@DarkFalcon:
<hug>I know how you feel in school, I had it about the same.
! I felt so alienated that I actually broke in tears few times (I was hiding in bathroom, so no one would see me).
Problem is no one knows how to handle depressed person, so they won't approach in fear they may worsen the things. Probably you also haven't bonded with them much enough for them to fully share whatever makes you depressed, so they really don't want to know and they may be afraid of honest answer. And maybe they don't want to show fake care. In short, they maybe would like to embrace you and pat you on the back, and tell you that you matter for them, but not necessarily know in depth about you problems, you also are not ready for that level of interaction, since you stated you wouldn't tell them about you problems, so don't blame them. They just don't know how to act when you are sad. There is nothing wrong with either of you, thats just interaction of humans on certain level of familiarity work.
I had different situation in home, though, my parents are very caring. It didn't make such a big difference, since I was hiding away my problems from them as much as possible, especially from my mom, as her health is… not the best, and I didn't want to worry her.
It was only when I started studies at university things changed for the better fo me, new people I've met, new situations helped me reform my view of myself and my problems.</hug>
That actually makes sense. It made me think… it's probably the case here. Sigh, I'm so harsh sometimes... Dangit, I need to find a way to clear my head in these situations.
Yeah, the biggest problem is that I don't have a stable family. Even my mother wants to leave me saying I'm grown up now I can take care of myself. Maybe this is what makes me completely unable to deal with school/other things properly. Probably... But this is the main reason I want closer friends. This is why I dared to tell that boy I liked him a lot. This is why I imagine people around me. I need someone here.
@MetaMario:
Oh boy…
! That's terrible. Look, you're correct in saying that it's unnatural for friends to be there only in joy. Because it is. Friends are friends, and while they're supposed to laugh with you when you're happy, they're supposed to make you feel better when you're sad/unhappy.
! It's a two-way street!
! I don't want to ask about the prank itself, because that could be a bad move. Maybe…..maybe they're convinced you handle problems better on your own? That you handle negative feelings better alone, and they think you'll shoo them away if they try to help?
! Knowing you, that's the complete opposite of your demeanor. So it's unlikely they have such a wrong preconception. My suggestion is to go to the friend you think is the closest, and try talking about it. If he or she would rather avoid you, maybe you should find some new friends.
I'm a little afraid of this. They're currently the only friends/pals I have and even if I know they might stay that way, I still want to keep this relationship till the end of high-school.
The only one I could ask is the guy whom I confessed I liked a lot. I don't know how to do it though. It's hard to find a time when no one's around. He's also busy with studying, so it's not easy to even look for a book in the city for example.
@MetaMario:
Sounds like she's jumping into a very wrong decision. Have you even met this guy? Do you know what's he like?
And to move away and leave you alone…....gosh, that's horrible.
Nope, she only met him yesterday. They've been chatting but that's it. She even wants to go with him to Wien for a day.
The only thing I know is that her previous boyfriend was a jerk.
@MetaMario:
And I'd miss you if you were gone. :(
:)
You know guys, when I was really down today, I forced myself to think about the good things I have, and I thought of this place. I almost started to cry loudly :) I don't know what I'd do without you guys. This place feels like more of a home than my own room right now.