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Posts made by Jazzy Jinx
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RE: Dreams Discussion Thread
Had another wonderfully messed up dream last night. Warning: Not for the weak of heart.
! So there was this kid… Maybe about eight or nine years old. He had feminine facial features, long shoulder-length hair, and he was really skinny. But he was peculiar and gave an unnatural vibe. He was shirtless and we were fighting each other; or rather, he attacked me and I pretty much shut him down pretty easily.
! I took note of the skill he had, even though I was beating him easily he was still far beyond the ability of his age. He was closer in ability and strength to a teenager. And for some reason or another, I grabbed a steak knife (one of those black-handled table knives) and stabbed him in the heart. I only went a little less than an inch deep before thinking, "Wait, this will probably kill him" and then pulled it out and stabbed him right next to his heart instead, fully penetrating him with the blade.
! Blood squirt out a little from the puncture and he had a look of defeat on his face. Then I removed the knife and shortly after, he laid down on the bed casually. I asked him "Are you... okay...?" (I was wondering if he was dying or in pain or something). He said he was fine. I asked, "Are you sure...?" "Yeah, I'm cool." he responded again.
! Obviously, he wasn't human. I would assume under normal circumstances, I wouldn't stab a human child (>_>). I tried to cheer him up by saying that he would most likely surpass me one day. (Which I actually believed). And he said, "Yeah, I know." Then he looks at me with a cold and foreboding look and says, "But I really want to beat you." He smiled.
! My thoughts were, "Beat? Shit, he's probably going to kill me." Annnnd then I woke up.So yeah… Vampire kid or something.
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RE: Your goals in life.
@Toraish:
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Good advice.~
Yep well, I'm already shaking with anger at your post. And I have the sinking feeling that this conversation is going to become about me as a person, if it hasn't already. And I'm confident that such a conversation would quickly spiral out of my control. So I'm done here. As you should have gleaned from the "success" thing, I don't play to lose.
Yeah… Honestly though Crystal, I'm not out to get you. I'm probably one of the few people on this site that truly understands how you feel. (Or did you forget I'm trans? >_>) And I've been down the road you're on right now; hating myself for all of my failures and inadequacies and being incurably envious of those around me. Hell, I still feel that way pretty frequently.
If you need to speak then speak. I'm trying to help you out, not belittle you. But you have to conduct yourself in a mature fashion and realize that I'm just speaking from a point of clarity that I've reached and am trying to relate to you. I understand no two situations are the same, even if we have multiple similarities (and if you're seething so much you can't stand to even be compared to me then I'll say "comparable situations" instead).
Realize that not everything has to be a battle and that not every conversation is a battleground. We CAN be adults. >_>
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RE: Your goals in life.
Ha ha ha. xD
Then you have a long way to go before you mature.~
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RE: Your goals in life.
LOL. I wouldn't give a single shit about aging if I were already successful and recognized.
No, not really.
What world are you living in? Because I want to move there.
Did you forget who you were even talking to?
Hey, let's be realistic here.
I have suicidal thoughts frequently enough (and it was particularly bad between the ages of 11 and 12 where I literally thought about it every day and attempted a few times). But Dryish literally DOES have to worry about dying every day via items outside of his control.
Being a chronic pessimist is not an excuse to demean or look down upon someone else's ideals, especially when that person understands what it means to face death every day.
I don't know where you and valiantt got it in your minds that success is the end all be all of existence but you're both dead wrong and don't understand at all why success is significant to begin with. It's not about accomplishing the goal at the end of the day, it's the pursuit. You live in the moment, you become better, you bond with people along the way. And of course, you fail, you take your licks and you struggle.
Frankly, if it was easy, then it would be piss boring. I would hate hate hate it if someone just up and gave me a million dollars right now and I didn't put forth the effort to build my way up to that amount. (I'd still take it because, fucking right, a million dollars but…) In that situation, I'd probably blow it all and be broke again. If you work your way up, and especially if you fail a lot along the way, you learn how to get that million. That's more valuable.
Failure teaches you the hard lessons you need to know for the future. Undisputed success teaches you to be complacent and even the slightest failure destroys you. You never learn what you need to avoid, what to look out for, how to handle the emotional pain of failure, etc. You have to fail in order to make success that much more worthwhile.
And you know what? Even if I never make it, even if I never accomplish my dreams, I'd rather take one significant person's recognition over the millions of faceless strangers' any day.~
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RE: Sai's Art Shoppe Pictures!
I love how they have their own individual signatures. xD
Nice.~
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
It's impossible to change your name.
Don't listen to him!
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RE: Post how your day was…
Yeah Shu, honestly. To me, cheating is the single most irredeemable sin you can make in a relationship and trust me when I say, it would happen again. Relationships are meant to be built on loyalty and trust. When you commit an act that so profoundly breaches the sanctity of that trust it's unforgivable.
In a committed relationship there should be no question about whether or not you'll sleep with someone else; you just plain don't. And you should have no desire to either. If it stems from some other kind of problem within the relationship then it should be talked about, not expressed through cheating. If she feels she couldn't talk to you about it then it was an unhealthy relationship in the first place. If this was a fling, a whim, then she wasn't as committed to you as you were to her.
And the fact that it comes so soon after you two are married only tells that it would happen again… and again... Don't fall for this trap, Shu. She's seeking self-gratification by returning to you, the slaps should prove that. She isn't considering your feelings. She's not concerned with your feelings. She's just going to drag you deeper and deeper into despair.
Let those feelings die.
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RE: Group Focus: The Back Scratching Initiative
~~Yep.~
I'll edit this post later with the details. I'm going to do three more conferences, one for each coming month, and then stop doing them indefinitely after December. From there, someone else can take over (either an organizer or a committed member) or alternatively, you guys could let this thing die.
Depends on what you all want.~~~
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RE: General Kickstarter Thread
And then we can begin the stretch goals.~
I hope we can at least get to the costume swap. I'd be super happy if we made it that far. But I bet we'll at least get Risky mode, which in itself is really awesome.
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
I love my family. The second I hit 18 they immediately turned around, stopped treating me like a child and accepted me as an adult. It was kind of like they went, "Upph… He turned 18. That means he has instantaneously acquired all the knowledge and maturity of an adult. We will now treat him as such." Although to be frank, they were dead wrong. >_>
... Honestly, it feels like it took until this year for me to really come into being an adult. I'm actually making more money now than both of my grandparents combined on their fixed incomes. (I live with them if you need relevance.) And they're looking back in retrospect and thinking that they should have given me the house instead of my aunt (their first child). Although really, I don't think I was even 18 yet so it probably wasn't even plausible.
And I've turned around and actually started taking care of them now. As well as, I'm supposed to be the sole benefactor of my mom's life insurance as well as gaining instant custody of my younger sister if she happens to die, for whatever reason. It feels like, in one fell swoop, I've turned around and become the head of the household. Once I started seeing their dependance on me, that's when I really felt like an adult for the first time.
Was mostly spring-boarding off of trapped's post to make a semi-related confession myself but to add some level of relevance to marimo's post... I heard one time that, "You're an adult once and a child twice".
What this means is that you grow up, being taken cared of by your parents. Then you become an adult and become a parent yourself. And then your kids grow up, turn around and take care of you when they're adults. Your relevance peaks and then it wanes.
I don't know what your father is like marimo, but maybe the problem is that he does see you as an adult now. And maybe it frustrates him that he's soon going to fall back into irrelevance, in terms of being in control. The control is going to shift into your hands and his influence is going to fade away. So he might be giving you extra amounts of hell now while he still has some level of control over you.
Either way, and I know it's frustrating, your time will come. And that time is coming much sooner than you'd think.
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
Alright then: Kitsu will judge LaCa who will judge Mumbling who will judge Nex who will judge Kitsu.
Got it? Good. Don't know how to judge? Here's a template:
! Review: This is where the bulk of your review will go. Be sure to highlight both strengths and weaknesses, cite examples and add your suggestions for improvement. Try to remain as objective as possible; leave your emotions at the door.
! Final Comments: Any extraneous comments you might have that may or may not be directly related to the review. Like say for instance, general tips on how to practice writing and such.
! Score: Pick a score, from worst to best: Poor, Fair, Good, Great, Excellent.If you don't want to use the template and just want to do your own thing then go ahead. Just make sure to please highlight both strengths and weaknesses, not just either or. And of course, remain objective.~
When you finish the review then simply post it in this thread. No need to send it to me or any other organizer.
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I'd also like to take this moment to ham-fistedly add that I'm officially stepping down as an organizer (not that I did much organizing these days anyway). It's been a good run but life has caught up to me and it's time for me to turn my attention elsewhere.
I wish you all the best in the future and hope that you'll all continue to write and continue to support one another. Thank you for making the writing community thrive and thank you for giving us all of your time and dedication. I admire each and every one of you and wish you all the best in the future.~
My sincerest thanks. So long.
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RE: Post Your Pics: Part Quattuor
…ah? Either I'm too dim to see the joke or I'm rightfully offended.
I was playing off your "my nose is huge" remark.~
Although really, and this comment is serious: there is nothing wrong with your nose, you're still absolutely beautiful and yes, I'm Kenny.
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RE: Post Your Pics: Part Quattuor
Uhhhh… Creep?
You don't even know her.
Don't assign a gender to my new territory.
It might become self-conscious.
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RE: Post Your Pics: Part Quattuor
hey baby you come to this thread often
! [qimg]http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j352/GypsyCartsTwo/photo9_zps8987a6ab.jpg[/qimg]
I claim this nose in the name of democracy.
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RE: Post how your day was…
I stand by the theory someone told me that only guys find this funny (and react like Usopp/Luffy/Chopper do to Franky). e____e
snickers
Nipple lights.~
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RE: Post how your day was…
Hey! Working out when you're depressed really does work!
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Wait... No... Depressed again.
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RE: Your goals in life.
My goal in life is to help all my brothers and sisters escape the ghetto. The struggle has gone on long enough.
No bullshit.
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RE: General Kickstarter Thread
Showing my support for the Shantae kickstarter. I dropped 200 dollars into it to get the platinum rewards. I want to drop 500 to get an original drawing (I have some ideas in mind) but it seems a little steep. >_>
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RE: What's the weirdest unbelievable medication that really works?
Sore throat? Gargle with salt water (do NOT swallow). Headache/sick? Eat a lemon.
Alternatively, chicken soup cures everything short of an amputated limb (though may even produce results; must research further).
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
No offense, but I feel as if you're definitely going about this in the wrong way. The LAST thing a suicidal person needs is to be blamed or conditioned with feeling as if they're being a burden. Whether or not you think it's the right thing to do, they need tons of support to show that life is worth living and that people care about their well being.
I mean… it's one thing if they're just claiming they're going to kill themselves (which is STILL pretty big) but it's another thing when they've actually made the attempt to do so. All your work aside, you should try being more supportive and empathetic. Have you asked him why he feels the way he does? Why he began doing drugs? Why he feels suicide is the answer? Ask him about his problems, present alternatives, show support, do something.
Don't just say, "Dur… I'm not going to ENABLE you!!1!"
Suicidal people are not in the correct state of mind and do not think logically.
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RE: Sai's Art Shoppe Pictures!
Man, that picture is fucking awesome. I don't even know where to begin…
The colors, the expressions, the action... Everything is wonderful. D=
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RE: Post how your day was…
Wow
the world is such a big place
my mind is being blown away
maybe I should sleep
but woooooow O_O
Actually, the world is pathetically small when measured against the totality of existence.
Sweet dreams.~
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
@Monkey:
Yes, that's correct.
Of course ethnicity gets really mushed and blurred (social science as it is), especially in a country like the US. The melting pot thing. And the mixed ethnic origin thing etc.This is pretty much how I feel about it.
It's such a weak term when attempting to apply it as a single, all encompassing measure of cultural identification. Like for instance, there's absolutely no doubt that I'm influenced by my Nicaraguan heritage but there's also no doubt that I'm influenced by the heritage of Louisiana, the South and the United States at large. So much so in fact, that you couldn't just classify me underneath one category and call it a day. You would be forced to gradually become more and more specific for the sake of accuracy.
I can understand, to some degree, its application as a term in studying social patterns. But with the onset of globalization, the lines blur more and more with each passing year.
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RE: Food & Drink
This time it's alfredo sauce. This stuff goes great served alongside spaghetti and/or lasagna. I'm going to give the instructions in two different formats. Pick the set of instructions that are applicable to you.~
For People:
! What you'll need:
! - A head of garlic- Olive oil
- A quart of heavy whipping cream
- A quart of Parmesan cheese
- Fresh parsley
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! This recipe is piss easy.
! Get a tall pot and put a thin layer of olive oil at the bottom (seriously thin, don't even put a level of it in; just put enough to cover the bottom). Dice up the entire garlic clove and saute it in the oil. Once the garlic is ready, pour in the entire quart of heavy whipping cream and then increase the heat to high.
! Add an entire quart of Parmesan cheese. If you're a badass, you'll use real Parmesan cheese and grate it. If you're not one, the powdered pre-prepared shit works too. Actually, you may want to add more than a quart of Parmesan cheese. Just make sure the consistency of the sauce isn't too thick. Dice up some fresh parsley and season to taste.
! Annnnd you're done.~
! This stuff goes great poured over some grilled chicken and noodles. Serve alongside spaghetti and/or lasagna and wait to be courted. You'll probably notice lit candles in the room shortly after preparing this meal.For wolfwoofs:
! What you'll need:
! - Your imagination- Grit
! Alfredo sauce is that white, cheesy stuff that you serve alongside Italian dishes. Place a clove of garlic, a quart of heavy whipping cream and a quart of Parmesan cheese on the table. Eye them with a look of intensity and silence their resistant nature with despair. You have a tall pot and you know how to use it.
! Banish them to the eternal fires (eternal in this case being about… 15-20 minutes) of the tall pot prison. Prod and provoke them with your mighty wooden spoon, knowing that they cannot harm you back, though they may spat at you. And then shame them with a rain of fresh parsley, solidifying the somber reality of their existence.
! Pour on top of grilled chicken or noodles or both. Alternatively, hurl the pot at your enemies. Watch as they burn in cheesy goodness, simultaneously being forced to appreciate your cooking while suffering third degree burns. -
RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
@Monkey:
But we're talking race lol, not ethnicity.
People from Pakistan look real different from Englishmen!Fucking fuck. Did I get them mixed up?
So wait… Does that make him ethnically English and his race is Pakastani? I don't get all the fancy color/culture association words at all.
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
@Monkey:
Uh…one can be British and not be English/Scottish/Welsh or originally any kind of European :I
They have immigrants too lol.I'm aware.
By that token, though, I'm an American Nicaraguan. Though I'm fully Americanized despite having a Nicaraguan background and being raised in a Spanish household. Just like, I would imagine, Super is more Britianized than Pakastained.
Obviously, if you're a specific ethnicity, you're not allowed to talk about that ethnicity if you were raised in a different country entirely.
DUUUUUH.
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RE: Post how your day was…
With that signature of yours, I can't imagine why.~
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
Supernova is a Brit. >_>
And always has been.~
Footnote: I'm above racism. Lick my feet.
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
I'm afraid of white people.
Why are they so pale, I don't understand.
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RE: Post how your day was…
Woke up at 2:30 AM this morning to start work. Just now got off at 7:30 PM. =P
I had a 125 hour work week this week after a 119 hour work week last week. But I'm finally going home tomorrow so good bye sea and hello land.
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RE: Post how your day was…
Love is the best emotion of all.~
What they don't tell you is that it's also the worst.
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
So, an interesting occurrence has happened to me recently; I'm no longer love-struck.
For the past few months I had had a deep desire to cultivate a deeper relationship with someone and potentially start moving towards, ya know… starting a life. But I've realized in the past couple of days that I just straight don't care anymore. Love is obviously not on the menu at this point in my life and I think I've come to accept that. I just really don't even care anymore.
All of the different females I've been secretly crushing on lately... I just don't feel it anymore. It's gone. And it's not really an empty feeling either, it's more alleviating. I guess I feel somewhat empowered to not have the attachments and fantasies I was trapped in over the past couple of months. I don't need to weigh my happiness on a scale from one to love. I can just live and go for my goals.
And that's okay.~
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
According to the black list rules you're punished until you submit something.
I submitted for September immediately. :ninja:
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
I don't think anyone would suspect you of foul play. I think you'd be more than okay to submit. :\
Shut up, Kitsu. I'm submitting for September.
God.
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
So it occurs to me that I'm organizing and with the current system I would be both a submitter and a judge, so I can't actually submit anything because you can't do all three at once. There would be an insinuation of foul play. So instead, I'm going to submit for the September monthly.~
http://www.arlongpark.net/showthread.php?t=32385&p=2373544&viewfull=1#post2373544
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Also, expect details about the judging come next week.
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RE: Post how your day was…
i do not know what that means
"First time I've heard about an average person not realize how dangerous tornadoes are and is evidently sad to miss one."
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
I would cornily suggest that we should all get high off of life instead, but science has recently uncovered that life may actually be bad for you.
And could even lead to death.
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
You could submit regardless of the people that have commented on your work.
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RE: Post how your day was…
@joekido:
My day was fine, it was nothing but sunshine, butterflies, rainbows and suger
Hmm? Did you meet Sai-Sai by any chance?
Those things are synonymous with her.~
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RE: Confession Session - LOCK THIS THREAD
I confess that I also slip out of my shoes after tying them once.
I thought that this is what everyone does.
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
are you guys going to do another voice discussion thingy?
There's usually one every month but I think I'll pass on doing one for September. I want to organize my thoughts and develop content for future conferences, give each one some form of consistency.
Though this doesn't stop another organizer (or hell, someone from the group itself) from doing one if they want to. It's all up to you guys.~
Edit: Here's the official thread, by the way: http://apforums.net/showthread.php?t=35375
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RE: Post how your day was…
Today I wrote 3 1/2 pages of Thriller Blend.
Normally, this wouldn't be impressive. But the people that know me know that it is.
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RE: Monthly Writing Competition: Keep Up The Standard!
Only a few days left until the end of August.~
Remember Super, Print and Mumbling (coughandmecough) if you do not submit something for this month then you will be punished by wearing an avatar/signature of Holy Hell's choice until you DO submit something.
That chick can get creative. I'd get moving if I were you guys.
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Wait, I am you guys. Shit!