Oh goodness so many fond recollections of terribleness in this forum. A shame I can barely remember the names of the funnier folks that got the ax for their silliness. Probably last funny one I can recall is the guy that got banned for legitimizing the act of telling a kid "he'll rape him". Oh good times.
Confession Session II
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Alright guys this is not the gossip and "free pass to insult other members" thread.
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I got something to confess…. I enjoyed hanging out in this section rather then the manga thread.
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What kind of advice? I've transferred school 2 times once when I was 9 and the second time when I was 12.
So any kind of advice I have might not suit the situation but in general and the somewhat sad truth is you'll make new connection and friends are sadly not the most important thing ever. But dunno maybe I'm just grown to cynical about relationships. In any case be open to new things. Don't ever shut people out that seek to connect with you despite you thinking not being a good fit.But how should I go about it? I'm gonna be freaking sad and lonely, even if people reach out to me.
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But how should I go about it? I'm gonna be freaking sad and lonely, even if people reach out to me.
Just relax and go with the flow. It might be a bit lonely without the former circles you had before, but as long as you keep yourself open to people, you'll find new people to hang out with
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I'm so tired of everything at the moment.
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I've done some things in my life that I don't understand the reasoning behind why I did them.
When I was in 1st or 2nd grade (I forget which) I took a book from the basket underneath the desk of the person sitting in front of me. It was a book we regularly used in class. A few minutes later, I gave her the book and said I saw it on the floor.
When I was in kindergarten or 1st grade (again, I forget which) we had a substitute teacher. I didn't like her for no specific reason, but I told her "I'm glad you're here today." There were a few other instances of me both not liking a person for no apparent reason, and being genuinely nice to people I don't like.
I've held my right hand in the air and yelled out "SOGGY TOAST IN THE MORNING". I've grabbed my hand with my neck, went down to my chest with it, then turned around and slapped my rear while saying "Trevor". One day in P.E. class my freshman year of high school, I just started singing "Sittin' on that train, doing his thing, cutting himself with a neeeedle". My brain just made those things up on the spot.
During my junior year of high school, I went up to someone and asked "Can I punch you?" She said no, so I said "Ok. Have a nice day!" (I had no intention of actually punching her)
In middle school, I daydreamed about using mind control to make one of the workers of the school (he wasn't a teacher; I don't know exactly what his job was) take a specific kid and make out with him in a trash can in the cafeteria. Metal music gives me daydreams about black people eating stainless steel, gnawing through it like a rabbit eating carrots. I also have daydreams sometimes about two men with thick, long red beards on top of the roof of a house rolling around with each other and beating on each others' chests. I've had a daydream about my dad entering my stomach and destroying feces with "the power of love".
Sometimes I crawl on all fours. Sometimes I make pig noises. I used to bark like a dog occasionally.
I don't do these things for attention, because I've done odd things like this while alone too. The oddest things happen when I'm alone, actually, because I don't have to worry about people's reactions. I seriously have no clue why I do and think of things like this. It kind of scares me sometimes.
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@Medical:
I've done some things in my life that I don't understand the reasoning behind why I did them.
When I was in 1st or 2nd grade (I forget which) I took a book from the basket underneath the desk of the person sitting in front of me. It was a book we regularly used in class. A few minutes later, I gave her the book and said I saw it on the floor.
When I was in kindergarten or 1st grade (again, I forget which) we had a substitute teacher. I didn't like her for no specific reason, but I told her "I'm glad you're here today." There were a few other instances of me both not liking a person for no apparent reason, and being genuinely nice to people I don't like.
I've held my right hand in the air and yelled out "SOGGY TOAST IN THE MORNING". I've grabbed my hand with my neck, went down to my chest with it, then turned around and slapped my rear while saying "Trevor". One day in P.E. class my freshman year of high school, I just started singing "Sittin' on that train, doing his thing, cutting himself with a neeeedle". My brain just made those things up on the spot.
During my junior year of high school, I went up to someone and asked "Can I punch you?" She said no, so I said "Ok. Have a nice day!" (I had no intention of actually punching her)
In middle school, I daydreamed about using mind control to make one of the workers of the school (he wasn't a teacher; I don't know exactly what his job was) take a specific kid and make out with him in a trash can in the cafeteria. Metal music gives me daydreams about black people eating stainless steel, gnawing through it like a rabbit eating carrots. I also have daydreams sometimes about two men with thick, long red beards on top of the roof of a house rolling around with each other and beating on each others' chests. I've had a daydream about my dad entering my stomach and destroying feces with "the power of love".
Sometimes I crawl on all fours. Sometimes I make pig noises. I used to bark like a dog occasionally.
I don't do these things for attention, because I've done odd things like this while alone too. The oddest things happen when I'm alone, actually, because I don't have to worry about people's reactions. I seriously have no clue why I do and think of things like this. It kind of scares me sometimes.
And I thought I was the only one doing dumb shit. I do things like that all the time too dude.
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@Purple:
Just relax and go with the flow. It might be a bit lonely without the former circles you had before, but as long as you keep yourself open to people, you'll find new people to hang out with
That's the thing though, I've had problems dealing with how I don't want people to hang out with.
I only feel comfortable with a small pool friends and my brother, outside of that, I don't want contact with others. But its only been this way for the past 2 years.
Also, my brother is gonna be in college on the 23rd, and school starts for me on the 26th. so I'm gonna feel a little more lonely now.
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As has been emphasized before, you don't need a large pool of friends, so that's fine, but that also doesn't eliminate the opportunity to form a new circle of friends at your new school.
And yeah, people move onto different parts of their life whenever big changes like transfers or college happen, but my experience has always been that as long as you keep a relatively open view, you'll always find people to satisfy any potential vacancies.
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Once again, I feel this strange sensation that I don't want to be a girl. But it's not like I feel bad inside my body. I feel bad inside the role my body helplessly "drags" in itself. Even if I know deep inside, that I'd be the same person with the same problems in a male body.
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Once again, I feel this strange sensation that I don't want to be a girl. But it's not like I feel bad inside my body. I feel bad inside the role my body helplessly "drags" in itself. Even if I know deep inside, that I'd be the same person with the same problems in a male body.
That's the problem with gender roles. People treat them as a one size fits all identification tool. People see a female body and they automatically shine you in a certain light or role. Same for a male body. We can't help but be perceived in that certain light until we say something or act contrarily, but even then that might not make much of a difference. The association will always just be there. I'm guilty of it, for sure, but I try to keep myself from falling into that pitfall of constantly thinking in terms of "societal norms".
Now, I don't believe that type of thinking is a bad thing as more of an…ignorant thing(?) and ignorance is not necessarily bad as it is a normal occupational hazard of living. Men and women are ignorant of a lot things. We can't help it, we can't know everything but we try to learn. I want to make it clear that the somewhat innocent "natural" ignorance, or lack of knowledge, is different from purposeful or learned ignorance. Unfortunately, gender roles is a kind of learned ignorance that gets stamped into our heads and personalities very early on and the lessons continue forever and ever afterwards. Gender roles is best defined as a social construct and if we decide to only take the superficial details of that social construct and refuse to burrow any further to realize the variations on the matter then it's our own fault if we are clueless when people don't fit into what we think is "normal". I don't want you to feel your body has to play a certain role just because society thinks gender roles should be the "normal".
Just because you feel your body is helplessly viewed in a certain role doesn't mean you have to fit that role. You might not have control over how one perceives you but you do have control over how you perceive yourself, and if you have control over that then you control what role you "drag" your body to fit. Don't let other people's ignorance make you feel you have to fit a certain role and especially don't join them in their ignorance and feel like your body is helpless to fit a certain role.
I hope that wasn't convoluted…
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Once again, I feel this strange sensation that I don't want to be a girl. But it's not like I feel bad inside my body. I feel bad inside the role my body helplessly "drags" in itself. Even if I know deep inside, that I'd be the same person with the same problems in a male body.
Gender roles is an antique thing that we have from the time we had the thought "Hey, my neighbor's baby looks delicious. I should eat it" and we needed to supress it. Nowadays it really doesn't apply and we (as a society, as family and even as an individual) must rethink it. I'm pretty sure you don't think about eating your neighbor´s baby Nolus so you shouldn't feel pressured by the defined gender role that society has. Every individual must function as they see fit or how they like it, not the one society forces you to.
But also, i don't think i'm like an experienced voice in this. I'm pretty sure there are more capable members in AP (or real life :B ) to help you but if you need a E-hug just tell me in my profile :3
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I'm just twiddling my thumbs until Noqanky busts out another post out
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Gender roles is an antique thing that we have from the time we had the thought "Hey, my neighbor's baby looks delicious. I should eat it" and we needed to supress it. Nowadays it really doesn't apply and we (as a society, as family and even as an individual) must rethink it. I'm pretty sure you don't think about eating your neighbor´s baby Nolus so you shouldn't feel pressured by the defined gender role that society has. Every individual must function as they see fit or how they like it, not the one society forces you to.
…what does eating babies have anything to do with gender?
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@Purple:
I'm just twiddling my thumbs until Noqanky busts out another post out
Haha, I actually came in ready to chop down gender roles a couple hours ago.
but like it happens many times, Outerspec totally beat me to the punch. I think he got things down fairly well, and even went all epistemological and shit. I don't wanna follow that.
But yea, social norms suck sometimes, and it just sucks having to deal with them. I personally don't know how I would be able to even be myself without the internet, because there's just no way I'm close to being myself when outside in "society" and it's hard to break that barrier.
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It's easy to say that you shouldn't just assume that societal norms are the truth. What's much more difficult is putting a genuinely open minded perspective into practice on a daily basis. No matter who you are or how you were raised, I'm convinced that everyone suffers from the social bias virus to some degree. The trouble with commonly accepted roles and norms is that we all subscribe to them (at least a little) while being simultaneously unaware of how or why we exhibit those collective behaviors or beliefs.
I'm convinced that the only way to actually break the cycle is to surround yourself with others who are willing to learn and exchange their own differing perspectives. In time, your own position will begin to shift, even if you're not conscious of it or actively trying to change it.
You'll figure everything out in due time, Nolus. Outerspec's advice is spectacular as usual!
edit: I didn't have much of a father figure to look up to when I was growing up. Now, as I'm getting older, I'm realizing just how many of those stupid social norms about fathers/husbands I absorbed. Funny thing is, I don't "agree" with them, but they're like the natural way that I think sometimes. It can make me quite judgmental of others, and especially of myself. Rewiring your brain is a long and painful process, but is made much easier when you have understanding friends and family to rely on when you're feeling down.
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Screw social norms, I identify as a plant.
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Screw social norms, I identify as a plant.
Weak against five different types, unless you know some rock-type move.
Yeah, semester ended and kinda miss College already. Really afraid when I graduate by the way.
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Does Rock'n Roll count?
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@Purple:
As has been emphasized before, you don't need a large pool of friends, so that's fine, but that also doesn't eliminate the opportunity to form a new circle of friends at your new school.
And yeah, people move onto different parts of their life whenever big changes like transfers or college happen, but my experience has always been that as long as you keep a relatively open view, you'll always find people to satisfy any potential vacancies.
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But I feel predisposed and too shy to actually make friends or talk to people. It's not that I'm worried about whether or not I will make friends; it's whether or not I even want to.
Heck, I'm changing my eating habits now, something I've envisioned for a while, yet I feel nervous about doing that, and I don't understand. (This isn't that big a deal though.)
I just feel a lot more anxiety than usual because the year starts tomorrow. And I don't know what to do. I massively fucked up freshman year despite relatively high expectations, so now I'm stuck in a public school.
I should just shut up and stop complaining and adopt a " I don't give a fu*k " attitude, right? I feel like it's easier said than done.
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Stuff.
Whatever happened to just…"be yourself"?
Seems simple and straightforward to me.If you don't want friends, fine, don't make friends. If you want friends, great, go find people that share interests. I don't see why this is so complicated. This isn't some big mystery that requires reinventing yourself (heck and even that lasts only for a short while before you go back to your standard condition).
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But I feel predisposed and too shy to actually make friends or talk to people. It's not that I'm worried about whether or not I will make friends; it's whether or not I even want to.
Heck, I'm changing my eating habits now, something I've envisioned for a while, yet I feel nervous about doing that, and I don't understand. (This isn't that big a deal though.)
I just feel a lot more anxiety than usual because the year starts tomorrow. And I don't know what to do. I massively fucked up freshman year despite relatively high expectations, so now I'm stuck in a public school.
I should just shut up and stop complaining and adopt a " I don't give a fu*k " attitude, right? I feel like it's easier said than done.
Ah, high school. So fucking complicated; at least it's not middle school.
I assume this is your first time ever going to a public school, yes? Now, I've never gone to a private school (unless you count college, as I went to a private college and not a state university), but I can say that people are people, students are students. Public school culture is probably a little more lax than private, the student backgrounds more varied. You're going to find a bigger melting pot of ethnicities, religions, and social class. I would hope that's a good thing.
As for WANTING to make friends, I'm not sure what to tell you. Is it because you feel like you don't need to expand your current circle?
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Whatever happened to just…"be yourself"?
Seems simple and straightforward to me.If you don't want friends, fine, don't make friends. If you want friends, great, go find people that share interests. I don't see why this is so complicated. This isn't some big mystery that requires reinventing yourself (heck and even that lasts only for a short while before you go back to your standard condition).
It's not even that I don't want friends; It feels like I don't want frequent contact with people (my age), period.
Ah, high school. So fucking complicated; at least it's not middle school.
I assume this is your first time ever going to a public school, yes? Now, I've never gone to a private school (unless you count college, as I went to a private college and not a state university), but I can say that people are people, students are students. Public school culture is probably a little more lax than private, the student backgrounds more varied. You're going to find a bigger melting pot of ethnicities, religions, and social class. I would hope that's a good thing.
As for WANTING to make friends, I'm not sure what to tell you. Is it because you feel like you don't need to expand your current circle?
I don't even have a circle anymore.
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Forgive me for seeming forward, but this is starting to feel like symptoms of Aspbergers.
Or just being a general introvert. As a fellow introvert who prefers quiet alone time with a select group of friends to hang out with when I do need social contact, I understand those feelings.
But if these are symptoms of Aspbergers, it might be time to start talking to a counselor/therapist.
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Internet diagnoses are best diagnoses. Seriously stop diagnosing stuff.
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I think that pretty much everyone could benefit from speaking to a counselor/therapist at some point in their lives. I don't think that Satsuki's advice is messed up in the slightest, even if there is some kind of web diagnosis tied to it.
Of course, you can't diagnose someone from just reading some internet forum posts, but Shinigami's reaching out for help, here, so why criticize?
edit: I went to public school, and definitely was one of those kids who had trouble making lots of friends. It didn't take me long, though, to find a close knit group of people that I really enjoyed being around and talking with. Just keep an open mind, Shinigami. I know you're feeling pretty bummed out about your school transfer, but people experience setbacks all the time. Don't beat yourself up too much, you'll definitely find people you like and who like you in return as long as you don't spend all of your time just sticking your head in the ground.
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No one's treating this like WebMD, Cutty.
A diagnosis is a conclusive identification of a disease, condition, or problem. Satsuki did not diagnose Shinigami with anything. Satsuki stated Shinigami could be exhibiting "symptoms" of Aspbergers and he might want to get checked out so he could receive a diagnosis to prove whether this was right or wrong. What harm is that in there? On top of that seeing a therapist, which I believe Shinigami already does or has, is a great way to reach out for other answers on what the problems he's facing might be, so it's not just a one-way stop of, "Hey, do I have Aspbergers?" and then leave. Satsuki also said he could just be a regular ol' introvert like many of us here who only choose to hang out with select friends, but most likely like to keep to ourselves. You see, these are possibilities. Not read a post "Yep, you have Aspbergers."
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As a fellow introvert who prefers quiet alone time with a select group of friends to hang out with when I do need social contact, I understand those feelings.
Same here.
A group of 5 for me as of now, 3 of them from school. -
Just had first day of school (Aug 26th, cause the school sucks like that).
Never have I felt so uncomfortable in a social setting. And I don't know why even. When I switched schools for a month in 8th grade, it wasn't this bad - I could at least imagine myself getting used to things and having friends.
But with this switch, it feels like hell. I can't even imagine myself like this for another 179 days.
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I'm so sorry.
At this point I think you should speak to a counselor/therapist. They can probably help you get better insight to what the root of the problem is than we can, although as you well know we are always willing to listen.
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I guess it's one of those things where I'm vulnerable when it comes to change in social environments, I guess. I don't know.
And thanks all of you for support. Even if it doesn't help all that time (it actually has though), it feels better to let it out. Again, thanks for the help.
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Anxiety to change in social environments isn't an odd thing at all. It's just how you ride it out.
But if you are having that hard a time then I think you really should go talk to a counselor/therapist. Heck, even the school counselor. I'm sure they have one.
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I guess it's one of those things where I'm vulnerable when it comes to change in social environments, I guess. I don't know.
And thanks all of you for support. Even if it doesn't help all that time (it actually has though), it feels better to let it out. Again, thanks for the help.
I had to change schools in the middle of what would be High School in USA. I loved my old friends so much and didn't want to do it but my parents made me. The first day i was terrified of everyone in there. They all look older and experienced and shit. I sat on the corner of the classroom hoping that no one would notice me. Then i had to change classrooms and didn't know where to went so i gathered all my courage and talked to a guy to ask him where the classroom was. He didn't know. But then i told him "Hey, my name is Rodrigo" and he told me "Hey, i'm XXX". And we shook hands. At the end of the day i thought "Hey, i know someone. That is something".
So, don't worry. Sometimes is step by step. Make one little step everyday and do it the way you find it doable. Also, listen to everyone else advice here. There is some great stuff here.
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I was one of the people who went to school to learn and study and not to make friends, because, you know, I was that sort of introvert as a kid. Pretty snobby too, I definitely became less stick-up-my-ass as I grew up.
So basically, I'd arrive early each day, set up in my seat in front of class and just focus on work and crap. And even then, without really going all out, eventually there were people who'd talk to me or ask me to join their group during lunch and stuff. Thing is, even if you're not the type to go out there and befriend people, there are people who are like that.
Meanwhile, from the teacher side, I saw a good share of students who'd just be quiet and not want to socialize and stuff, but even then just from sitting in a specific place they got comfortable interacting with people around them and even the ones who seemed to really dislike the school wound up staying around to talk and then in clubs and staying afterschool for activities. Even the really lonely/weird kids with adjustment issues and weird quirks wound up finding a comfortable place to be an people to interact with, especially once you make them all feel connected as a class and promote interaction and constant use of names.
Great, now I miss my kids.
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I'm kind of a mess right now. I had suicidal thoughts yesterday and I still feel exhausted and somewhat depressed. Even amongst my friends, I feel alienated and alone. I don't like this feeling one bit. Even talking feels like a chore, but I have to do it because being completely alone just makes things worse.I'm really damned tired but I'm through most of it, so I'm going to go ahead, kick depression in the nutsina (nuts+vagina because it's not necessarily a boy or a girl) and leave it there. I'll send it a postcard saying "Too busy smiling, no have time for ya!~"
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For me it was more the other way around. When I used to go to school/uni I had a lot of people surrounding me all the time, I really enjoyed the parties and the attention. As time passed I realized that “friends“ had different definition of friendship then me. So step by step my circle became smaller and well I am ok with having a really small circle right now.
On a side note: I can't access this thread from my pc any more. It gives me the message: “you have been removed from this discussion“. Can someone explain me why?
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As people are beginning to returning back to school for the fall, it almost makes me miss that back to school feeling. Back to a schedule with more structure, a more normal sleep cycle (for me being in bed no later than 10:30-11:00PM and waking up around 5AM), and just being away from home, even if it wasn't a place I felt most comfortable in; at least it was something productive. Then again, applying for a job would probably help, and I'd like to go back for the spring semester hungry for knowledge. But still, school has a nostalgic charm to it, even if it's not always fun.
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I'm really damned tired but I'm through most of it, so I'm going to go ahead, kick depression in the nutsina (nuts+vagina because it's not necessarily a boy or a girl) and leave it there. I'll send it a postcard saying "Too busy smiling, no have time for ya!~"
Good for you! I'm glad to see the turn-around.
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2nd day today. It went a little better than the last, but I still have thoughts about returning to the former high school, even though I won't be able to join any clubs or even do any intramural. (academic probation)
It all sucks.
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I just swiped up on a paper
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@Purple:
Did it scroll up?
It stayed still, mocking me. Now I'll never know when my bill is due. OH WELL~
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I just swiped up on a paper
Don't feel bad, I've done this a few times and each time I feel more and more mortified that I keep doing this.
Well after a 5 year break I didn't necessarily want to take for that long but things being the way they were and taking some time to grow as a person (ie not be so much of a know-it-all better-than-thou shitbag I was growing up) I'm back in school.
This feels weird. I am used to being the youngest in groups (because the majority of my friends are approaching if not at 30), but being surrounded by a bunch of 18 year olds is very, very… weird.
Today was the first bio lab day and really the first opportunity I've had to really converse with classmates so far. Pretty much all of my classes (well I haven't attended my psychology class yet, thats tomorrow night) are assigning us groups for projects and we also have to meet independently outside of class. No idea how that is going to work when work insists on scheduling me pretty much every free second of the day I'm not at school :'D
I was thinking since it's been almost 4 & 1/2 years since I took any college classes, that I was probably going to be really behind and lost and would have to catch up on things that would've been extremely fresh on my mind had I just gotten out of high school (which I'm sure will be true of some things).
Basically our lab intro was measuring in metric units. I do this everyday in my job, this was literally drilled into my skull from 4th grade on, not difficult concepts. I was the only one who could answer the professors questions. Most of them had no idea what mean/medium/mode was, names of lab equipment (which we never ever did any labs in high school, last time I did proper labs was in middle school and that's been almost 10 years ago!), metric conversions... we had to measure each other with yard sticks/measuring tape in centimeters (literally this lesson was the kind of dumbed down stuff I learned in 4th grade) and a good majority of these kids couldn't even tell inches from centimeters and some measured each other in inches even though we were instructed specifically not to do that, because they couldn't wrap their minds around turning the measuring tape around and reading the centimeters. Literally I had to help this girl realize she was not 60 fucking centimeters tall....
I literally had an almost non-existent education in high school, we spent more time watching unrelated movies than actual course work (only the AP classes I took were worth anything)... And somehow it's managed to get even worse OTL 'Murica, man...
I am shit at science and math so this is really embarrassing. At least none of these people are in my bio lecture, I can only imagine the stupid questions... So far it looks like this entire course is going to be extremely basic. Kinda disappointed because I picked the more advanced course.. I guess I guessed right in thinking I would die of boredom in the regular class because I hate biology :'D I want to challenge myself to become good/knowledgeable in the things I really hate, though.
I should be sleeping, I have to work a 9 hour shift before I get off an hour before I have to be at my psychology class =__= May it not be one of those random Thursdays where it's busier than the rest of the week combined...
Still working on getting out of CVS. I got into a sterile compounding class!!! The physical lab class is in a month :'D and I have an entire textbook to read before then in addition to my regular classwork and except for the fact I'm not gonna work wednesdays during school because it's my longer day, work is not giving me much breathing room.
I'm so tempted to just quit, but I have not yet gotten over the fact that I got my credit back up to where it's good again after it heavily tanked and I don't want to screw that up by stopping payments on shit while I don't have a job... I really needed a new laptop since mine was ruined in the house flooding but I have to use my school money to pay my credit card down to where I can afford it comfortably while on reduced hours... Don't wrack up credit cards, kids. Nothing is worth it, ever. Ultimately therapy would've been cheaper than the debt I wracked up buying things when I get depressed :'D and and I'm always depressed.
Work is just getting really bad. Shit is going to hit the fan and get everywhere because the DEA finally ruled to change ALL products that contain hydrocodone to C-IIs, which are the most heavily regulated prescription drugs (stuff like Adderall, Ritalin, Concerta, Vyvanse, and then morphine, dilaudid, percocet, oxycodone, etc ADHD and pain meds) that at least in Texas require a special prescription pad to be written on, they CANNOT be called in or faxed, and cannot have refills and expire 21 days from the written date or earliest fill date if the doctor provides one different than the original fill date.
I say all this because it's hard to describe just how many scripts we get called or faxed in for hydrocodone shit everyday, how many people just walk into urgent care clinics and get a norco script just because they ask... It is not going to be pretty when we tell people they can't have their doctor call in new prescriptions after October 6th for vicodin or norco... It's going to be chaos. I'm sure most doctors will not inform their patients of this until after the fact (I've only talked to one person who's doctor has actually informed them of the change). I am about to lose my shit over the entitled and rude customers lately, I have a feeling this is what could push me over the edge.
I've never ever imaginedthat I would just walk out of a job and quit but I have a strong feeling this might be the job I just do that. I cannot tolerate the bullshit and entitled attitudes. These are people older than my parents or are my grandpa's age, people who shouldn't be acting like fucking children when they don't get their way. I'm not the type to just sit there and take crap, it's literally destroying my sanity and eating away at me to stay silent. I would switch jobs in a heartbeat but I am worried if I take another job now and then try to get a hospital job once I complete my sterile compounding certification course it's gonna look bad. I do not know what to say when interviewers ask me why I want to leave this job because you're not supposed to be negative, but literally my boss is a giant flaming asshole who does illegal shit to get people to shut up, we are hella under-staffed and have an obnoxiously high level of abusive customers unlike any other pharmacy I've ever worked in and I want out of this mess.
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Don't feel bad, I've done this a few times and each time I feel more and more mortified that I keep doing this.
Well after a 5 year break I didn't necessarily want to take for that long but things being the way they were and taking some time to grow as a person (ie not be so much of a know-it-all better-than-thou shitbag I was growing up) I'm back in school.
This feels weird. I am used to being the youngest in groups (because the majority of my friends are approaching if not at 30), but being surrounded by a bunch of 18 year olds is very, very… weird.
Today was the first bio lab day and really the first opportunity I've had to really converse with classmates so far. Pretty much all of my classes (well I haven't attended my psychology class yet, thats tomorrow night) are assigning us groups for projects and we also have to meet independently outside of class. No idea how that is going to work when work insists on scheduling me pretty much every free second of the day I'm not at school :'D
I was thinking since it's been almost 4 & 1/2 years since I took any college classes, that I was probably going to be really behind and lost and would have to catch up on things that would've been extremely fresh on my mind had I just gotten out of high school (which I'm sure will be true of some things).
Basically our lab intro was measuring in metric units. I do this everyday in my job, this was literally drilled into my skull from 4th grade on, not difficult concepts. I was the only one who could answer the professors questions. Most of them had no idea what mean/medium/mode was, names of lab equipment (which we never ever did any labs in high school, last time I did proper labs was in middle school and that's been almost 10 years ago!), metric conversions... we had to measure each other with yard sticks/measuring tape in centimeters (literally this lesson was the kind of dumbed down stuff I learned in 4th grade) and a good majority of these kids couldn't even tell inches from centimeters and some measured each other in inches even though we were instructed specifically not to do that, because they couldn't wrap their minds around turning the measuring tape around and reading the centimeters. Literally I had to help this girl realize she was not 60 fucking centimeters tall....
I literally had an almost non-existent education in high school, we spent more time watching unrelated movies than actual course work (only the AP classes I took were worth anything)... And somehow it's managed to get even worse OTL 'Murica, man...
I am shit at science and math so this is really embarrassing. At least none of these people are in my bio lecture, I can only imagine the stupid questions... So far it looks like this entire course is going to be extremely basic. Kinda disappointed because I picked the more advanced course.. I guess I guessed right in thinking I would die of boredom in the regular class because I hate biology :'D I want to challenge myself to become good/knowledgeable in the things I really hate, though.
I should be sleeping, I have to work a 9 hour shift before I get off an hour before I have to be at my psychology class =__= May it not be one of those random Thursdays where it's busier than the rest of the week combined...
Still working on getting out of CVS. I got into a sterile compounding class!!! The physical lab class is in a month :'D and I have an entire textbook to read before then in addition to my regular classwork and except for the fact I'm not gonna work wednesdays during school because it's my longer day, work is not giving me much breathing room.
I'm so tempted to just quit, but I have not yet gotten over the fact that I got my credit back up to where it's good again after it heavily tanked and I don't want to screw that up by stopping payments on shit while I don't have a job... I really needed a new laptop since mine was ruined in the house flooding but I have to use my school money to pay my credit card down to where I can afford it comfortably while on reduced hours... Don't wrack up credit cards, kids. Nothing is worth it, ever. Ultimately therapy would've been cheaper than the debt I wracked up buying things when I get depressed :'D and and I'm always depressed.
Work is just getting really bad. Shit is going to hit the fan and get everywhere because the DEA finally ruled to change ALL products that contain hydrocodone to C-IIs, which are the most heavily regulated prescription drugs (stuff like Adderall, Ritalin, Concerta, Vyvanse, and then morphine, dilaudid, percocet, oxycodone, etc ADHD and pain meds) that at least in Texas require a special prescription pad to be written on, they CANNOT be called in or faxed, and cannot have refills and expire 21 days from the written date or earliest fill date if the doctor provides one different than the original fill date.
I say all this because it's hard to describe just how many scripts we get called or faxed in for hydrocodone shit everyday, how many people just walk into urgent care clinics and get a norco script just because they ask... It is not going to be pretty when we tell people they can't have their doctor call in new prescriptions after October 6th for vicodin or norco... It's going to be chaos. I'm sure most doctors will not inform their patients of this until after the fact (I've only talked to one person who's doctor has actually informed them of the change). I am about to lose my shit over the entitled and rude customers lately, I have a feeling this is what could push me over the edge.
I've never ever imaginedthat I would just walk out of a job and quit but I have a strong feeling this might be the job I just do that. I cannot tolerate the bullshit and entitled attitudes. These are people older than my parents or are my grandpa's age, people who shouldn't be acting like fucking children when they don't get their way. I'm not the type to just sit there and take crap, it's literally destroying my sanity and eating away at me to stay silent. I would switch jobs in a heartbeat but I am worried if I take another job now and then try to get a hospital job once I complete my sterile compounding certification course it's gonna look bad. I do not know what to say when interviewers ask me why I want to leave this job because you're not supposed to be negative, but literally my boss is a giant flaming asshole who does illegal shit to get people to shut up, we are hella under-staffed and have an obnoxiously high level of abusive customers unlike any other pharmacy I've ever worked in and I want out of this mess.
Put a spin on it. Tell the interviewer that one of your greatest strengths is moving towards one objective and that you can't grow in the current enviroment you're at.. "I find that my current work situation isn't ideal not because the elements around me but the future i envision for me. I want to develop towards my goal but i don't see myself achieving it in the way i want it and in the time i want it in my current job. I want to better myself and even if i regret leaving my old job behind i know this job will help me grow and i can grow with it toward a better tomorrow".
Or something like that? Whenever i have a difficult situation at work or a pesky one i put a spin on it. Look at it from differente points of view or explanations. Pick the best one and roll with it. Maybe that can work.
Also i'm happy that you are back in school :3
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I have three confessions, the first two are One Piece related, I'm all timey whimey when it comes to reading the current manga, part one manga and watching the episodes dubbed. I have the intentions of catching up and my other One Piece related confessions is that I want to like Law as a character because he does have his moments where I like him and I'm hoping that his past will make me like get him because I know that he's a important character at the moment and popular, I've even developed shipping opinions about him.
On a personal note, I am feeling optimistic that for the moment that my paternal grandmother is going to be alright with her gallbladder problem .It just might be cancer and when it comes down to it I accept my grandmother's acceptance of her possible death . -
I think maybe some people here would benefit from this video. Well, i mean, i think it's pretty good.
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Oh gods. Why was I banned for trolling on my alternate history website? What trolling did I do even? I don't know what I did and why, but apparently I've been kicked out and left in the dark. I've tried to contact the administrator, and asked him what the hell was going on. I hope I get a response soon…
My internet keeps shrinking. :sad:
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Oh gods. Why was I banned for trolling on my alternate history website? What trolling did I do even? I don't know what I did and why, but apparently I've been kicked out and left in the dark. I've tried to contact the administrator, and asked him what the hell was going on. I hope I get a response soon…
My internet keeps shrinking. :sad:
I'm sorry to hear that, I think it's a courtesy to tell someone why they were banned if you're asking why exactly. But, did you get warning before hand? and what did you do exactly without breaking the rules here?. What could you've done that would have been considered trolling ?,