Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD

Manny

Alright. I'm ready to face and talk about something that really bothers me:

! When I was like 8 or 9 I didn't know what french kissing was. So then my cousin, also a male who is two months younger than me, showed me by doing it with me. So then when I went to his house we would always go into his room and kiss. This went on for a while until we just stopped for some reason. Don't remember why. I guess I was gay for that period of time. I'm not anymore. Me and my cousin don't talk about it and I'm not sure whether he is gay or not. I didn't think much of it before, but now it disturbs me to know that I kissed another guy. My cousin at that!

RPGJay

It's not that bad. I knew a friend of a friend who did the same thing to his female cousin. And he was 15 at the time.

But I digress it isn't something you should worry about. Kids do all sorts of crazy things y'know?

Besides, everyone is at least a little gay.

Jazzy Jinx

@Nami: I'm very sorry you had to deal with an asshole like that. It's truly sickening when total strangers have the audacity to be jerks to someone. I'm not targetting you specifically but there are people out there with weaker hearts that are on the precipice of suicide and the only thing they need to follow trough is some random asshole being a jerk. This is why I don't bully anyone and I apologize sincerely whenever one of my immature jokes offends somebody.

My ex-girlfriend was prone to panic attacks so I know how it must feel. A huge reason I'll never go on a train ride alone again is because it just freaking sucks. You need someone you care about (at least remotely) there to keep your sanity together. I hate solitude so much and yet people still isolate me. The reason I keep my sins in mind is because I don't want to feel like I deserve to have someone break the ice with me. It's selfish, but keeping my sins in mind actually lightens the pain of being alone.

Manny

Personally, I like some time to myself. Gives me time to think about things that I enjoy thinking about. Some people (particularly my parents) say that I spend too much time alone, but I don't care. At the end of the day I know that I find happiness in my solitude. I don't like spending too much time with people. I guess I'm just a loner.

Nami

well, I just seal this monday as an assholeday and now I'm over it. In my teenage years this day would follow me over weeks.
And this also is for me the reason I don't bully people. This and because I know how it feels to be the bullied one. But who doesn't know that..

The thing is.. I really enjoy going by bus or train. I even love it. Since I was 14 I travelled a lot by train.
It's more difficult for me to go by train with someone I know. Because at some point you don't know what to say anymore but you don't want to be so rude and sleep or put music on even so you really want that to do. It's exhausting to be with others..

Jazzy Jinx

I feel like an asshole now because I'm not much of a talker so when I run out of stuff to say I just don't talk. I was more referring to ridiculously long trips like the one I took, anyways. It was 36 hours there and 36 hours back. I could literally feel my brain deteriorate but I didn't have music or a DS so that probably contributed to it.

Ekila

Well, I have been keeping this for a while, but I had other accounts beside this one. I never used two at the same time, but with problems in real life, I wanted to start over, so hence new accounts and new emails. My first account on AP forums was "nessfromhyrule" (Somewhere around in 2007?) I asked that account to be banned after some time. I came back after that as "herolucas" (which I had for only a few posts, and stopped using it by changing the password to something else so that I won't remember it.) And the account after that was "windtriforce" (an admin knew about this account since I told them, but not the the "herolucas" one) which after some time I did the same thing as with the other account with changing the password and such. I decided after that to be gone of "nessfromhyrule" and come back as a new name, which was "fxjoey0" but due to problems in real life, I asked to have that account to be banned. This is my final account, and I stopped doing these kinds of things. I'm really sorry to everyone here about these extra accounts.

RPGJay

Why can't us loners ever find eachother irl?

Jazzy Jinx

@RPGJay:

Why can't us loners ever find eachother irl?

Because loners never meet each other ever, ever.

Nami

@RPGJay:

Why can't us loners ever find eachother irl?

cause people will always be alone don't matter how much you love someone.

RPGJay

I feel we've all grown much closer today. Maybe when I shift back into one of my depressive moods again, I'll actually post something of my own aside from being dead afraid of ghosts.

We might be loners, but we are nakama now.

Nami

@RPGJay:

I feel we've all grown much closer today. Maybe when I shift back into one of my depressive moods again, I'll actually post something of my own aside from being dead afraid of ghosts.

We might be loners, but we are nakama now.

you're really romantic.

I always try my hardest NOT to post intim things about myself when I'm depressed even though this is always the time I want to write it the most.

And be aware. Nakamas won't heal your lonely heart~

RPGJay

I only get depressed 2 weeks nonconsecutively (aka many days usually not connected to eachother) every year. Among my friends, I have to be the strong one emotionally. My best friend can get into some really bad moods sometimes, but I listen to him and talk with him about it. And I'm the only one who can cheer him up when he's that down.

I would call myself a loner and a bit lonely, but I have some good friends that bring me up when I am occasionally down.

Maybe I am a hopeless romantic, but I can honestly say I'm pretty content with it. It can get a hell of a lot worse and it could be significantly better, but right now, I'm okay with that.

SantoryuMaster97

You all are very strong individuals, let me tell ya.
Unfortuantely i dont have anything important to add to my life.

! Back when i was 10 my cousin would make me laugh to the point where i couldn't breathe and i loved it. I would always make some kind of sex joke or inappropriate comment, that he would react to in a funny way. One night when he was over my house i began to pretend strip. Were both dudes and ill never forget that night, i laughed and found it hilarious. Hopefully he will never bring that up in an argument or some kind of confessional thing.

I vow to kill anyone who abuses dogs. If i see a dog getting hurt i go apeshit or almost cry. Yet if i see a cat taking such abuse i couldnt care less.
Ive never had a girlfriend before :( im 16 and i dont do jackshit.
Im afraid of peoples opinions, im so shy that even a strangers look at me will make me feel nervous.
I miss her, the closest one i felt a connection to after 3 years
I didnt want to play football because i felt that i would run too much, yet i play baseball with everything i got and never give up. :/
Baseball will always be #2, Football is my passion :(

Well ok i think im good for now

Sakonosolo

I have another account on here. Though I've only used it to post a few times.

Nami

I'm a hopeless romantic myself.
Ok, I say pessimistic things but in the end I really wish and hope it will get better. I'm just frustrated and then I start saying things filled with bitterness. Deep in my heart there's always hope where hope shouldn't exist anymore:)

SantoryuMaster97

Good.

Being hopeful keeps us going. always hope for the best. It happens

Nami

@SantoryuMaster97:

Good.

Being hopeful keeps us going. always hope for the best. It happens

yeah, the question is when. till now there was nothing coming true I hoped for. It always got worse :D

edit: I think to expect nothing is better. But I can't do that and this is what freaks me out.

Jazzy Jinx

@Nami:

I'm a hopeless romantic myself.
Ok, I say pessimistic things but in the end I really wish and hope it will get better. I'm just frustrated and then I start saying things filled with bitterness. Deep in my heart there's always hope where hope shouldn't exist anymore:)

My approach to everything is to hope for the best and expect the worse. I don't care so much for romance perse but I do seek to exercise my nuturing nature. If I had the finacial stability then I'd adopt a kid right now.

Nami

@Uncle:

My approach to everything is to hope for the best and expect the worse. I don't care so much for romance perse but I do seek to exercise my nuturing nature. If I had the finacial stability then I'd adopt a kid right now.

oh yes, me too :cwy:

Flux

You guys are all very deep people. Respect for you guys just went through the roof for some of you.

Smudger

@Mono631:

Alright. I'm ready to face and talk about something that really bothers me:

! When I was like 8 or 9 I didn't know what french kissing was. So then my cousin, also a male who is two months younger than me, showed me by doing it with me. So then when I went to his house we would always go into his room and kiss. This went on for a while until we just stopped for some reason. Don't remember why. I guess I was gay for that period of time. I'm not anymore. Me and my cousin don't talk about it and I'm not sure whether he is gay or not. I didn't think much of it before, but now it disturbs me to know that I kissed another guy. My cousin at that!

I confess that this is probably something you should have kept to yourself.

Sorry to rain on the group hug parade fellow Arlongparkians.

Nami

@Smudger:

I confess that this is probably something you should have kept to yourself.

Why? I don't see anything wrong with this confession.

SantoryuMaster97

Meh, its not a big deal at all.

I mean c'mon atleast were trying. I just cant say anything.

oh oh i remember being 6 and there were rocks surrounding my pool or atleast 25% was like a little waterfall surrounded by rocks. I saw a bee, yes a bee flying around and when it came to me i ran to the rocks trying to make it go away, fell into the pool and scraped my entire life side of my body. Lol

RPGJay

It's not a big deal. At all.

Flux

That was probably a big weight to unload for you Manny.

Manny

Just a little.

sob sob

Flux

@Mono631:

Just a little.

sob sob

Let Uncle Kenny make it better.

[/Herbert Voice]

Jazzy Jinx

Ha ha ha.

Manny is so GAY!

Nami

I have really big weights. But I know it wouldn't help a bit if I would post it and read nice cheering words. But I think this is because I'm mostly already satisfied and can live with the things from my past. As Luffy says it "past doesn't matter" at least not in all ways. It's good to know the mistakes you've done so you're able to not repeat it.

Manny

Much, much better!:happy:

RPGJay

I wish the internet could transmit hugs sometimes.

Flux

Gets a Barrel and surrounds it with Manny, Uncle Kenny, Nami, RPGJay, etcetera

WE ARE NAKAMA!!1!!

Nami

@RPGJay:

I wish the internet could transmit hugs sometimes.

me too. And sex.

wolfwood

@SantoryuMaster97:

Im afraid of peoples opinions, im so shy that even a strangers look at me will make me feel nervous.

I've had problems with that as well.

It's not as bad these days, but back in oh 2008 or so i was the king of all doormats due to that.

SantoryuMaster97

Or cookies…Definitely cookies

@wolfwood - I literally stand at a teachers door for like 10 minutes when i know i didnt knock loud enough just thinking, "Shit people are gonna look at me weird"

Nami

@Flux:

Gets a Barrel and surrounds it with Manny, Uncle Kenny, Nami, RPGJay, etcetera

WE ARE NAKAMA!!1!!

oh, finally some people here starting to like me. niii~ce

trappedolphin

@Flux:

Gets a Barrel and surrounds it with Manny, Uncle Kenny, Nami, RPGJay, etcetera

WE ARE NAKAMA!!1!!

What about me? :cwy: Am I nothing more than an etcetera to you?

Nami

@trappedolphin:

What about me? :cwy: Am I nothing more than an etcetera to you?

you're more to me snuggles her penis to yours

Flux

@trappedolphin:

What about me? :cwy: Am I nothing more than an etcetera to you?

You are much more than Nakama, you are gonna be Kaizoku ou!! Our Leader. (Hugh Laurie)

Sheep

When did this turn into a futa thread?
I'm not sure what to think of this.

Manny

However, I can't help but feel that some APers are going to think that I am gay after all of this. So in retrospect, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to post that. Oh well, it doesn't matter. This is just teh internetz.

Jazzy Jinx

@trappedolphin:

What about me? :cwy: Am I nothing more than an etcetera to you?

Of course you're part of it.

We need at least one person onboard that we can shun regularly.

SantoryuMaster97

Lol, i wish i had nakama….oh Mark Sanchez! :D (no homo)

Nami

@iSheep:

When did this turn into a futa thread?
I'm not sure what to think of this.

just enjoy itttt.

Flux

@Uncle:

Of course you're part of it.

We need at least one person onboard that we can shun regularly.

Hugh 'TrappedDolphin' Laurie isn't going to be our Usopp.

Manny

@trappedolphin:

What about me? :cwy: Am I nothing more than an etcetera to you?

Being an ectetera isn't that bad. At least you're not the other guys. :ninja:

Jazzy Jinx

@Flux:

Hugh Laurie isn't going to be our Usopp.

Dur hur, he's Sogeking. :ninja:

Nami

no he's mansopp.

Flux

Hugh Laurie is Batman. And Usopp is an inbred attic child.