I don't normally post here, but I could use some advice.
! I have this close friend and as of late I have been both concerned as well as very annoyed with her. For many months, my friend, who I'll call Youko (her favorite character from YYH) has been suffering from emotional issues as well as jealousy of me and our friends. She's the head captain of our reenactment group we're in. Last year, Youko was dumped by her ex-girlfriend and it was a pretty ugly break-up. She didn't take it very well, suffered from traumatic anorexia and severe depression. On top of all that, she even lost one of her cats named Pixie because she got into something toxic that her ex carelessly left behind after she moved out of the apartment. As a result, Pixie had to be put to sleep and I think this is what really triggered her anger. Although this shit happened nearly a year ago, I feel Youko has become very bitter considering the fact that whenever someone brings up something going on in their current relationships, she gets very annoyed and sarcastic. She is extremely jealous of me, our mutual friends as well as several others considering that a lot of us are in romantic relationships and due to the fact that she's still single.
! Any chance someone brings up something new happening with their boyfriend or girlfriend, she takes it as a personal attack and will go off on them. In fact one time back in July, she went APE SHIT on me when I mentioned having a song playing at my wedding someday. What happened is we were working in her parents' basement, she had music her playing and the song "Can You Feel the Love Tonight" from Lion King came on. I told her that I wanted to play that when my boyfriend and I get married, but then she threw a HUGE bitch fit to everybody, saying that I "insulted her relationship-wise." Maybe I should have been a bit more considerate of her feelings since she was still grieving over the break-up at the time, but the way she overreacted was uncalled for. She kept apologizing yet still kept making excuses for her behavior, blaming it on her PTSD as well as other personal issues she has. Because of the drama, I nearly left the reenactment group. As a result, it spoiled the song because it now reminds me of that day when we became a little more distant. Now 8 months later, she's still resentful towards love relationships, yet claims to be happy for me and our friends. I get mixed feelings about that statement. Don't get me wrong, besides this she's a very good person and she has been helpful with my success, but I don't know what I should do or how to deal with somebody with serious insecurity issues. I suppose praising her a bit would help, but I'm afraid she would think I'm bullshitting. I'm trying to save this friendship, but yet, I'm worried that her inner anger and bitterness will consume her. Plus, I don't know how much of her moodiness I can take since I have my own personal life drama to deal with.
! In all honesty, I don't have a whole lot of close friends which is why I'm trying so hard to keep this going. But at the same time, her emotional baggage has been annoying me. I have been patient with her for the longest time, trying to understand her, but it's really wearing thin with all her occasional pity parties. I don't know if I'm just an impatient person or that there's a side of Youko that I'm starting to notice. I feel it is stupid to be walking on eggshells, being told what to say and what not to say around her. About a month ago, she finally addressed that issue but I don't know if she was at all sincere about it. For example, I notice she still scoffs when I tell her about staying a my boyfriend's house for a weekend while still attending her sewing circles and group practices. Sorry if I seem to be flip-flopping on how I feel about her, but I'm really confused right now. I don't know where else to turn to, because I worry people will tell me to just quit the reenactment group if she's really bugging me that much. The thing is, I can't quit, even if I wanted to (unless there's a life-or-death situation, which I doubt there will be). I have too many obligations and quitting will just cripple the group since I am one of the best and quickest workers there, plus it will greatly damage my friendship with Youko. I am really hoping that all this emotional bullshit will end soon and she will grow up so that she can feel more like a real friend to me. I'm putting off a lot of things and make a lot of sacrifices for her and the rest of the group and I really don't want it to be in vain, because it almost seems to happen whenever I go out of my way for somebody.
! Sorry if this looks messy, I'm doing this at nearly 1 in the morning.