@kagexp:
Must. Fight. Urge. To. Write… Oh well. Did somebody say voyeur? My~ That's me!
Hey, you wanna know my opinion? Well, tough luck. Maybe she's unsure about how to go on about it. Like home is safe and outside is people misunderstanding (from lack of better less teen-angst words) in a figurative way or so. If she is as selectively dedicated as you say then maybe she will be equally dedicated about your friendship when time comes. Time being italicized and all. :D Why? Because I honestly don't think you should take it personally if she has trouble committing to anything she doesn't decide on at once. Patience. Not that I know you Holy, I'm not stalking you or anything I'm really not… BUT from my initial impression of you and from what I read here about your friend the two seems like somewhat opposites. Perhaps equally passionate, maybe dominant in your own ways but doing it in very different ways… Not something I will expect you to play on... Though you could do that. Directly and impulsively or whatever way you roll. I dunno, just know your audience iz wut I haz to say because I always haz something to say. That's why my hair is so big. It's full of everything.
Surprisingly Kage, for a dangerous voyeur, your advice is not unsound at all, I don't feel.
But I do want to say that I'm probably more of a shut-in than you realize, if you've seen my posts, haha. I threw myself out into "real life" for a year and did things people kept telling me were really brave (or, "brave for my age"), but here I am back where I was two years ago afraid to even try doing anything again, still without any fulfilling relationships, or tangible results.
But it's this experience in doing these things (even if maybe it was failing) that make me wonder if maybe… I could help? But you're right. It's all up to her. I still don't know her real thoughts, or feelings, or troubles, no more than when I was 15. But I'd like to be there at her convenience if she is willing.
So I'm gonna push just this once. Though for the record I'm still waiting on her response.