@Zar:
I'm having some anxiety about the future.
I've finished my course, and have set myself up for another half-year course. Hopefully I should get in. This will let me keep my current apartment which is for students only.
The plan is that during that time, I'll write up a CV, get a job and start selling my art at the side. Hopefully by the time I'm finished with the course I can find another apartment and start living the life of a working woman.
Tricky part is getting a job. Especially since I've never had one before, not even a summer job. I'm terrible at interacting with people and it'll only feed my anxiety, but I doubt I'll find a first job that doesn't involve service. If I find one at all…
It's normal to feel that way. As a very awkward person myself, who usually wants to avoid any interaction with strangers, I can tell you: yeah, it's scary at first, but you get used to it. The famous "fake it till you make it" method worked for me pretty well, although I had my fair share of embarassing situations.
What also helped me is not really allowing myself to think for the first few steps, just rolling with the tide and seeing where it took me.
It's not easy anyway, but I believe that you can do it! Whatever the job will be, be it something that soceity deems uncool or garbage, it will help you in the long run.
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@benjamminbrown:
About my day… my quaternion work is fun but somewhat frustrating. Unfortunately, though I have been able to find a method for calculating quaternionic derivatives, they can't be applied using the standard chain rule. I'm sure that there is a similar rule that can work for quaternion functions, but it's going to take some investigation to figure it out.
I read your post twice and still can't figure out what you're saying, haha~
What's a quaternionic derivative?
 
