Break-ups suck. And they suck even more when it's with someone you were with for 7 years (and even talked about marriage), and they left you for another person, after cheating on you.
I take some solace in knowing that I did all I could to help repair the relationship (and the fact that she didn't put in as much effort should've been a sign that it wasn't going to work out). Kinda sucks some more because I wasn't clued in on problems until they were too late (this was before the cheating). She was understandably afraid to bring them up when they occurred, but she went with the philosophy of "do nothing, and wait and hope things work out in the end", which never, ever works. If I didn't know there were problems, then there was no way I could've known things weren't okay.
Every single day I would text and send her messages, and now that I have to drop that cold turkey is incredibly hard, and it feels terribly lonely. It's like one of my limbs was violently hacked off, and I have to re-learn how to go through each day with this loss and work around it.
She still cares a lot about me, and wanted to remain friends, but given the circumstances, that's way out of the question for now, and impossible to ask for. There's no way I could be friends with someone who cheated on me, left me for another guy, and then wants me to be friends.
Thankfully, I've had wonderful friends who have been incredibly supportive and empathetic, and have given me some solid advice. Still, it's just hard to move on with life for a bit. I need to grieve about it. As well as process other emotions. Especially anger. This situation has left me so pissed and kinda bitter. I don't think I can forgive her just yet, but I don't want to be an angry and bitter person for the rest of my life.
I don't want to be mopey forever, but sometimes laying in bed all day sounds just fine.