And now today is my 32nd birthday….yay.
However, I did recive a nice yet unexpected gift at my church which almost had me in tears of joy. Plus, I got to hang out with both my dad and my third oldest sister and we had a good time. Honestly, it did help me look forward to my birthday with some optimism. :)
And now today is my 32nd birthday….yay.
However, I did recive a nice yet unexpected gift at my church which almost had me in tears of joy. Plus, I got to hang out with both my dad and my third oldest sister and we had a good time. Honestly, it did help me look forward to my birthday with some optimism. :)
Congrats and God richly bless you.
May He grant you all the desires of your heart according to His perfect will.
I am glad you enjoyed it.
Congrats and God richly bless you.
May He grant you all the desires of your heart according to His perfect will.I am glad you enjoyed it.
Thanks you so much! Although this all happened yesterday on father's day (the day before my birthday) which I forgot to mention but it did make me feel better about my birthday. :)
Holy crap my day has been…..less than stellar. Yesterday at work I felt nauseous and sore, and I ended up throwing up twice (I think the culprit was a Payday I had earlier). Today I've been feeling better, but I've been watching Netflix/Youtube all day in my bed, since I'm still a little weak.
Holy shit, is it really 5:30am…
My sleep cycle is so screwed.
One of these days I'm gonna resist the temptation of a hundred youtube videos.
But not this day, it seems.
I had an interesting two days. When I came home yesterday a fricken chipmunk was on my recliner. I tried luring it into a bucket that had peanuts in it, but that failed miserably. My Mom, who lives next door to me, suggested that I leave the door open while I vacuumed the carpets in the hopes of scaring it out of the house. I thought that had worked, but today I came home from work, and I found the chipmunk back on my recliner. After I was able to track the chipmunk to the bathroom I got suspicious, and checked inside a cabinet that's underneath the sink. Lo behold I found evidence that the chipmunk was getting in through holes in the wall were my plumbing in. Eventually I was able to corner the chipmunk in my shower stall, and I trapped it my shower curtain. I live right on the coast so I dropped the chipmunk into the ocean. Hopefully that's the last I see of him/her.
The entrance exam results came, and I got just to the infotech engineering line I wanted! 
Just thought of telling you guys.
@Light:
The entrance exam results came, and I got just to the infotech engineering line I wanted!
Cool, what areas of infotech will you be studying?
@Light:
The entrance exam results came, and I got just to the infotech engineering line I wanted!
Whee~ Congrats.
Entrance exams are one hell of a thing but getting rid of them AND getting wherever you want are the best feelings.
Cool, what areas of infotech will you be studying?
Gotta see, haven't decided completely yet.
A friend from Dallas came to visit who I haven't seen for over a year now. It was nice to catch up with him and see how he was doing. Got a bit akward with his girlfriend being there, since we couldn't find much in common to talk about. Another cool thing was while we were at an ice cream place I ran into another person I knew. It was a PhD student who I helped out with his project a little bit during my last semester as an Undergrad. He recently just finished the project and it became a published paper, so it was nice to know that something I helped out a little with went well.
Lost my appendix today
Currently in the Hospital with 4 weird scabs where they went in to remove it
Will be out tomorrow morning
@DIO:
Lost my appendix today
Currently in the Hospital with 4 weird scabs where they went in to remove it
Will be out tomorrow morning
Oh dear, it's good to know it's over. I pray you are relieved of the post surgery pain soon and recover fully.
At least you're are better now healthwise. Keep us posted
Update:
Got out around 2 hours ago from hospital but staying at parents until Saturday
Have to take required drugs and do "routine walking"
Was watching the 1st men in black movie, fell asleep and awoke to the movie where Tom Hanks is with that volleyball
Watched the fireworks over at Joliet Memorial Stadium this evening with my family, which we do every year.
I'm considering getting a Blackbeard Jolly Roger tattoo. Good or bad idea?
I'm considering getting a Blackbeard Jolly Roger tattoo. Good or bad idea?
Somehow I don't think you should. It's a bit of a too "permanent" feature on your person for a temporary fictional show. Think of yourself later in life and whether your'll want it still on you as much.
Somehow I don't think you should. It's a bit of a too "permanent" feature on your person for a temporary fictional show. Think of yourself later in life and whether your'll want it still on you as much.
Good point! When One Piece is said and done, maybe I'll consider it again, but for now, I guess I should wait and see if One Piece ends as spectacularly as I expect it to.
Depends, really depends.
You can get personal attachments to temporary fictional shows, for example, certain parts of OP are more than a story and have deep personal meanings and associations for me.
Then there is a fact that Blackbeard storyline isn't concluded yet and we have so much yet to see.
And yes tattoos are a permanent decision, that you shouldn't make so easily, but if you do decide to, why not?
I'm considering getting a Blackbeard Jolly Roger tattoo. Good or bad idea?
As someone who already got a tattoo I say you have to wait and think about it a lot, since it is a permanent decision. Think about when you are older and if you would regret getting it. Don't get one just because it was part of a manga/video game you like, get one if the symbol/drawing holds a deep meaning to you. Mine is the symbol of a band that really helped me in my darkest times.
If you like Blackbeard that much, wait for his flashback, it will happen.:ninja:
You can always make those non permanent tattoo to see if you would like.
I will refer you to this post: http://apforums.net/showthread.php?t=35021&page=199&p=3671366&viewfull=1#post3671366
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I will refer you to this post: http://apforums.net/showthread.php?t=35021&page=199&p=3671366&viewfull=1#post3671366
That's super cool :D What a fun looking group. Did you all converge in Denmark just for the meetup?
I finished my university exam. Now I have lot more free. Time
I'm in a very difficult situation right now and I just…I gotta tell it somewhere...Many years ago (almost a decade ago), I had a crush on a childhood friend. I ended up confessing to her but we never really got anywhere and after waiting so long for a reply, I lost my patience and ended up with another girl instead.Fast forward to today, and I've been with my girlfriend for almost 5 years. When all of a sudden, my childhood crush starts chatting with me again. We ended up learning more about each other's circumstances, and confirmed that we still have feelings for each other.Now, my current girlfriend is a nice girl, and she's totally innocent, but we don't communicate very well and have next to no common interests. On the other hand, after my crush started chatting with me, we could chat for hours every night. Maybe it's just because it's been a long time and we have s lot of things to catch up on. I dunno.But either way, I feel more comfortable being myself with my crush than I do with my girlfriend. I'm thinking of breaking up with her, but...she's also in love with me and keeps trying to pull me back. My crush knows this and is afraid to confirm her feelings because she didn't want my girlfriend to be hurt. But she also feels heartbroken when I talk about my girlfriend, so I really want to just get together with her....What should I do?
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@Bond:
I'm in a very difficult situation right now and I just…I gotta tell it somewhere...Many years ago (almost a decade ago), I had a crush on a childhood friend. I ended up confessing to her but we never really got anywhere and after waiting so long for a reply, I lost my patience and ended up with another girl instead.Fast forward to today, and I've been with my girlfriend for almost 5 years. When all of a sudden, my childhood crush starts chatting with me again. We ended up learning more about each other's circumstances, and confirmed that we still have feelings for each other.Now, my current girlfriend is a nice girl, and she's totally innocent, but we don't communicate very well and have next to no common interests. On the other hand, after my crush started chatting with me, we could chat for hours every night. Maybe it's just because it's been a long time and we have s lot of things to catch up on. I dunno.But either way, I feel more comfortable being myself with my crush than I do with my girlfriend. I'm thinking of breaking up with her, but...she's also in love with me and keeps trying to pull me back. My crush knows this and is afraid to confirm her feelings because she didn't want my girlfriend to be hurt. But she also feels heartbroken when I talk about my girlfriend, so I really want to just get together with her....What should I do?
Whew! Wow. I am in a pretty similar situation but much more complex. You need to pray about this.
@Bond:
I'm in a very difficult situation right now and I just…I gotta tell it somewhere...Many years ago (almost a decade ago), I had a crush on a childhood friend. I ended up confessing to her but we never really got anywhere and after waiting so long for a reply, I lost my patience and ended up with another girl instead.Fast forward to today, and I've been with my girlfriend for almost 5 years. When all of a sudden, my childhood crush starts chatting with me again. We ended up learning more about each other's circumstances, and confirmed that we still have feelings for each other.Now, my current girlfriend is a nice girl, and she's totally innocent, but we don't communicate very well and have next to no common interests. On the other hand, after my crush started chatting with me, we could chat for hours every night. Maybe it's just because it's been a long time and we have s lot of things to catch up on. I dunno.But either way, I feel more comfortable being myself with my crush than I do with my girlfriend. I'm thinking of breaking up with her, but...she's also in love with me and keeps trying to pull me back. My crush knows this and is afraid to confirm her feelings because she didn't want my girlfriend to be hurt. But she also feels heartbroken when I talk about my girlfriend, so I really want to just get together with her....What should I do?
Before making any bold decisions that you may regret, i think waiting a bit and see if you and your crush actually can continue doing what you are doing after catching up on each other does really last, or if it's just a momentary experience, fruit of memories and past regrets. Maybe find out why all of a sudden she started talking to you again (if you haven't done that already), to see what is motivating her so much. Also try talking with your girlfriend about how much you really want to be together despite these conflicting feelings. Maybe this event can help shed light on aspects of your relationship you didn't consider before.
I agree, you have to wait and see if this old flame that reignited in your life is a possibility to a nostalgic relationship or if it is old friends that needs time to caught up their talk. Either way, be patient and true to yourself and thye others you care/love.
Today I went to a cosplay event/heavy metal show, the sight of little girls cosplaying kawaii maids while headbanging to death metal songs was amazing !! Made my day.I'm just afraid I'm not being fair to my girlfriend by stating with her, since I can't feel the same way she does for me. We started because I was looking for a placeholder in the first place…as self centered as that sounds...I want her to be able to find someone who can treat her well and return her feelings...But she's adamant that person is me and I just feel sorry for her that I can't live up to that because my heart is with someone else...
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@Bond en Avant
! Well, you are definitely in a situation where whatever you do, you are screwed. Someone is gonna get hurt.
As everyone said, think about it carefully before making any decision.
From my perspective, if you leave your girlfriend for your childhood friend, it seem like cheating…
! Personally, i think your childhood friend is being unfair to both your & your girlfriend. You confessed to her but she didn't give a response back then for whatever reason. 10 years later, she return and become close to you again. Your feeling rekindle and now she's hoping there might be something between both of you while knowing you got a girlfriend. Yeah, sure she doesn't want to hurt your girlfriend feeling but at the same time she keep sending mixed signals that is confusing you.She had her chance 10 years back. 10 years is way too long a time to think about your decision of liking someone. It's her fault for not responding back then. She can't just walk back into your life and expect you to be with her.
If she is genuinely respectful towards your current girlfriend, she would make her stance clear that she's a friend & nothing more (even if she still has feelings for you) She won't keep sending out message that she still like you & feel 'guilty' about it.
! As for your current girlfriend, you may feel that she deserve someone better and not you. But from her perspective, you are the best for her. If she was merely a placeholder, you won't be dating her for 5 years. That has to be something that draw both of you together. Also, it's not uncommon for people in long term relationship to start to "lose interest" in their partner and they want to look for someone better. Also, since you guys were dating for 5 years, she's probably feeling insecure with the presence of your childhood friend. If you genuinely care for her as a friend/girlfriend, try not to hurt her feelings.
! While we can't control our feelings for someone, we can control our action.
! Let say you break up with your girlfriend to be with the other, you guys may be happy for a while. Eventually, either one of you may feel guilty for what you did and you guys may end up unhappy after a while. The initial spark will be gone and you guys may not feel the passion anymore...
! But if you stay with your girlfriend, you will end up hurting your childhood friend. You might feel guilty you are staying with you current girlfriend out of obligations & for hurting your childhood friend. You might start having second thoughts about the whole thing...
! It's really a pick your poison situation. You will end up hurting someone regardless unfortunately.
! I do apologize for making assumptions and if my advice just make you more confused. Lol
! I truly hope you can find the least painful solution to this dilemma.
Umm guys, seriously? Wait for what? I mean yes it'd be a good advice to give to a guy who's considering what he feels towards his old crush IF he weren't in a relationship. But he is.
You need to tell this to your girlfriend, maybe not about feelings for another girl, but about doubts for sure, take a break and make a decision.
Now about that…decision itself. Your approach isn't the rightest one, imo.@Bond:
Now, my current girlfriend is a nice girl, and she's totally innocent, but we don't communicate very well and have next to no common interests. On the other hand, after my crush started chatting with me, we could chat for hours every night. Maybe it's just because it's been a long time and we have s lot of things to catch up on. I dunno.But either way, I feel more comfortable being myself with my crush than I do with my girlfriend.
Firstly this. There is no "on the other hand". You shouldn't draw comparisons. Yes you saw your current relationship's flaws because of the new one. But that's not how it works. You can't be like "if it works with my crush I'll leave my girlfriend, if it doesn't, I'll stay". You need to judge your relationship for how it is without involving someone else. You need to think how content it makes you feel, how yourself you are, etc. However, the fact that you actively started thinking about someone else and what you described above shows your lack of commitment and satisfaction already, imho. But that's up to you to judge.
Basically what I am saying is, think about your current relationship first, consider it's pros/cons and the way it makes you feel and decide to break up or not. Make a choice without any guarantees, the choice you'll stay with despite things working out or not with your crush.
I don't get why everyone is so afraid of being single. Love is not the race and being with someone you are not happy with harms you and slows your development far more than being single would.
I'm thinking of breaking up with her, but…she's also in love with me and keeps trying to pull me back.
Stop right there. Her being in love with you is not the reason to stay with her. The fact that she loves you makes it more sensible to spare her from pain if you don't love her.
Also, are you honest with your girlfriend? Does she know about all this?
In my book relationships are built on trust and honesty. It's a respectful behaviour to tell your girlfriend about having doubts and everything. It will hurt her yes but what are you gonna do if you decide you don't wanna get together with the other girl? Go to your girlfriend like nothing happened? I know many many many people don't care about transparency in relationships, but I don't consider it right. Doesn't she sense something's not right already? I sure feel slightest things all the time, for example.
Also sorry for harsh straightforwardness. But developing feelings for someone else while in a relationship (especially if you haven't told her) and expressing it with that someone too is straight out cheating.
My crush knows this and is afraid to confirm her feelings because she didn't want my girlfriend to be hurt. But she also feels heartbroken when I talk about my girlfriend, so I really want to just get together with her….What should I do?
Again, stop thinking about two things at the same time. You went too deep in this already. Decide about and handle your current relationship first. Then think whether you want to get together with that one, she won't run if she's really into you, she'll understand that you need space. If not, then she's not worth it. Everyone deserves a healthy relationship.
Also breaking up with someone without thinking it through, rushing and running off with someone else is not an ok behaviour. It's immature and might harm everyone involved.
Anyway, take caution and best of luck. Treat your girlfriend with respect. You are right about her deserving someone who loves her, by the way. No matter how much she loves you and pulls you back. If you REALLY don't feel the same, it's better to end it now then later.
At least you didn't gave her an expensive gift just to be rejected.
Some advice
Thank you. I appreciate your straight forwardness. My girlfriend does know about this and she has been arguing with me but she's also trying her best not to let me go.The reason I'm having doubts is that thanks to my straight forwardness, my girlfriend is now terribly hurt. I knew it would be harsh and necessary…I guess I don't have it in me to go all the way...@SunnyBlue: Pick your poison is right...right now, I'm thinking my decision through based on which one I'd regret the least. Thanks for your concern.
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Oh good to know she knows it. Sorry for the assumption even if I didn't fully assume.
Yeah but you don't have a choice really, she'd get hurt from the moment you developed feelings for the other girl.
But you have to stay strong and make a decision. It's the best for everyone. I have a friend whose boyfriend went through something like that, almost exactly. Though the other girl was not that old of a crush. But everything else fits.
However, the guy couldn't find strength to break up with her FOR MONTHS, she kept holding on anything to keep him too. Their relationship was much much more complicated. But as much as the girl was hurt when it ended, she moved on in the end and even realised how they weren't really the match and everything.
Today I went to the second day of the cosplay event/ metal concert, in the beginning I was a little upset and kinda didn't want to go, but since my friend asked me (and since he was comming from another city to this event), I thought I should use this event as a pretext to see him.
The first day was kinda meh, but the show was great, so great that it made me smile again… Today was even greater, I bought new albuns, new shirts and after seeing so many cosplayers I decided I should return making them and why not, go to events (even if it kills my feet). 
Tomorrow I will go to a classical music concert, this time a concert dedicated to Rachmaninoff.
Hello everyone. It's been a while. What have I done today? Something that requires ranting. And whining. And pissing and moaning.Today has barely begun but it did so in a horrible way. I have a day off and wanted to sleep in but my cellphone is connected to the doorbell outside the apartement complex so if someone calls on that one they're connected to me… even if it's my roomate they're trying to get a hold of. He was supposed to get up early for a one day trip but overslept and then there was noise. A lot of noise. And there was suddenly noise outside of the house too because someone that shouldn't be allowed to drive trucks (even though it was small) was backing up on the yard and the warning noise was crazy loud for a crazy amount of time (it's a narrow passageway) and... to sum things up, I didn't get to sleep in. And it sucked.I just feel like sleeping. A lot. I've had one week off this summer already and I'm having 2 more weeks after this one but I should've taken like 5 in a row. Why didn't I? I have tons of vacation days left to spend and I can't spend them cause now it's late and I wont be able to find someone with proper security clerance to cover for me (because they're all gone). This was stupid. I'm gonna force it and take a 3 week vacation during christmas instead, or something, but I should've used it now.Hopefully the rest of the day will be better. PS: Anyone else having formatting issues? /end of rant
I made my best catch in Pokémon Go so far, a 487 Pidgeot,
but otherwise today has been pretty darn uneventful thanks to the high humidity.
It drains your energy and drive quite a bit.
When it gets a bit cooler I'll continue editing my Q&A for 10k Subscribers.
Jeez, that thing is long overdue by now.
Health checkup turned out great earlier this week and today I got an appointment to talk about a volunteer spot to help out with marketing for a local place, which is nice although at the same time it is absolutely nerve-racking, since I haven't had much opportunity to go out and be social lately. Also, I finally got my medical driving paperwork sorted out and my driving test planned, so this was definitely one of my better days.
I finally found a urn for my mother, it will arrive the next week, I am relieved and somewhat "happy" that I could move on with this, the only thing left to do is to go to Rio de Janeiro. About the concert, Rachmaninoff was great, I was surprised by his concerts, so romantic and light and not dodecaphonic.
Besides that, I started to work on my new cosplay (Weather Report from JJBA), I have until december, so plenty of time until the deadline.
And, I have a new music to create a choregraphy for, this will be fun.
Picked up some of my granfather's clothes (a lot of which he never wore) from my grandmother's house and donated them to the goodwill.
And to my surprise, the urn arrived today. Everything is working fast so I can move on with my life…
I took on a produce job in a grocery store about a month ago and I'm starting to smell like guacamole. Almost every shift it's guacamole. It keeps flashing into my mind, there's something hypnotizing about scooping avocados. I slightly regret not going with urgent care reception, but it didn't come up til later and I don't want to leave a job that quickly. At least I know how to make a nice parfait now.
Played my very first game of Shogi today. I had a blast! I know chess since childhood so the pieces and movements are familiar. But Shogi is so much more dynamic thanks to the parts that are slightly based on Go. Using captured pieces for yourself and set them everywhere you like. And then you have the whole promotion thing. Can't wait to play it again :D
Had to go to the dentist for a minor filling. The numbness on the left side of my mouth lasted a bit longer than I thought it would.
Our family is sorting through things we don't need or want anymore and pawning them off on Ebay.
It's been pretty fun so far, but my mind was blown this afternoon.
I decided to search up my good condition Pokémon & Digimon stuff (mostly figures) on Ebay to check the going rates, and this is the result that came back.
Of course, it remains to be seen if all or even most of the figures will sell. But there's good reason to be optimistic here.
Looking forward to giving this a fair shot~
How good it is to go back to work after having solved all I had to settle with the ceremony on my mother (well, almost everything). I was happy that the Tupac project will take place this year. Otherwise, film festivals, workshops and concerts of independent bands are happening on a weekly period.
With the official arrival of Pokémon GO in Brazil, I will propose a nice activity.
EDIT: Yeah, with the olympics games happening, there will be a big screen outside the museum, so people can watch.:getlost:
So I was trying desmume today, felt like playing some ds games since mine broke a while ago
Noticed there were some black dots while playing Soulsilver, so I fucked around a little with the settings, trying different renders, switching from OpenGL to others etc. I did this a lot of times honestly, didn't want to use OpenGL since it has a lot of CPU usage for some reason (60-70%), firefox in the background…
While doing this and switching between firefox and desmume I noticed some horizontal blurred line while scrolling up and down in Arlong Park. Turned off desmume, tried a while, restarted my PC, but that damn line is still staying. It disappears most of the time, but every once in a while it pops up in a different part of my monitor.
I have no clue what is going on and why it's doing this suddenly :sad:
