So I just had a football game on Friday.
And we were playing against a high school that some of my former friends from middle school went to….
so I met some of them, waived high, etc. But there was this one kid, that used to be a little overweight in middle school, but now, lost a lot of it.
That's great and all, but.... why... why couldn't it be me!?!
Ever since fucking 4th grade I've been wanting to lose weight, but I've really only focused on it since 7-8th grade. here I am, in 10th grade, still looking the exact same. My parents are like "exercise, exercise more!", which I've was doing but I didn't lose anything at all.
I'm pissed because before the school year started, I was exercising and going to the gym all summer, and I started making some relatively noticeable gains (to an extent). But ever since football practice, they've actually decreased a little bit, and now I'm at a weird stage where I have some muscle in some areas and flab in others. Some clothes me look slim, make me look a little bit chubby.
At the game, apparently my mom met one of my other friends (one of my best friends, actually. I didnt' see him tho), and he lost weight as well. Not that he was even overweight to begin with, but apparently he made gains as well.
Meanwhile I'm still the same. So when we went home, I brought it home a couple of times, and then banged the wall. My mom was like "what's wrong", and I was hoping she would know why I did that....
I just hate how stubborn they are. Like, one day, I decide that I wanna eat and eggs and sausage for breakfast. They say "why don't you want bread?", and I'm like "I don't need to have bread all the time, it's not a law".... and then they proceed to tell me how they go together, and that I should eat it.
And this coming from people who, everyone once in while, randomly say "we have to stop eating bread in the house, y'know?".
When we get ground beef or other meat, they're like "what will you eat it with" I'm like vegetables? But because they might not have money or time to buy the vegetables, they just buy the meat and serve it with potatoes or rice that we already have in the house.