines - Includes sedatives (benzodiazepines), some anorexic inducers and other habit-inducing controlled medicines.Red Stripe Psychoactive Medicines - Drugs include anti-depressants, anti-convulsants, some sleep aids, anti-psychotics and other non-habit-inducing controlled medicines.I can't just throw them away, I fear some homeless person would eat those medicines from the trash can, what should I do ?

Around here there's usually a community drop-off for unwanted medication twice a year. IDK how it is for Brazil, but you might can ask the pharmacy or a hospital if they will take leftover medication and dispose of it (here they don't). But even if they don't they should know what you can do. Before you just throw them out or flush them, make sure that's legal where you're at. I know some people will smash tablets and mix them in a baggy full of coffee grounds then throw it in the trash like that.

@Carmilla:

Yaay Arei posted~I am much younger than you guys but I am already stuck in that stage where I feel like I am stagnated and not moving forward and that I need to start living like an adult, emotionally.I have got a lot of motivation. But sometimes I just can't do anything physically because I lack energy, I am too tired, tc. So you should DEFINITELY take care of your body, it'll make things better.And aww Uggs. It'll always hurt probably, but some time will make you deal with it better. Keep on staying strong :3

I'm gonna try and break the stagnant cycle by trying new things and taking classes and see what clicks. I'm tired of living aimlessly, and pharmacy is not something I'm very attached to.. my sanity is fading lol. Life is too short to not do something you're passionate about.@Captain:

Yeah, I am living one day at a time… And suddenly, two months already passed, the first year will be hard, but I have to be strong and keep doing things I like and love.Thanks for all the support guys.

I don't think it ever stops being hard, you just learn to cope a little better over time. many hugs

God this is awful anywhere it happens, but when it's close to home… shit. My mom works a block from where the shootings took place. We were in a movie, and everyone was blowing up her phone. I know a few people who work in that area and are afraid to go to work tomorrow. The news posted a photo of one of the suspected shooters so I hope they're able to catch them soon.

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Update - 4th fatality confirmed, jesus fucking christ.

Here I come to randomly revive the thread (and probably vanish) again.

@Captain:

Since the death of my mother, things are weird or..how can I say, a "Do something or die" situation. My father, unfortunately gave up on our country and dreams that I get a new job in another country, to have a "better life". I still love my country and I wont give it up this easily, but, it is worth the sacrifice ? Sure, have a better life and a decent job are great, but I would feel awful if I betrayed something I have proud.

Besides that, my sadness is getting worst, and now I know I don't have all the time I thought I had, my parents are dying and I still lack motivation to change, to do new stuff.

omg Captain many many hugs You have my condolences ;;

I've been still somewhat stuck in that kind of funk since my grandma died, and it's been 6 years. I feel like I should've been to another stage of life at this point. I have a lot of desire, but zero motivation. I'm gonna try to force myself to take care of my body better, since having more energy would probably help me a lot. It's been a year since I had surgery and physically I'm doing a lot better, but I basically live on coffee and junk food. I got SUPER LUCKY this surgery cured my awful pain, I need to take care of my body better.

I agree with what Chrissie said, leaving your country to pursue a career and a new life doesn't have to mean that you're giving up or disrespecting where you came from. Hell, I wanna leave Texas, but it doesn't mean I'm ever gonna give up on it/not care about my home when I finally leave it. You should do what's best for you and what makes you happy, and a lot of people aren't happy staying where they came from.

I wish I could offer better advice but like I said :V I'm still wallowing in my own funk that I haven't fully come out of yet. Though I think also in my case (aside from the bipolar) I lost a lot of my childhood and having to go into the adult world like that and immediately after losing someone so important to me was a recipe for disaster. Only I can fix myself and get myself going, but I don't feel like a responsible adult, at all. And I don't know how to make myself feel that way, tell myself to save money instead of spend it and MEAN it… I'm struggling. An increase in my meds is helping me a lot, so hopefully with more time I'll get better, finally. For the first time in forever (like really, ever) I find myself being able to calm down and feel zen most of the time... I've never ever EVER felt like that. Just this week there's been a lot of shit that would make me furious happen at work and I've stayed calm and collected. That's really huge for me.

I just gotta figure out how to adult. Adulting is more than taxes and keeping steady employment. I just wish my motivation and drive and love for life would come back to me. They've been gone for way too long.

@LegendarySSJ4:

Most of the Part 6 characters weren't interesting, except for F.F, Jolyne, Ungalo, Versace, Rikiel and Pucci. Still better than Golden Wind though.
Revolutionary girl utena is the only series in this medium that has lesbians that have depth.

I'm really curious to see these interviews, because Part 6 had an exceptional amount of potential that ended up meaningless. There was some of that shit in Part 5 too. I really thought Part 6 was gonna be the best part while reading it, but so many possible plot points and character defining moments are wasted/pointless that by the time I got to the end I felt kinda cheated. I'd love to know what Araki had originally planned. Out of all the parts, Stone Ocean is one of the most intense and fascinating parts.. then it becomes the most disappointing. I was so in love with most of Part 6 cast and I'm forever salty about how it ultimately played out. Araki DID make up for it immensely with SBR and JoJolion (so far), though.

coughcough Speaking of people who never post here anymore >___>

Glad to see you're still collecting Kim!! I've scaled back a lot on the OP merch myself… And since I fell deep into Jojo Hell I'm probably gonna continue that trend, heh.

But!! Thanks to my awesomely kind friend Lina, I was able to get these:

Of course I couldn't pass up Croc~<3

I'm gonna be redoing my displays as soon as I can get some lights and a third Detolf. I'm now at the point I care more about presentation then having as many figures as possible… Hopefully that attitude keeps me from buying too much shit (but there's so much JoJo shit I've gotta have :'D)

suddenly appears months later

I thought the post hiding was mostly people wanting to hide things that could be triggering, but it sort of escalated into people just using them to be polite??

Anyway, how is everyone?

Yanno, I'm also really tired of the scary boob girls and I wanna be offended by genderbend Law BUT IT'S AN OFFICIAL GENDERBEND FIGURE!!! if they do more like Luffyko and Namizo.. I'll lose my shit. THIS HAS BEEN MY DREAAAAAM~ I love the genderbends so much >3<

Random question Louis: Did you ever get the Erwin figure in stock?? I'm worried I missed a payment request or maybe they didn't fulfill your order or something ;3;