Back when I lived in Washington state, I had a really tight circle of friends, that I truly felt connected to. But then I moved to Arizona when I was still in middle school, and I became rather bitter after that. I even started lashing out against my closest friends, and slowly drifted away from them. I made a lot of personal decisions that I'm not proud of at all, and that I'm still attempting to recover from. For a long time, I thought that the whole concept of friendship was stupid and unnecessary, and I found no friends worth liking. Literally, there was nobody I truly liked, except for my cat (who is now dead) and a couple of internet friends. But then, I had a rather drastic change in my life, that I thought was for the better. It took a long time for me to fully get over who I used to be, and I'm still not entirely through with developing into a more decent person, but over time, I've grown to accept other people, and now I have a small group of genuine friends.
Posts made by Kylor
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RE: General Friendship Thread
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Seriously?
I actually like you quite a lot, Kylor.
Really? Aw, thanks! That actually has boosted my confidence quite a bit.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
@Cuddles:
Also, I've tried hard to be a…prominent member of this community for the past year, but I don't think I've made much success in joining some of the upper ranks of the other members. Not Godhood or War Veteran or anything, just someone who's no longer a greenhorn around here.
Although I am proud to say that I've found out that I can do things that some of the other higher members can't or won't do. Unfortunately, it's mainly creativity stuff, which makes me more of an eccentric storyteller in the middle of a castle of warriors and entertainers.
And anyone who has read Loss should get an idea of what I think of fate and destiny, even if I am coming to terms with it.I have the same feeling. To no end. I've been trying off and on to get people's attention here for quite some time, with very little acknowledgment. I know I don't post here very often, but it's still a little disheartening. I know I'm probably just a wholly unremarkable person who simply hasn't made an impression and should stop whining about it. I'm fine with that, actually. But sometimes I have the irrational fear that I've made a terrible mistake somewhere, and now everyone coldly hates me for it. Anyone else got this feeling?
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
My phobia? Dogs. Or any animal, really. Any big, friendly animal gets me freaked out. What if they don't know what they're doing, and they accidentally injure me while they're trying to play? Worries me to no end, even though the fear is mostly groundless.
Also, I had sort of an embarrassing experience today, so now I'm afraid of that happening again, too.
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RE: Psychology and art.
It's the details we remember. In the long run, even in life, the little details we remember help us form an image of the bigger picture. This carries over to art, too. The details help shape our understanding of the artwork. Details are everywhere in life, and when they're present in art, it likewise makes us more likely to relate to the message the artist is trying to say.
I'm not an artist, by any means, but that's how I feel about the subject.
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RE: I wanna draw anniemay
This is making me rethink my goals, and I don't even want to go into art.
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RE: Flame Warriors
I have found that I fit nicely in the category of "Lamer", albeit one with the occasional flair for the dramatic.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
My first avatar? Hm, that's strange, for some reason, I can't seem to find it. Ah well. Let me assure you, it was great.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I can't access IRC. Not to mention I haven't been able to be at the computer very much lately.
I literally have no idea what's going on. Then again, is that even a surprise anymore with me?
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RE: The One Piece will NOT be "Friendship/Adventure/Corny Ass Abstract"
One Piece is not some weird abstract thing, it is something tangible, that has actual value in some way. You cannot start a huge event that shakes the world with nothing but FRIENDSHIP or ADVENTURE.
However, One Piece is not the Rio Poneglyph. Luffy's dream is not Robin's dream. One Piece may be related to the Poneglyph, but they will not be the same thing.
As I have said somewhere else before, I think that One Piece is a tiny, desolate utopia of sorts, a blueprint for an ideal, not-totally-oppressive world. Whoever finds it will be expected to expand on that utopia, and so on and so forth, until it envelops the whole world. Therefore, what Gol D. Roger left on Raftel will be "One Piece" of a perfect world. Which is why it's so important that someone with the Will of D. Finds it. Only someone with the Will would be able to successfully expand on what Roger found. And of course, if Blackbeard were to find it, that would just cause all sorts of problems, as the One Piece would end up being mercilessly corrupted.
Not the perfect idea, but it's better than ADVENTURE.
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RE: Awards Ceremony
From the bottom of my heart, congrats to all who won, and even to those who didn't.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I challenge the current rule!
Indeed, they have emerged victorious, but under whose guise did they do so? They have used the fine names of Isaac and Miria to achieve their crowns, and I even had the mind to support them for it! But now! When they have found what they wanted, have they shown due respect? Nay! Down with the impostors I say! The true believer rejects the crown!
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I never think I have stage fright, until I'm actually on stage, and then I'm terrified.
I think that's why I'm attempting voice acting now.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Or you could make a perfect being through putting various selected parts together, and then letting your creation be struck by lightning, thus making the ideal lifeform.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I don't plan on having a baby, but if I did, I would name him J. Michael Tatum.
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RE: 483: ''Searching for the Answer - Fire-Fist Ace Dies on the Battlefield''
I don't get the ''Searching for the Answer" part of the title. I don't even know what is the question. :ninja:
Well, we know the answer is 42. Ace was about five minutes away from figuring out what the question was, but then Akainu punched him, so that was kind of ruined.
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RE: If sanji had a laptop….
If Sanji had a laptop, he would not know how to use it, due to such things being completely unknown in the One Piece setting. Finding it strange and useless, he'd probably kick it.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I don't drink.
Not because I'm underage, or because I want to be a decent member of society or nothing, I honestly don't like it. For some reason, explaining this to people can be incredibly hard at times.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Oh my god, it's Silvers Rayleigh all over again!
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Happy Birthday, MDL! Congrats on being a year older and whatnot.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
According to Sea, I am a blind poet.
Rather suitable, I think.
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RE: New Star Sign - What would your revised Star Sign be ?
Still Aquarius. Guess I'm gonna keep on bearing that water, then.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Screw Greek Gods. Who wants to come and be a NORSE GOD?
I Thor. And I needs me some Valkyries (bitches).
I do believe I already established my rein as Thor! Step down, impostor!
But in all seriousness, as far as seriousness can go in a subject like this that is, I wonder what Greek God I would be? Would someone more knowledgeable in the subject care to choose a suitable Greek Mythological figure? If it's not too much trouble, that is.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
When me and the girls (yes, Snocone, this includes you) go to kidnap J. Michael Tatum, I'll force him to read your posts in his angelic voice for you.
Oh, but surely I am not worthy?
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Kylor, I just thought you should know that your posts are voiced by J. Michael Tatum in my head.
I blame the avatar.
That… that's the greatest thing anyone had ever said to me.
Thank you. I will try to improve my posts in the future, to make them worthy of the grand voice you imagine in your head.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
@RobbyBevard:
Ash and his wood.
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You only need to hear the first 10 seconds for the line. Go any further and you'll be subjected to horrible puns, the nickname "Brocko", and James at his campiest.The whole album is pretty amazing in a trainwreck sort of way and a "They actually MADE this?" sensation. Under the Mistletoe was cute though. Until Ash traded his female traveling companion out 3 times, anyway.
"With Ma in her kerchief, and Mr. Mime in my cap, (And I think Professor Oak was there, too…)"
Fuck the wood. THAT'S the most questionable line right there.
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RE: Fare Thee Well
It's storytime with Kylor now!
And thus, the mighty Usopp With A Pushpop, the brave champion of justice, looked across the wretched landscape, filled with the vile, nasty creatures. He stood before them all, with a tear in his eye, knowing that nothing could be done for any of them. In fact, Usopp With A Puspop knew that better than anyone, for he had tried so hard to change them. He had come to them with open arms, and for a while, he thought he had found a home. "These are my nakama." He said with an innocent smile. "They are all my nakama." This was not to be. For as Usopp With A Pushpop became more comfortable with all his nakama, the absolute unthinkable occurred. It only began with a simple mistake, a mistake that was eventually lost to history, but it's effects were remembered for ages to come. Usopp With A Pushpop suddenly did not feel welcome anymore. Those surrounding him turned into monsters, and they lashed, lashed with every ounce of their hateful being, lashed with no remorse or pity, lashed until the lashing became the norm. They were not his nakama. Not any longer. But Usopp With A Pushpop would not be chased out so easily. He thought he could change the monsters, turn them back into their former selves. He would teach them, he would teach them all, that he, and no one else, was the Best Male Cosplayer. Alas, the monsters would not understand. Rather, they refused to. That was the last straw. And finally, Usopp With A Pushpop's greatest nakama, the nakama he had admired the most, the nakama he thought he could trust, lashed the poor, just soul in the back. Usopp With A Pushpop was alone. And so, bidding his old home of Arlong Park a sad farewell, Usopp With A Pushpop ran far away, into the horizon, hoping that one day, he would find a better home. A home where his genius would be recognized. Someday.
The monsters, who were in reality simply ordinary men, not beasts, breathed a heavy sigh, and shook their heads. If Usopp With A Pushpop had only learned from his errors, if he had only stopped to consider that maybe he was being a bit too enthusiastic about his own cosplaying abilities, that maybe, if he spent his time actually improving the quality of his posts instead of whining about all the lashing, then they might once again welcome him. However, that was never to be. Usopp With A Pushpop was gone. And he would never return.
Ever.
For at least half a week.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
Shit.
I thought I would be free from the cold. I live in the goddamn desert. I thought the one bonus to my family moving here would be that I would not have to fucking deal with the cold during the winter. Holy shit, I was wrong. I've been living here for years now, and every winter, Arizona never ceases to disappoint me.
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RE: Gabrielle Giffords and 18 other people shot
So Phelps won't be here, eh? That's wonderful news, although I'm a bit disappointed I won't be able to shoo 'em out myself.
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RE: Gabrielle Giffords and 18 other people shot
I was not able to attend his speech in person, but I went to the U of A football field where the speech was broadcast. Even though it was freezing, it was still a great experience. There could not have been a better speech.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
i haven't seen much violence irl yet, and i'm thankful for it. i'm terrified of angry people.
I feel the same way, which is why I'm terrible in really heated arguments.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
I would like to say I never fought as a child. However, that is not entirely true. I was a small, timid little kid, with a horrible haircut, but I mostly wanted to keep to myself. Sadly, some people did not allow for that, and wanted a small, timid little kid to pick on. I got detention a lot in those days. I regret nothing I did.
I calmed down a lot more as I got older, though. Now, I hate violence, in pretty much all it's forms.
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RE: Gabrielle Giffords and 18 other people shot
Phelps and his gang are coming to town, eh? How interesting is this! I, on behalf of everyone here, am gonna make sure to give them a warm welcome.
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RE: Gabrielle Giffords and 18 other people shot
I feel like I should probably say something, given my location.
Hawkolf, honestly, I don't care if you care or not. The issues going on here in Tucson are too serious for me to stop and think if you give a shit. In fact, I shouldn't even be saying that much. The shooting, though it happened closer to me than most people, did not affect me personally in the slightest, as far as I'm aware. I was actually in bed at the time, the event did not happen close to me, and I don't pay attention to local politics at all. Does that mean I should say "Arg, this thread doesn't concern me at all, and I should let the whole world know this, because America is stupid and anyone who cares about it is a horrible liar?" Fuck no. That's just annoying, more than anything else. No, this is a horrible tragedy, and if one is to say anything about it at all, they should at least acknowledge that much. If not for me, then for the other Arizonans here who were clearly much more affected than I was. And remember, if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
@Holy:
I just had the craziest epiphany ever
It occured after hugging somebody with the intention of having sex (with no attraction or romantic inclination to them at all), I ended up instead just… hugging them for twenty minutes. And then having no sex.
It was crazy. It was weird. It was bizarre.
It was also the most nonsexual thing ever and it felt kind of nice. I got up from this hug feeling refreshed and cleansed. I think it might be the best thing my hypersexual idiot self has ever done with somebody else. I think I learned a lot, somehow.
This is totally related to the topic at hand because something yadda sex teenage rebellion
A crazy epiphany, perhaps, but I can't say I don't know the feeling. That is, aside from the lack of attraction or romantic inclination.
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RE: Random News Article Discussion
Yup, crazy insane person. What I found interesting was that the information given under School, Interests, and Books were all written in the past tense. Weird.
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RE: The Balkanization of the USA
Wow, that's a lot of, um, free space.
And oh look, Arizona is right in the "Texas Republic". How lovely. All the more reason to run out of this desert as fast as possible. Also, that shooting. Holy crap, that shooting. What a wonderful state I live in, eh?
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RE: Post Your Pics, Part Trois
@Nia:
Holy Hattori, you look just like someone I know, only that your hair is twice as long.
Your first name wouldn't happen to be "Micha", now would it? :ninja:Sorry, but no, it isn't.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
When I was a small child, my mother always required me to have terrible bowl cuts. And no matter what, my father will always object to however I choose to present myself. Long hair is a beautiful revenge for me.
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RE: Post Your Pics, Part Trois
Well now, I've decided to post a picture of myself. Here is me, looking off at something.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
For a male, I have unusually long hair. Unlike other males in my area with similar style choices, I am not making a statement, I just like my hair long. Mainly because I can't have short hair that looks good on me, for some reason.
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RE: The Balkanization of the USA
I think this should happen. I feel that several places, such as Arizona, can only get worse, and the rest of the country does not need to be bogged down in such a fashion by places with outdated and backwards ideas.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
The idea is a good idea, and I agree with it. Therefore, I fifth.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
and Kylor..that avatar of yours makes me think of kitsune inferno
More like his avatar makes you think of me. Mine came first.
Though, to be fair, we're both handsome in our own right.
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RE: General Discussion Thread II
It's going on now, I guess. All the best anyway! Let us know how it turns out! I hope everything goes really well :happy:
It went rather well. I was nervous, and I didn't think my performance was as good as it could have been, but he helped me through my inexperience a whole lot, and helped me overcome some of my difficulties. Kyle Hebert is actually a very friendly man. I have another lesson scheduled for Monday, and now I know what to expect, so I think I'll do much better.
Something that I thought you all would be interested in, all the lines he had me read were from Bleach. Sadly, Aizen was not one of the characters I read for, however, so things did not go all according to plan.
On an unrelated note, changing my avatar? How could I, when I have such a handsome man as my avatar already?