nd in practice, no, I quite dislike assholes.
You won't experience it as being an asshole. I'll give an example, as this girl that rejected me came by again today. I think I finally figured out what went wrong there btw.. the day before I tried to kiss her, I told her some of my "pick up" stories, it even prompted her to say "where do you find these girls??" So I probably triggered her "player-alert" which is why she probably didn't want to go with it right away. Hell, I even told her the day before "I don't like girls who are easy".. so she was kinda living up to my standards the day after lol. Crap, lesson learned. Next time I'm telling girls "I really want a long term girlfriend now, someone I can feel comfortable with" etc. (which is actually true in her case) Anyway, so it went like this.. this should illustrate what I understand under "being a jerk":
It's 9 am, I'm sleeping.. I have a really irregular sleeping pattern.. I sleep very little during the night, so I often take naps during the day.
knock knock
I wake up and open the door
her: oh sorry you were sleeping
me: no no problem it's cool..
her: I was just about to go out, but I thought I'd pay you a visit
me: come in, come in!
- I scooch over and she sits down on my bed next to me-
So while I'm collecting my wits she starts telling me she wanted to go out the day before, but her girlfriends flaked on her so she couldn't find anyone to go with her.
me: "bahaha you don't have any friends or something?" I get a teasing frown from her.
Anyway, so she continues to tell me about this guy of whom she knows he "likes her" and that he kinda invited himself to go out with her now, and that she was like "eh sure you can tag along" even though she was going with all of her friends and he doesn't know any of them. (me thinking: hm trying to make me jealous or something? lol) So I talk about the guy a bit, then tell her about some of the stuff that happened to me the day before, and what my own plans are for today. So eventually she gets up and ready to leave.
her: "now you have to wish me to have a fun time"
me: "eh you need my permission to have fun or something?"
her: "no.. but it'd be nice"
me: "pf whatever"
her: "come on tell me"
me: "I hope you have a LOUSY time!"
(meh no-one orders me around..)
her: "..fine be like that.." *she leaves to put the final touches before she goes.
So I go sit at my comp and start browsing AP. A new chapter! But then it dawned on me I had taken a resolution the day before to be less of an asshole. So I head out and catch her on her way out.
me: "ok I take back what I said, I wish you to have a GREAT time!"
her: (smiles) "thanks! But why did you change your mind?" (or something like that, don't remember exactly)
me: "I just didn't want to be the jerk here"
her: "Ok you're now officially not a jerk!"
me: "Cool.. ok have fun!"
her: "Thanks, bye see you tomorrow"
me: "Bye, and… not too drunk!"
her: "oooookaaaaay"
See I'm really trying to become a better person =)
She even acted a bit jealous about the letter I got from irresistiblement.
Her: "Ah how nice." smells the letter "Hm she didn't put any perfume on it"
me: "eh.."
her: "and I would personally buy special letter-paper for this occasion"
me: "wtf are you talking about? The letter is super cute"
her: "yeah.. yeah it is I know.."
lol.. weirdo
On a different note, damn today I had a smooth pick-up. I was really proud of myself of how cool I played it and how calm I stayed.
Situation: At a bar, not too crowded, I see two girls sitting on a bench. They look a bit bored. The one at the outer edge was a hottie, so I walk up to her.
me: "Hi. Can I come sit with you guys?"
her: (smile) "Eh.. sure.. you can sit over there" points next to her friend
me: "can't I sit over her" (next to her)
her: "but I'm kinda guarding my coat and purse here.. (lying behind her back) but you can sit next to my friend"
me: "Ok but actually I want to talk to you"
her: "ah.."
me: "come on scootch".
She scootches and I sit down next to her.
So I start talking to her about her studies, where she lives etc. Turns out she was actually just leaving, but still waiting for a friend and that she needed a ride cuz she lived far away. So I talk to her some more, tell her some short stories that make her laugh. Occasionally I let there be a little lull in the convo, to show that I'm not too eager. When I run out of things to say, I go:
me: "Don't you have something interesting to tell me?"
her: "what do you mean?"
me: "well maybe you have something interesting that happened to you that you can tell me?"
So she starts telling me about this sheep whose life she saved today. Lol that was funny =)
me: "wow you're really a good person"
Anyway, a bit later she talks to her friend for a bit and then turns to me
her: "what is your name actually? I'm Marie"
me: "I'm jack. Nice to meet you Marie" shakes her hand
her: "We're gonna leave now.."
me: "Ok. Give me your number then I'll call you later."
her: "Ok"
I give her my cell, she types in her number
her: "do you already have a marie?"
me: "no.." (lol)
So I wish her and her friend a good night and walk back to my friends. I was pretty proud of how calm and collected I stayed through the whole thing. Although it seems like the "hyper enthousiastic" approach is better if I want to score the girl that night then and there. I'm gonna play around with these things in the future some more to see what is good for what purpose etc.
So ok.. that should be enough for now. I hope y'all don't mind my ramblings =)
off to bed