Kyros 9th, jimbei tenth( big mom will feed on the other sun pirates), ceasar 11th, bartolomeo or momonosuke 12th? Wait and see…..
Are you fucking shitting me. NO ONE iS JOININIg from THIsS Arc ffs.
Kyros 9th, jimbei tenth( big mom will feed on the other sun pirates), ceasar 11th, bartolomeo or momonosuke 12th? Wait and see…..
Are you fucking shitting me. NO ONE iS JOININIg from THIsS Arc ffs.
I rly don't understand people.
I
just don't think friends are people who tell you they love you and want you to be happy but at the same time tell you that you need to change everything about yourself. Either love me or don't, just don't do both at the same time. Just don't tell me how imperfect I am, openly, in public. Humiliation won't make me change. And frankly, lately I've realised that I rly like myself, so no, sry, I won't change so you can feel better about yourself or put a crown on your head for "helping" someone.Yes, I don't let people close atm and I won't be forced to do so. Yes, I'm bad with people and drive them away everytime and yes, that's stupid but… I'm still here and happy and if people can go because I do one simple mistake then no, I won't stop them.
I do apologize for mistakes but I also found out with most people, no matter how many years you've known them, you do one mistake, apologize in the most sincere way but they just ignore you. That's not a real friend. If it's so easy to walk away from me then I just won't stop you. so go on and don't look back.
eh, rant over.
Sorry.
real friends wouldnt bail on you like that. they clearly weren't your friends. See when I think of friends I have best friends; people I'd tell everything to aka pretty much like family, good friends; people i see regularly but not almost every week/daily basis but people who I still like and talk to on a regular basis, decent friends; people who I like alot, just don't know them very well/haven't spent that much time with them but I'd still feel comfortable around them 1 on 1, and then friends; people above acquaintance, people I would say hi and stop and have a chat with, people I don't see all the time but because they are usually friends of a friend I see them at parties or going out or what not and will have a good chat.
See you said that "I found out that most people, not matter how many years you've known them, do one mistake, apologize in the most sincere way but they just ignore you." no shit thats not a real friend I don't know who you hang out with but you clearly either don't let people get to know you well enough or you have a different perception of friendship to me. A REAL FRIEND would stand up for you in anything. For example in a street fight you know you have a REAL friend if you are about to get bashed 5 to 1 and they'd step in full well knowing that they are going to get bashed as well just so you don't get bashed as badly. And I think you are exaggerating that your friends wanted you to change everything about yourself becasue thats a big ask. But maybe if enough people are saying the same things maybe you should question whether or not what they said is valid or not, and whether or not you should change your behaviour/habit/etc because maybe it is a fucking problem. But yes if you believe you are right, follow through with it and yes most people who leave a friendship made over an extended period of time aka years are clearly not your friend or not even your good friend. I'd seriously be questioning who you are friends with if you have friends leaving you over petty shit. but yes one of the mysteries of life: trying to understand human beings.
Thank you for sharing your story and advice FKD. You seem to know a lot about what people are going through on here and I know they'll be thankful there's another helpful voice added to the conversation.
Side note: Living in Africa does not automatically translate to unlucky. It depends on a number of factors like where in Africa, economic standing, and I'm sure racial, religious, sexual orientation, and gender play their parts too. Sooo…like in any country. You can be very unlucky to live in America under the right (unfortunate?) circumstances.
Yeah I know, I was using it as an example albeit a poor one. I'm just trying to say theres so many worst situations to be in and even if you feel like nothing can get worst, things can always get better.
I thought today was gonna be fine but just this moment i was struck by a horrible sadness of i don't know. I just want to cry. And when i get like this i hold my hands against my face but i hate it cause when i do it my mind just tells me "Rip you face off" "rip your skin off" "hurt Yourself". I mean, it always happen but lately it's been so strong (the impulse or the voice, i don't know).
coming from someone who has suffered depression and is still suffering depression aka have attempted suicide (survived), the things you do or should do to start feeling better, start feeling positive again (i think this is a big one, trying to change a negative thought process/negative mindset) and just feeling better as a person (not hopeless, worthless, empty, etc) is 1) definitely seek professional advice. For anyone who is going through periods of feeling down/depressed/sad, you should definitely go see your doctor and see what he/she recommends. I also would recommend seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist (I am still seeing both), as it gives you an avenue to let your feelings of shit out to someone who is professionally trained into helping you get out of such a shit state.
And prismeru i read somewhere above that you cry sometimes, yeah shit happens when your depressed and dont worry its normal to cry when you feel shit. You could possibly try antidepressants (I'm also on), and it has made me feel 'less' suicidal and as a result im slowly regaining my confidence/self-esteem. Also read somewhere above that someone has been cutting their hand, yeah it SUCKS but the alternative as they mentioned is suicide. And yeah I still contemplate about suicide all the time, but realistically having seen what it does to friends and family of the individual who committed suicide, why put your friends and family through that.. Its a way out but also as stupid as this sounds but you only live once and yeah obviously most of us are born with imperfections and flaws and are placed in shit situations sometimes which makes us feel down and not wanting to live life anymore, but you should view it as 1 day at a time, working on establishing a positive mindset, motivate yourself to do stuff and yeah its hard but believe me things do get better.. Its not the end of the world.. Just be glad you're not living in Africa or some other poverty-striken location. We are fucking lucky as it is to live in an open and free society, many a place are fucked up yet we are fortunate to live where we are.
Also anti-depressant medication might work for you (im on some), it'll hopefully reduce your suicidal ideations/thoughts/attempts, and overall just neutralized your bad feelings (although it doesnt make you feel good). I wouldn't exactly recommend anti-depressants, but fuck man if anyone here is seriously contemplating suicide/can't take any longer, get on it its better than doing nothing. Thats another thing about feeling depressed/alone/sad, being PROACTIVE distracts your mind from your depression. So what I can say is that you should try to preoccupy yourself with activities and events that you enjoy, and better yourself for it. Like for example I've started exercising 4-5 times a week at this circuit class at a gym, and besides the physical gains and benefits from doing regular exercise, I distract myself from feeling depressed and overall I feel better after these classes. I think the biggest problem about feeling depressed (for me anyway), is trying to motivate myself to do things because I feel I am worthless/failure/etc and as a result I just don't have the motivation to do things that I once enjoyed such as going out, socializing, etc. Keeping yourself preoccupied with things you enjoy or just things will challenge you I guarantee will make you less depressed.
Prismeru you talk about the impulse or the voice telling you to rip your face off, etc, thats the negative thought process working in your mind. And if you have been depressed for a while as a mentioned earlier, it takes TIME to readjust your neurotransmitters in your brain because they have been rewired to have such a negative thought process. So my psychiatrist tells me everytime I get a negative thought, I should acknowledge that its a negative thought, and from that I can dismiss it and question whether or not such a view was valid or not. And because you are depressed, you are more likely to have LOTS of negative thoughts, so yeah its fucking hard to deal with, but most of the time, the negative thoughts in your head are just exactly that, negative thoughts coming from you, not from someone else. So by focusing on removing these negative thoughts slowly, you'll be a better person because of it, and feeling negative all the time definitely has a major impact on your self-esteem/self confidence. You might be in a social situation where theres a pretty girl whos looking at you but you tell yourself in your head that she thinks your scum, and that theres no point going over to talk to her, even though she might actually be looking at you because she thinks you're attractive and want you to talk to her. Its all in your head.
But as I said 1 step at a time.
1. Go see your local doctor
2. If your doctor recommends go see a psychiatrist to get an evaluation of your mental health/state
3. I would recommend seeing a counselor (free for me so its win win situation really)
4. If the psychiatrist recommends possibly start taking antidepressants
5. Work on your negative thought patterns and eliminate them slowly
6. Do regular physical exercise and eat properly (Diet is so fucking important)
7. Keep yourself preoccupied. The lack of things to do will make you more fucking depressed
great chapter
USOPP WITH HAKI
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Gosh people have an absurdly high standard of the quality of Oda's writing because to those complaining: i'd like to see you do a better job.. and if you can't stop complaining because the man is a genius
Brazil 2 Germany 0
fuck germany
and netherlands
brazil vs argentina final
Germany 4 brasil 0 my tipp
Good luck ive already put 150 dollars on brazil. I highly doubt germany are going to win. Brazil> germany