Ohh, I really don't want to say too much here, but I'm becoming even more afraid of my home life than before…
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I feel like shit. What Mr. Foolio said is correct, even when Im trying to act nice, I still cant fit anywhere. And I know he's right. Im a terrible person. I cant fit no matter what.
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trying to act nice
There's your problem.
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Precisely, Im not a nice person. Its ingrained.
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I think that's why Foolio suggested this isn't the best thread for you to post in. It does tend to be people venting their pain or working out some heavy stuff, and so people here are more vulnerable than elsewhere.
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But Im vulnerable and stuff…And Robby already told me Im not fit for the other parts of the forum. That means this is the last part of the forum where I can be accepted.
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Foolio is not trying to make you feel bad Oath and I doubt Robby is trying to box you into some kind of thread prison. It seems like they're trying to help you change the way you address people as this might be an occuring problem. We all have them and the only way to address them is by careful analysis of ourselves and changing our behavior for the better. Giving into self criticism and calling yourself "terrible" is not the way.
No one here is calling you that but yourself and where you fit in is ultimately up to you and the community. It's not a matter of conforming it's a matter of self improvement. If you need to work on being nicer then do so. Don't fake it, start small.
No one is telling you to get out of this thread. Merely suggesting a change in how you present yourself through posts will make your participation in this thread more amicable.
Also, you made an honest mistake and it's no big deal so please don't turn it into something it's not.
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Ok! Thanks Outerspec. You are nice.
Sorry Nami, for the mistake before. I will be more careful and tactful in the future. I love you guys, and I really want to be your friend.
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List of things I don't dislike or hate that a lot of people do
-Country music
-One Direction
-People who like different music, games, movies, etc. than me
-I don't dislike or hate people or works because of the fanbase. It would be because the work or person itself doesn't appeal to me.
-People who don't have perfect spelling, grammar, punctuation, etc.
-People who don't get hints or sarcasm (seriously, it's not their fault, especially if they have autism which taking things literally is a trait of for some who have it)
-People who wear revealing clothing
-Nickelback
-People who aren't interested in "deep" subjects like literature, philosophy, learning in general, etc.I think most of the above (excluding the music and bands I mentioned; that's a personal preference issue) are petty reasons to not like someone.
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Ok! Thanks Outerspec. You are nice.
Sorry Nami, for the mistake before. I will be more careful and tactful in the future. I love you guys, and I really want to be your friend.
What is your native language, Oathkeeper??
I don't think the things you are saying are "creepy", I see the things you say and how you say them as having a limited grasp on the english language. Not to say your english is terrible (it isn't!) but I think people are mistaking that you're being creepy instead of just not knowing enough words/ways of properly speaking in english. I've noticed that with a few other people on the forums lately and over the years… they come off really bad and brash because they just don't know the nuances well enough. Now there HAVE been and ARE people that have been creepy and shitty despite this, but I really haven't seen anything wrong here.
Though honestly I don't remember your past usernames/transgressions? What was one of them???
I've noticed a lot of the shitbags around here either left (finally) or cleaned up their act (and of course, I've made a ton of personal changes, myself).
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@Medical:
List of things I don't dislike or hate that a lot of people do
-Country music
-One Direction
-People who like different music, games, movies, etc. than me
-I don't dislike or hate people or works because of the fanbase. It would be because the work or person itself doesn't appeal to me.
-People who don't have perfect spelling, grammar, punctuation, etc.
-People who don't get hints or sarcasm (seriously, it's not their fault, especially if they have autism which taking things literally is a trait of for some who have it)
-People who wear revealing clothing
-Nickelback
-People who aren't interested in "deep" subjects like literature, philosophy, learning in general, etc.I think most of the above (excluding the music and bands I mentioned; that's a personal preference issue) are petty reasons to not like someone.
This.
It might still be, because I don't really venture much around the forums except for here and collectibles nowadays, but this used to be a major problem around here and part of the reason I took a long hiatus. There was so much shit slinging and assholery over people who "couldn't take a joke", didn't get sarcasm, and espeically if they weren't very knowledgable about worldly topics. Couldn't have differing opinions, and you couldn't just have a "mild" or "casual" interest in something if you wanted to discuss it or have an opinion on it, you had to be a motherfucking guru on whatever you wanted to talk about before you could speak or you were ripped to shreds. So many shitbags with superiority complexes running about. I've noticed most of them are gone and calmed down, so maybe that's why the attitude has changed around here.
But seriously some of the shit that went on in sports threads or news/philosophical discussions was completely childish and asinine. Ruined too many amazing discussions.
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My confession is that I've been losing my sense of disgust. It's almost gone.
@Medical:List of things I don't dislike or hate that a lot of people do
-People who aren't interested in "deep" subjects like literature, philosophy, learning in general, etc.There are a lot of people who hate other people for not being interested in philosophy?
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What is your native language, Oathkeeper??
I don't think the things you are saying are "creepy", I see the things you say and how you say them as having a limited grasp on the english language. Not to say your english is terrible (it isn't!) but I think people are mistaking that you're being creepy instead of just not knowing enough words/ways of properly speaking in english. I've noticed that with a few other people on the forums lately and over the years… they come off really bad and brash because they just don't know the nuances well enough. Now there HAVE been and ARE people that have been creepy and shitty despite this, but I really haven't seen anything wrong here.
Though honestly I don't remember your past usernames/transgressions? What was one of them???
I've noticed a lot of the shitbags around here either left (finally) or cleaned up their act (and of course, I've made a ton of personal changes, myself).
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This.
It might still be, because I don't really venture much around the forums except for here and collectibles nowadays, but this used to be a major problem around here and part of the reason I took a long hiatus. There was so much shit slinging and assholery over people who "couldn't take a joke", didn't get sarcasm, and espeically if they weren't very knowledgable about worldly topics. Couldn't have differing opinions, and you couldn't just have a "mild" or "casual" interest in something if you wanted to discuss it or have an opinion on it, you had to be a motherfucking guru on whatever you wanted to talk about before you could speak or you were ripped to shreds. So many shitbags with superiority complexes running about. I've noticed most of them are gone and calmed down, so maybe that's why the attitude has changed around here.
But seriously some of the shit that went on in sports threads or news/philosophical discussions was completely childish and asinine. Ruined too many amazing discussions.
Spanish, My native language is Spanish.
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Been thinking really hard about my depression and the possibility of it being a sickness and not just a one time thing. People tell me that some symptoms are having "episodes" but i don't really keep close track of them. Some other friends gave me some links so i could check for symptoms but i don't feel secure about self-diagnozing. It sucks because they tell me it's expensive :S I really hope i'm overreacting in this and i'm just a little bitch.
About this, i asked my brother and sister while we were in the car "Do you think i'm depresive?" They didn't even think about it and told me that i am. A lot. And said that maybe it was somethig medical :S
edit: also, now that i think about it, it may be that i haven't wrote in a long time. I mean, i know i'm writing right now but i mean to like really write. Short stories, poems and that. I've always coped depression with writing (well, it's pretty common for someone who writes to get really depressed at least in my experience) but lately i haven't had time because of work…or even because of Pokemón Y xD. Haven't read as much lately too. It's just that playing pokemón makes me feel fine...and i've made good friends in it :3
Working thru some stuff. Dunno how long i will be here.
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Been thinking really hard about my depression and the possibility of it being a sickness and not just a one time thing. People tell me that some symptoms are having "episodes" but i don't really keep close track of them. Some other friends gave me some links so i could check for symptoms but i don't feel secure about self-diagnozing. It sucks because they tell me it's expensive :S I really hope i'm overreacting in this and i'm just a little bitch.
About this, i asked my brother and sister while we were in the car "Do you think i'm depresive?" They didn't even think about it and told me that i am. A lot. And said that maybe it was somethig medical :S
edit: also, now that i think about it, it may be that i haven't wrote in a long time. I mean, i know i'm writing right now but i mean to like really write. Short stories, poems and that. I've always coped depression with writing (well, it's pretty common for someone who writes to get really depressed at least in my experience) but lately i haven't had time because of work…or even because of Pokemón Y xD. Haven't read as much lately too. It's just that playing pokemón makes me feel fine...and i've made good friends in it :3
Hey, if pokemon makes you happy and you're making friends. Ain't nothing wrong with that. Just don't let it take over your life and interfere with work, lol. Also, if you think you might be suffering depression it might be best to go get diagnosed. Get checked, you know and put the guesswork to rest. It might not be as expensive as you think and you can always look around for the best prices and treatments.
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Been thinking really hard about my depression and the possibility of it being a sickness and not just a one time thing. People tell me that some symptoms are having "episodes" but i don't really keep close track of them. Some other friends gave me some links so i could check for symptoms but i don't feel secure about self-diagnozing. It sucks because they tell me it's expensive :S I really hope i'm overreacting in this and i'm just a little bitch.
About this, i asked my brother and sister while we were in the car "Do you think i'm depresive?" They didn't even think about it and told me that i am. A lot. And said that maybe it was somethig medical :S
edit: also, now that i think about it, it may be that i haven't wrote in a long time. I mean, i know i'm writing right now but i mean to like really write. Short stories, poems and that. I've always coped depression with writing (well, it's pretty common for someone who writes to get really depressed at least in my experience) but lately i haven't had time because of work…or even because of Pokemón Y xD. Haven't read as much lately too. It's just that playing pokemón makes me feel fine...and i've made good friends in it :3
There is a massive difference between a case of the blues and full on depression. If you think you have it, you really have it. Your siblings have confirmed they think you're very depressed. Talk to your regular doctor (if you trust them well enough) or find a good psychiatrist. Though really, and I STRESS this, if any doctor or therapist pressures you over anything or makes you uncomfortable, you NEED to find another one. Don't settle for someone thinking you are the one with the problem, you're stupid, and they will lead you down the right path. Trust me, there are tons of assholes out there and a ton of people that only want to shove brand name drugs down your throat and get their kick-backs. You should never feel threatened and unsafe. The right doctor will lead you down the right path, and you might have to get on medication to get you straight. When you find the right form of therapy and/or medication, everything will be worth it.
I always used writing as a coping tool but, I haven't been doing it enough as I would like. I've been so tired from work, and I'm mostly either sleeping or playing video games. I'm depressed because I've overslept and missed doing stuff with friends because I am just so exhausted. And now because someone is taking a trip out of the country, I can't even get an entire weekend off to go do anything. I'm glad atleast this time since I've gone back home, my mom has a job (and now it's going to be PERMANENT!! YESSSSSS) and we don't have to be up in each other's business. Despite this shitty-ass abusive job, my sanity is staying.
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if you're feeling depressed, helpful things to do are: exercising, going outside (maybe going for a walk which would get your exercise), eating fruits like bananas and oranges in the mornings and taking your vitamins, cutting out shitty fast foods, and going to bed early (zzzquil is your friend)
it doesn't really help right away, but it snowballs into more energy and a better sense of accomplishment after a few days-a week. also, going to bed earlier eliminates staying up late and feeling mopey
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Thank you for the recommendations guys.
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Day by day, it becomes clearer and clearer that I really do not belong in this country. I have different ideals, different views, different morals. How the hell did I survive here for so long? How did I go on without knowing for sure that I had a future in a country where I actually FIT in? It feels like I am drowning in a sea of ignorant, uneducated, propaganda-swallowing misers and my only bubble of air, is the fact that I am getting the fuck out of here and that something better and brighter is waiting for me far, far away from this shithole of an island.
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Day by day, it becomes clearer and clearer that I really do not belong in this country. I have different ideals, different views, different morals. How the hell did I survive here for so long? How did I go on without knowing for sure that I had a future in a country where I actually FIT in? It feels like I am drowning in a sea of ignorant, uneducated, propaganda-swallowing misers and my only bubble of air, is the fact that I am getting the fuck out of here and that something better and brighter is waiting for me far, far away from this shithole of an island.
I'm in your same position, except I don't have the money to get the fuck away from here. Yet.
Eh, fuck it.
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I'm in your same position, except I don't have the money to get the fuck away from here. Yet.
Save, save, save and try applying for jobs out of the country. Even short-term ones. I have two friends (a couple of teachers) that hop from country to country like this and they are moving in Australia this July as their next stop. I guess they do it until I find a place that sticks.
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Just venting here.
Poetry isn't my forte, nor do I want it to ever be, but one of my classes has me doing a poem based on an angry memory of a parent, and it's getting to me more than I thought.
I did one on my dad because we had a lot of issues, but what's really getting to me is how he hated cats, while I adored them. Then one day, he just got fed up with something stupid and kicked them off the deck of our house (about 20ft high). We lived near a forest and so I went looking for them and found them, but I couldn't find the black one. Ever.
I hate him for that and much more, and it's moments like those that I'm glad he's dead now, and thankful so I know what kind of father I'm not going to be if I ever become one, and I sure will say I love you to my children so they know it without ever questioning it.
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Day by day, it becomes clearer and clearer that I really do not belong in this country. I have different ideals, different views, different morals. How the hell did I survive here for so long? How did I go on without knowing for sure that I had a future in a country where I actually FIT in? It feels like I am drowning in a sea of ignorant, uneducated, propaganda-swallowing misers and my only bubble of air, is the fact that I am getting the fuck out of here and that something better and brighter is waiting for me far, far away from this shithole of an island.
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the cool thing about casual sexual abuse is the way it manifests itself past age 21, a very very long time after I thought I was "over it", or thought it didn't mean anything
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@Holy:
the cool thing about casual sexual abuse is the way it manifests itself past age 21, a very very long time after I thought I was "over it", or thought it didn't mean anything
I don't quite understand, do you mean some form of self abuse in a sexual way or to casual sex? And if it's the second you have to really, really have the mindset of what you are getting of it (Purely physical pleasure, a good time, etc) or it will turn into something awful. Been there a lot.
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The secret third option. I was sexually abused in really casual manners as a kid and it has been an incredible slow, slow burn as I get older and watch my mental house of cards just sort of collapse on itself as I realize even my emotional cognizance is wrecked. Like every few months it's something new, or it feels like I get worse. In what ways? Seems like any honestly. My credit card has some disney characters in a buddy buddy pose and sometimes it means nothing because it's just a goofy credit card haha. and sometimes it makes me feel ill and i don't like seeing it. It's like that, except constantly everywhere I go at everything and anything in inconsistent ways.
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@Holy:
The secret third option. I was sexually abused in really casual manners as a kid and it has been an incredible slow, slow burn as I get older and watch my mental house of cards just sort of collapse on itself as I realize even my emotional cognizance is wrecked. Like every few months it's something new, or it feels like I get worse. In what ways? Seems like any honestly. My credit card has some disney characters in a buddy buddy pose and sometimes it means nothing because it's just a goofy credit card haha. and sometimes it makes me feel ill and i don't like seeing it. It's like that, except constantly everywhere I go at everything and anything in inconsistent ways.
Oh, man. I don't know what to say. It's the kind of thing that some random stranger in internet can't make better or more palatable. I even feel like it will be disrepect to try to understand that kind of pain or feeling you're going through. I guess what i can do is lend a patient ear that can be there to listen whenever you need it? i wish i could help you in more ways but if there's anything you need to talk about i can listen.
Sorry, i'm kinda stupid at this :(
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thinking what to say to Holy
has no idea
Hang in there… Really dunno what else to say :s
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@Holy:
the cool thing about casual sexual abuse is the way it manifests itself past age 21, a very very long time after I thought I was "over it", or thought it didn't mean anything
You don't need to go into detail, but I'm wondering what falls under casual sexual abuse.
I'm curious because I may have done something along those lines to a kid when I was younger, and now I'm thinking about how it affected him.
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@Holy:
The secret third option. I was sexually abused in really casual manners as a kid and it has been an incredible slow, slow burn as I get older and watch my mental house of cards just sort of collapse on itself as I realize even my emotional cognizance is wrecked. Like every few months it's something new, or it feels like I get worse. In what ways? Seems like any honestly. My credit card has some disney characters in a buddy buddy pose and sometimes it means nothing because it's just a goofy credit card haha. and sometimes it makes me feel ill and i don't like seeing it. It's like that, except constantly everywhere I go at everything and anything in inconsistent ways.
Terrible sorry to hear this Holy.
I too don't know exactly what to say except hang in there.
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@Holy:
The secret third option. I was sexually abused in really casualknoners as a kid and it has been an incredible slow, slow burn as I get older and watch my mental house of cards just sort of collapse on itself as I realize even my emotional cognizance is wrecked. Like every few months it's something new, or it feels like I get worse. In what ways? Seems like any honestly. My credit card has some disney characters in a buddy buddy pose and sometimes it means nothing because it's just a goofy credit card haha. and sometimes it makes me feel ill and i don't like seeing it. It's like that, except constantly everywhere I go at everything and anything in inconsistent ways.
Hey holy. We're basically in the same boat here. I think I've grown out of the 'victim' state. The state where everything that ever happened in your life, your behaviour and emotions had to do with the fact you've been sexually abused. It is recommended for everyone who went through sexual trauma to make a therapy. I had a few sessions when I was younger but nothing helpful. I don't know if you've done anything like this but I would recommend it, as I said.
Ok actually what I just wanted to do is offer my help. I've been where you are, I don't know IF I can help but I would like to try. You can talk to me, you can tell me everything u connect with the abuse, yoh can tell me why you think the abuse made you like this or that or why it didn't
But one thing I also want to say. It doesn't matter if u like disney because of the past or not. Why should it matter?
Yes, your past has formed you but what forms you even more is just your own self. You decide what u like.what made u like it is not important in the end. What's important is your happiness.
So instead of saying that I like Disney because it makes me relive the sorrowless childhood I never had, I say I love Disney because it makes me happy :)
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I love Wrestling.
I love wrestling too. Who's your favorite wrestler? Mine is currently Sami Zayn/El Generico.
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I love wrestling too. Who's your favorite wrestler? Mine is currently Sami Zayn/El Generico.
Cesaro is my favorite on the current wwe roster.
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I'm with the consensus here in that I don't know what to say without sounding like a douche who thinks he can possibly empathize with what you all have gone through. I hope my sympathy, though, is accepted.
Holy Hell and Nami, you two are amazingly courageous for sharing something so personal with others and facing whatever obstacles lie in your path. For your inspiring strength, I salute you two.
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^ Says he doesn't know what to say
Then proceeds to say something so perfect it's hard to think of anything better to say. xDIn other news
! So I'm finding myself in a kind of really weird situation.
Where I am kind of somewhat conceivably starting to get a crush on this guy … even though I have a girlfriend I am pretty into.
! It's an extremely confusing and strange situation and I don't understand it. T-T -
Lol, sometimes people only find something to say when they don't know what else to say. Those people sometimes wind up sounding like passionate idiots (me, myself, and I) but they're honest and true.
Anyway, it sounds like you're dating a person but you're developing feelings for another person. Sounds pretty typical to me except in your case one is a guy and one is a girl. Which can make it pretty confusing if these type of feelings for the same sex never happened with you before. What I recommened? Same rule applies for any reltionship. Don't cheat!
Everything's Eventual…
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Anyway, it sounds like you're dating a person but you're developing feelings for another person. Sounds pretty typical to me except in your case one is a guy and one is a girl. Which can make it pretty confusing if these type of feelings for the opposite sex never happened with you before. What I recommened? Same rule applies for any reltionship. Don't cheat!
! Fixed a minor detail. I guess the confusion is just from finding guys kind of constantly unappealing and the idea of sex with them … disturbing ... so that now having a man make me feel that way, that want, is particularly intriguing and at the same time very very weird. I mean, emotional connections towards men don't bother me because I tend to care about people, but desire? Wanting stuff with them? That's new and I don't know how to feel about it.
And yea, my relationship is far too awesome for me to consider ever going through with anything. It's the novelty more than anything that's kind of messing with my brain.
! Maybe I'm just hypersexual right now or something. Idk. I should probably stop sharing all of the intimate details now. Yup, I'll do that
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! Fixed a minor detail. I guess the confusion is just from finding guys kind of constantly unappealing and the idea of sex with them … disturbing ... so that now having a man make me feel that way, that want, is particularly intriguing and at the same time very very weird. I mean, emotional connections towards men don't bother me because I tend to care about people, but desire? Wanting stuff with them? That's new and I don't know how to feel about it.
And yea, my relationship is far too awesome for me to consider ever going through with anything. It's the novelty more than anything that's kind of messing with my brain.
! Maybe I'm just hypersexual right now or something. Idk. I should probably stop sharing all of the intimate details now. Yup, I'll do thatThat is very intriguing. Well, it seems like you're in a good relationship right now so in the end that's all that matters.
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Want a confession? Here's mine.
Im Aegis, infamous in the fandom for being stupid and so on. Im gay and Christian, I believe in God but I dont think people who dont are godless heathens or horrible people. I was banned many times in the past. One for whining about TV Tropes, 2 for Whining about The Incredibles aesop, 3 for being creepy towards Femme,Shuhan and Meta Mario and I have yet to be banned again. Im hardcore feminist but not tumblr level thankfully, Im a bit of a Pollyanna and believe in people.
I had a terrible day today at college, I raised my hand and forgot what I had to say, everyone laughed at me. Im not sure I can go on like this.
I love Muslims, and I find them awesome! I know there are many bad people who happen to be Muslims but I dont think they define what a Muslim is. I had 2 muslim friends(Femme and Miss Moonlight at Fanfiction.net) who I talked a lot about what our religions had in common, it was refreshing that we talked passionately about God and our dreams and ambitions without there being any tension.One day I even had a dream where I met a woman named Maryam (Femme's name AND Virgin Mary's name in Arabic) in a white hijab who hugged me and wished me peace, I thought it was Femme but then I realized it was probably Virgin Mary. See in church, there's a "segment" in church where you hug your fellow believers and wish peace be upon them. I told Femme about this and she got creeped out. You can guess what happened next. To be fair I dont blame her.
I feel that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I will lose my friends and eventually end up completely alone. Im constantly losing people dear to me and I feel there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I love ShuShu's passion for MLP and life in general, he's a good brony but also an amazing person.
I liked Crystal Ship and I wish I had been here to stop her from going crazy and getting banned.
I love Robby, I know he and I had our differences, but I know he's awesome.
Im pro choice on abortion, but feel a pang inside for every aborted baby.
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People legit shipping real people why.
Also people taking everything as some social justice message why.
I had a terrible day today at college, I raised my hand and forgot what I had to say, everyone laughed at me. Im not sure I can go on like this.
If they haven't forgotten by tomorrow, they will in a few days. People like a quick laugh, but they don't care beyond that.
I feel that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I will lose my friends and eventually end up completely alone. Im constantly losing people dear to me and I feel there's nothing I can do to stop it.
It sucks, but them's the brakes.
As cheesy as it sounds the worst thing you can do is dwell on it. If you don't find anything to help fill that void, time'll pass and you'll get mad at yourself for not doing anything and it'll turn into a vicious cycle.
Personally, I recommend joining a club (since you're in college). It's a good way to meet people; and even if you don't form any really close friendships, just being around people in a social setting can help ease loneliness.
Im pro choice on abortion, but feel a pang inside for every aborted baby.
If it's any consolation, the vast majority are aborted before they develop any pain receptors. And they haven't developed a conscious yet anyway.
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Don't live in the past. Learn from it. Live now and prepare for the future.
I had a terrible day today at college, I raised my hand and forgot what I had to say, everyone laughed at me. Im not sure I can go on like this.
Your entire day at college was ruined becasue of 1 silly mistake in class? There has to be more to it than that, but if not then please don't let stuff like that snowball out of hand to ruin the rest of your day. Your classmates don't deserve that kind of power over you.
I feel that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I will lose my friends and eventually end up completely alone. Im constantly losing people dear to me and I feel there's nothing I can do to stop it.
Your worst enemy here is yourself. That probably extends to a few more of your problems. We all face this problem within ourselves and it's a tough one. You feel like you can't keep a friend so how do you expect to keep a friend? If you don't believe in yourself don't expect others to pick up the slack and believe in you, for you.
The best kind of friend is the one who sticks around for who you are. You shouldn't have to try so hard to keep one.
(I could only concentrate on these quotes as the other portions of your comment come across as very random or personal remarks towards specific individuals.)
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Want a confession? Here's mine.
Im Aegis, infamous in the fandom for being stupid and so on. Im gay and Christian, I believe in God but I dont think people who dont are godless heathens or horrible people. I was banned many times in the past. One for whining about TV Tropes, 2 for Whining about The Incredibles aesop, 3 for being creepy towards Femme,Shuhan and Meta Mario and I have yet to be banned again. Im hardcore feminist but not tumblr level thankfully, Im a bit of a Pollyanna and believe in people.
I had a terrible day today at college, I raised my hand and forgot what I had to say, everyone laughed at me. Im not sure I can go on like this.
I love Muslims, and I find them awesome! I know there are many bad people who happen to be Muslims but I dont think they define what a Muslim is. I had 2 muslim friends(Femme and Miss Moonlight at Fanfiction.net) who I talked a lot about what our religions had in common, it was refreshing that we talked passionately about God and our dreams and ambitions without there being any tension.One day I even had a dream where I met a woman named Maryam (Femme's name AND Virgin Mary's name in Arabic) in a white hijab who hugged me and wished me peace, I thought it was Femme but then I realized it was probably Virgin Mary. See in church, there's a "segment" in church where you hug your fellow believers and wish peace be upon them. I told Femme about this and she got creeped out. You can guess what happened next. To be fair I dont blame her.
I feel that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I will lose my friends and eventually end up completely alone. Im constantly losing people dear to me and I feel there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I love ShuShu's passion for MLP and life in general, he's a good brony but also an amazing person.
I liked Crystal Ship and I wish I had been here to stop her from going crazy and getting banned.
I love Robby, I know he and I had our differences, but I know he's awesome.
Im pro choice on abortion, but feel a pang inside for every aborted baby.
I bet it feels good to get that all off your chest.
Aegis… That totally sounds familiar but I can't think of anything..
I feel that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I will lose my friends and eventually end up completely alone. Im constantly losing people dear to me and I feel there's nothing I can do to stop it.
There IS something you can do to stop it. You need to, probably with professional help, look at what you are doing that is causing you to lose friends, case by case, and figure out what the common denominator is. Why do you keep losing friendships?
For example, a good part of my issues were I was overly judgmental, opinionated, and even though it was unintentional, sometimes I would say or voice my opinions just because I could and people would THINK I was trying to shove them down their throat… the point being, some things just don't need to be shared. There's usually a time, place, and person for what you want to discuss about, not everyone is the same and you can't approach every single person the same way. Understand and think about who you are talking to, before you throw out your opinions.
When you find out what you think might be something that is causing you to lose friends, then work on stopping it. And eventually, something else will come up that is hindering you that you didn't think about, and you'll have to stop and work on that etc etc. You'll take some steps back after you take a few steps forward, but you'll keep getting it. It won't be instantaneous. Just keep going, and you'll find yourself in a better place and a better person at the end of it all. It's a lot of hard work, and you'll fall on your ass a lot, but self-improvement is so worth it.
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Just wanted to thank all those who replied to me last time. Read all your posts and they made me feel better!
Day by day, it becomes clearer and clearer that I really do not belong in this country. I have different ideals, different views, different morals. How the hell did I survive here for so long? How did I go on without knowing for sure that I had a future in a country where I actually FIT in? It feels like I am drowning in a sea of ignorant, uneducated, propaganda-swallowing misers and my only bubble of air, is the fact that I am getting the fuck out of here and that something better and brighter is waiting for me far, far away from this shithole of an island.
Woo GO Chrissie! It's good to see someone fighting for their happiness and it's especially great that you'll be victorious!~
Sometimes I too feel out of place here. Despite all the hardships I love my family, but sometimes, their way of thinking makes me rage a little inside. Like when someone tells me "you are a girl so you should do that and be that way because that's what women do and because men don't". Worse yet, when my brother moves in with me, I'm going to have to tidy the whole place just because I'm the girl. I have to wash the dishes, use the vacuum cleaner, dust, clean the toilet, bathtub etc. I don't want to do all those things. I don't want to do these for my brother. I don't want to become a "runofthemill" housewife. I'm so afraid I'll loose everything I fought for. And my mom, my grandparents, my old teachers won't help me, because that's what I got to do. I was born a woman, so I have tasks that need to be done. By me and no one else.
I feel like I'm slowly being put into a prison.Sorry, I didn't want it to turn out like this. I got a little worked up I guess.Last time I talked about my sort of inner mental image of myself. Somehow, I imagine me wearing a neat armor~ I wish I could have and armour and walk around in it, hahaha~
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Woo GO Chrissie! It's good to see someone fighting for their happiness and it's especially great that you'll be victorious!~
Soon not even Greek bureaucracy won't stand in my way even if they gave me a 2 month trouble till now (and counting)!!!
Sometimes I too feel out of place here. Despite all the hardships I love my family, but sometimes, their way of thinking makes me rage a little inside.
This! THIS SO MUCH! I love them but dammit they make me wanna slap the hallelujah out of them sometimes.
Like when someone tells me "you are a girl so you should do that and be that way because that's what women do and because men don't".
Ohhhh. You get that shit too? Haha. I am really glad about the way Zeph was raised and his mindset is the exact opposite. He and his family wouldn't let me do the dishes after I cooked something for them to try, because one person shouldn't do everything in their household. Each person has their responsibilities and that is definitely one of the lessons my kids will inherit along with equal respect for everybody.
Worse yet, when my brother moves in with me, I'm going to have to tidy the whole place just because I'm the girl. I have to wash the dishes, use the vacuum cleaner, dust, clean the toilet, bathtub etc.
Fuck that shit. Share the housework. He is not above those things just because he is a man! Fuck that seriously! Do your share and leave his share be. He will learn to clean after his shit if he doesn't want to drown in filth.
I don't want to do all those things. I don't want to do these for my brother. I don't want to become a "runofthemill" housewife. I'm so afraid I'll loose everything I fought for. And my mom, my grandparents, my old teachers won't help me, because that's what I got to do. I was born a woman, so I have tasks that need to be done. By me and no one else.
Woman=/=Maid except if that is her employment. If he wants you to do his share, demand serious pay and don't back down from this. And when you get involved romantically with someone, be clear on this. And if you find no one who respects your wants in that country, get the fuck out of there.
I feel like I'm slowly being put into a prison.
Kick the door open and flip them off!
Sorry, I didn't want it to turn out like this. I got a little worked up I guess.Last time I talked about my sort of inner mental image of myself. Somehow, I imagine me wearing a neat armor~ I wish I could have and armour and walk around in it, hahaha~
No, don't be sorry! It's good that you got worked up. It means you don't want to take bullshit from anyone so that is very good.
That is a great mental self-image you have xD Mine is a calm and pleasant Chrissie. Something I magically transform into whenever I am away from this place. -
Worse yet, when my brother moves in with me, I'm going to have to tidy the whole place just because I'm the girl. I have to wash the dishes, use the vacuum cleaner, dust, clean the toilet, bathtub etc. I don't want to do all those things. I don't want to do these for my brother. I don't want to become a "runofthemill" housewife. I'm so afraid I'll loose everything I fought for.
Tell him outright he has to clean up after himself, or pay you the appropriate wage to do it if he has the dough.
You have to stand up for yourself Regina !
And a suit of armour is not very practical, for one you need to set aside a good half hour just to be able to go to the bathroom XD
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I have a problem talking to my future mother-in-law. Not because I don't like her or anything because I do like her. She's really cool but that's besides the point. I'm just not sociable enough! I don't even talk to my own family that much and I love them to death. My family has come to understand this about me but my future mother-in-law is new to this conundrum.
She wants me to call her more! Now, most of you are probably like, 'Just call and talk to her then, duh. This is your problem? What an idiot.' Yes, I know that but I wish it was that simple for me. I just called her and we had the most preciously awkward conversation about how busy we were at our jobs and that I should take some time off. Lots of awkward pauses and "eerrrs" were neatly peppered throughout the phone call until I arrived at work and had to quickly say bye.
I told her about my problem with socializing and her response is, 'I'll have to work on that.' She's right, absolutely, and I want myself to know that. It's just hard. I don't want to ruin my relationship with her because…well that'd be stupid and we do get along. She's just so sociable/talkative when I'm not and she wants me to try more. I understand, as I am the man about to marry her daughter. The least she can get our a few phone calls from me.
This is not a confession. This is just me putting things out in the open to help me come to terms with what I know I need to do...
Fake my death and elope! No wait, I should just call more.
It's either one.
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doesn't know the difference between a turtle and a tortoise
I accept Jesus Burgess as my Lord and Savior
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@Medical:
doesn't know the difference between a turtle and a tortoise
Turtles like to swim, while tortoises do not. A tortoise shell is generally full of grooves, bumps and domes. Turtles have these, too, but they don't protrude as much. Plus, tortoises live much longer. Hope that helps. ^^
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@medical:
doesn't know the difference between a turtle and a tortoise
wait…
There's a Difference!!?
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A tortoise is basically just a terrestrial turtle. And looks a bit different.
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