I'm not good at face-to-face conversations…
Not even friends or summat? How about trying reaching to friends/mentors/guides online? Basically anyone with a patient ear for your problems and some level of understanding of how you work.
You can try venting in the Confessions thread. Or PM someone incase you don't want to do it publicly.
@cooldud_21:
Not even friends or summat? How about trying reaching to friends/mentors/guides online? Basically anyone with a patient ear for your problems and some level of understanding of how you work.
You can try venting in the Confessions thread. Or PM someone incase you don't want to do it publicly.
Mrrhh… the only friends I can talk to are the very few I have at college, and college is the main source of my depression right now I do believe as well as my 'friends'...
I'll probably head to the confessions thread at some point, though whether I do or not I don't really know...
I've spoken to a few friends online (not from college) but I've still felt bad...
Mrrhh… the only friends I can talk to are the very few I have at college, and college is the main source of my depression right now I do believe as well as my 'friends'...
I'll probably head to the confessions thread at some point, though whether I do or not I don't really know...
I've spoken to a few friends online (not from college) but I've still felt bad...
Do you have a counsellor at college? At some point of time you'd be best off visiting him or her. And don't worry if you're not good at face to face interaction, they usually work around your communication issues and get to the necessary problem.
Just be patient about this. And whatever happens, stay calm.
Bombed another phone interview. I'm just not cut out for this.
Mrrhh… the only friends I can talk to are the very few I have at college, and college is the main source of my depression right now I do believe as well as my 'friends'...
I'll probably head to the confessions thread at some point, though whether I do or not I don't really know...
I've spoken to a few friends online (not from college) but I've still felt bad...
Is there a student health center (or equivalent) where you go? You should be able to get an appointment with a psychologist/counselor there (even if you suck at talking to people, they won't mind).
Is there a student health center (or equivalent) where you go? You should be able to get an appointment with a psychologist/counselor there (even if you suck at talking to people, they won't mind).
@cooldud_21:
Do you have a counsellor at college? At some point of time you'd be best off visiting him or her. And don't worry if you're not good at face to face interaction, they usually work around your communication issues and get to the necessary problem.
Just be patient about this. And whatever happens, stay calm.
To be honest I have no idea… I know there's a student support thing and I've been before but yeah...
I'm hoping it's just a phase or something, seriously...
Like I said, I'm bad at talking face-to-face with people, and I feel if I tried to speak face-to-face with anyone about it right now I'd just cry.
I saw something which made me laugh slightly but now my mood has dipped...
Because the mosseur and sisseur were talking about buying CDs an whatnot and they wanted two so I was like 'What about Royal Republic - The Royal? I think even you guys would like some o the songs...' and the mosseur was like 'if you go to college tomorrow I'll consider it'
FUCKING FUCK.
then again she doesn't know I'm depressed and there's no fucking chance I'm telling her.
To be honest I have no idea… I know there's a student support thing and I've been before but yeah...
I'm hoping it's just a phase or something, seriously...
Like I said, I'm bad at talking face-to-face with people, and I feel if I tried to speak face-to-face with anyone about it right now I'd just cry.I saw something which made me laugh slightly but now my mood has dipped...
Because the mosseur and sisseur were talking about buying CDs an whatnot and they wanted two so I was like 'What about Royal Republic - The Royal? I think even you guys would like some o the songs...' and the mosseur was like 'if you go to college tomorrow I'll consider it'
FUCKING FUCK.
then again she doesn't know I'm depressed and there's no fucking chance I'm telling her.
Crying is okay. Don't stress. Find out if you have a student counsellor and talk to them. The solution they'll give is much more lasting than "I'll wait it out and it'll go".
To be honest I have no idea… I know there's a student support thing and I've been before but yeah...
I'm hoping it's just a phase or something, seriously...
Like I said, I'm bad at talking face-to-face with people, and I feel if I tried to speak face-to-face with anyone about it right now I'd just cry.I saw something which made me laugh slightly but now my mood has dipped...
Because the mosseur and sisseur were talking about buying CDs an whatnot and they wanted two so I was like 'What about Royal Republic - The Royal? I think even you guys would like some o the songs...' and the mosseur was like 'if you go to college tomorrow I'll consider it'
FUCKING FUCK.
then again she doesn't know I'm depressed and there's no fucking chance I'm telling her.
Im open to listen if you'll have me. I'm no psychologist or qualified, but I am open to trying to help.
PM me if you wanna talk in private.
i'm in agreement with Cruithne and cooldud here. It's okay if you're not sure how to talk or if you're afraid that you'll cry. I asked someone for help once, and when we met I spent the first ten minutes crying and paralysed with fear. It got better, and getting your thoughts and feelings out of your own head and allowing someone sitting right in front of you to listen to you and show empathy will work wonders. Therapists are different from friends. Knowing that someone knows you're going through something will likely help you greatly as well.
I hope you work something out :)
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In the end, I was saved from a breakdown by the sis, who - due to being up most of the night ill - basically saved my ass. I woke up all iffy and stuff and when mum came to wake me up she was like '…'
if you are living above the equator, it might be a winter depression.
in the link below you see ten ways hoe to get better
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/wellness_articles.asp?id=341
In the end, I was saved from a breakdown by the sis, who - due to being up most of the night ill - basically saved my ass. I woke up all iffy and stuff and when mum came to wake me up she was like '…'
She spontaneously transformed into a poorly constructed emoticon ?!!
dude that's harsh :sad:
if you are living above the equator, it might be a winter depression.
in the link below you see ten ways hoe to get better
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/wellness_articles.asp?id=341
I live in England it's CONSTANTLY depressing here…
@No:
She spontaneously transformed into a poorly constructed emoticon ?!!
dude that's harsh :sad:
Pffffffffff-nooo.
The only thing poorly constructed about my mum is her abilities… she lacks the ability to keep her horrid opinions in her head. She seems to believe it'd be something we agree on in terms of her opinion but no. It's bullshit most of the time. Sister is almost as bad...
But yiss, looked through the last page again, and thanks for all the advice and whatnot guys ; 3 ;
School made a stupid call. Decided the snow wasn't so bad, so school stays open. Guess what? One lesson in, they decided to call school off. I didn't even have a lesson that lesson, and was stuck in traffic for a couple hours afterwards (and it normally takes 15mins to get home by car).
Seven hours in work…..I think? Stripper night and three big fights. Quality night.
Loads of piss, smoke and entertainment, fuck I miss this kind of drama.
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Busy day of giving blood samples and getting my medical paperwork in order before I can start my new job. Tomorrow I see the company doctor.
It's so. Fucking. Cold.
I don't even wanna go out to get drunk anymore. I just do it inside. By myself.
This day has been rather good. Ate some Ikea hotdogs and found out that I can maybe learn in Denmark for free and they'll even teach me Danish.
But now, my mom apparently brought a guy home without me knowing (she only told me a minute ago) and now I'm afraid to go outside or do anything because of a stranger being three maters away from me.
Well isn't it nice.
You know what? This is my home and I'm not going to act differently because of some man.
I made myself sad again.
Fuck.
My computer hates me. It overheats, I think there's a problem with the video card, and now I suspect that it has a virus. And it could be any one or a combination of those things that is now making it BSOD less than a minute after login, making the computer virtually unusable. Hopefully I'll be able to fix it.
sigh
Just what I need with school starting back up next week.
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This happened a few days ago but I forgot to tell about it…
I was on my way to home from the bus stop when I saw something that made my eyes stretch slightly out of my head: in a nearby field there was a huge inflatable hall that I had never seen before. I had no idea why it was there, but I shrugged and walked on.
A few minutes later I noticed an old man walking slowly in front of me and I'd catch up with him in no time. I also recognized the man. It was this one guy who lives in a small house with his wife, a five minutes' walk away from my home. It's located on the street that leads to the bus station and the primary & secondary schools of my hometown, so I've been walking past his house practically every day for the last 13 years. As if that wasn't enough, directly next to his house is my old (now empty and abandoned) kindergarten, so I've known him for a very long time, from my point of view at least. My first memory of him is when he used to talk with the kindergarten workers over the fence when I was something like 5-6 years old, and like said, I've seen him more or less regularly ever since then.
We were in fact just going to walk past his house, so I assumed he was going to turn from the road and enter his frontyard. And that he did. But as I walked past him, he suddenly spoke to me and asked if I had seen the inflatable hall in the field. He said he was just coming back from investigating it, and I told him I had also wondered what the thing was. He had found out it was a new temporary sport hall for the winter.
He also told me he had just skied 53 km even though he's 76 years old, and we chatted about sports and stuff for a while, until he went inside his house and I walked on. Then it suddenly hit me that I had just spoken with him for the very first time even though I've known him practically for my whole life and he must have seen me grow up, too. So strange. But I don't complain, you can never have enough friends~ Hopefully we'll talk again sooner or later.
My computer hates me. It overheats, I think there's a problem with the video card, and now I suspect that it has a virus. And it could be any one or a combination of those things that is now making it BSOD less than a minute after login, making the computer virtually unusable. Hopefully I'll be able to fix it.
sigh
Just what I need with school starting back up next week.
If your computer is a laptop you should buy one of those laptop fans. They really work in keeping the computer stay cool
Make sure you buy a good fan though. The Cheap ones suck!
If you have a tower, then just buy another fan
LA LA LAAAAAA. LA LA LA LA!(-Dearly Beloved)
If your computer is a laptop you should buy one of those laptop fans. They really work in keeping the computer stay cool
https://encrypted-tbn2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQ0sdZEJhp0YgAkJC38F-7eE4hAftCu1–PaPG_aHLNfsmD3HsIMake sure you buy a good fan though. The Cheap ones suck!
If you have a tower, then just buy another fan
It's a tower. My laptop is what I'm using right now, and will be for a while it looks like. (No more PC gaming :cwy:)
And I'm starting to think it's more of a problem with the video card taking a crap on me than just general overheating. I mean, my tower has five fans already. You'd think that would be enough to keep the thing cool.
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I need to stay away from my rowantorgeir account on tumblr for a bit… it's depressing me.
Sure, I love my OC (thus the tumblr for him) but no one barely interacts with me... and I rarely get any asks apart from one time I got 8+ from the same person trying to cheer me up ; 3 ;
But yeah... constantly checking that tumblr is like me in secondary - forever alone apart from the odd 1 or so people who would occasionally grace me with kindness...
That isn't to say I've had negativity or anything, but... yeah. I just feel alone... >__<
i feel the same when it comes to checking the views/comments on my amvs/pmvs.
what do all those other amv/pmv makers do to get their thousands of views, while i'm stuck in the lower hundreds?
guess i'll hit up google and look for some tips.
@MDL:
i feel the same when it comes to checking the views/comments on my amvs/pmvs.
what do all those other amv/pmv makers do to get their thousands of views, while i'm stuck in the lower hundreds?guess i'll hit up google and look for some tips.
Well, with AMV's on youtube, the views are high because either: 1) The person has a lot of subscribers, therefore is more likely to have high views 2) It's of a real popular anime - Naruto AMV's have ridiculous amounts of views on them.. even the shitty shit ones 3) The song name (and anime for that matter) is in the video title and it's a really popular song (think Linkin park - think anything mainstream Music Charts, you get the idea) 4) I save 'tags' for last because I don't know if tags work the same on youtube as they use to - but that use to be a big part of it. 5) And least of all, it may actually be a good video! But not usually - usually it's just the title of the video, the song, and the anime
If you want to get a lot of views, make a Naruto AMV with a Linkin Park song and title it: "BEST AMV EVER - NARUTO WHAT I'VE DONE LINKIN PARK"
I guarantee you views. Fool proof.
Spent an hour and a half in queue waiting to see the doctor. All for fifteen minutes so I could tell him my medical history, let him give me a medical check up (blood pressure, heart beat, breathing and throat check) and give him my urine cup to put a stick in. Well, I guess it was worth it in the end. Company doctor declared me fit for health. So it's just a week till my blood test and medical check up results are forwarded to the company and they'll call me to come down to sign the contract. Job ahoy!
I feel slightly better, turns out my hunch was probably right about this one person I messaged having shiz tonnes of messages or being generally busy XD
@MDL:
i feel the same when it comes to checking the views/comments on my amvs/pmvs.
what do all those other amv/pmv makers do to get their thousands of views, while i'm stuck in the lower hundreds?guess i'll hit up google and look for some tips.
MDL, what's your YouTube channel?
LA LA LAAAAAA. LA LA LA LA!(-Dearly Beloved)
MDL, what's your YouTube channel?
i primarily make mlp music videos these days, but there are plenty of anime-based ones further back in my upload list.
some of them were quite popular back in the day, like "dog days are over" and "right here right now".
sigh
I just returned after taking a long, pointless walk. You see, I was supposed to go out and watch Django Unchained with a bunch of folks and reached the theater (after a twenty minute walk) to find out that the plan was for some other theater, in the completely opposite direction. On my way back, I bought a sandwich and a shake to help tide over my depression. At some point during the walk, the shake lid came off and half of it fell over my jeans. I did the best I could to clean myself up, and headed back, with my left leg cold and numb.
sigh
Less than 24 hours left….
Last year we faced defeat... against them...
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but we played hard and long this year… and once again.. we must face them. The winner will go to the SuperBowl
WE WILL WIN
Sunday 6:30pm! Ravens! Caw Caw
Where's my snow??? I was promised snow this week dammit!!
Today I went to see Wreck-It Ralph for the third time at the movies, hung out with some friends .. and well … that's all.
Great day.
Thursday I came back from a 4 day spiritual retreat for our school (one half of seniors, next half is March. Yes, we're very little students) and while most of us got there with laziness and underwhelming expectations, it was an intense and invaluable experience, and I learned so much of others, of my faith, and most of all, of myself. You might not CHANGE permanently but you DO end up learning a lot and changing your overall outlook on life and on people. I loved it :)
BUT I JUST WANNA GO OUT AND GET DRUNK NOW AND I CAN'T FIND A RIDE :(
So, I'm sick.
First, it was just a harsh cold, complete with losing my voice and everything. Lots a coughing 'n stuff.
Then I got something that feels like peritonitis, only not as bad (which I will get looked at tomorrow, because holy smokes is it unsettling). That's not really good coupled with the coughing I mentioned.
THEN I thought it'd be smart to cheer myself up with the internet. Inevitably, a bad case of laughing fit ensued, which eventually led to a coughing fit.
Oh God, the pain.
So worth it though.
@Nia:
So, I'm sick.
First, it was just a harsh cold, complete with losing my voice and everything. Lots a coughing 'n stuff.
Then I got something that feels like peritonitis, only not as bad (which I will get looked at tomorrow, because holy smokes is it unsettling). That's not really good coupled with the coughing I mentioned.
THEN I thought it'd be smart to cheer myself up with the internet. Inevitably, a bad case of laughing fit ensued, which eventually led to a coughing fit.
Oh God, the pain.
So worth it though.
Ow. I've never had anything like that but I do know how it feels to not be able to stop coughing and it hurting like a motherfucker every time.
So hope it does get better soon :sad:
@No:
Ow. I've never had anything like that but I do know how it feels to not be able to stop coughing and it hurting like a motherfucker every time.
So hope it does get better soon :sad:
I'm very, very glad the coughing had started to get better shortly before the other shit began. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to sit it out till tomorrow XD
Like it is, it's uncomfortable, but as long as I don't start laughing/coughing uncontrollably it's bearable. Breathing itself doesn't really hurt.
Thanks :)
Belgium also stole some
I heard about a photography contest and decided to participate.
The goal of the contest is to photograph your city.
Here is the photo I selected:[hide]
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It´s good ?
When AP used to be good:
NEVER FORGET !!
I heard about a photography contest and decided to participate.
The goal of the contest is to photograph your city.
Here is the photo I selected:[hide]http://i.imgur.com/VMSexqU.jpg[/hide]
It´s good ?
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I felt strange all day, like I have to throw up, but I ate and ate and ate and nothing happened, fortunately.
I felt strange all day, like I have to throw up, but I ate and ate and ate and nothing happened, fortunately.
That sometimes happens when you suddenly get realy hungry, I find, like after a long sleep. It feels like you're about to throw up but it's realy just your stomach asking for food in a rather rude sort of way.
@No:
I take that as a confession !
Burn the witch !
I don't like heeeaattt o A o
