So you've probably read my "status updates" recently in the Day thread so you know that I kinda fell in love again. But this time, the boy also fell in love with me, so it's the best feeling in the world right now for me.
And with this feeling came thousands of more. For example I started to hate distance and the fact that teleports aren't invented yet.
More seriously, there is another boy (who is, again, younger than me. I see a pattern here). He was the first one to truly notice that something was going on between me and the other boy (for comprehension's sake, BoyA will be the one I'm in love with and BoyB will be the other). So after talking with me, BoyB admitted that he was kinda into me too but was afraid to take the first steps because he saw that I was… how do I say it... fragile. And didn't want to hurt me accidentally or something like that. He's totally cool with us getting together, he doesn't want me to choose him or anything.
I don't know, I just wanted to write this somewhere, because it occupies my thoughts a little bit too much nowadays.
The other thing is a little bit... well I know I have nothing to hide but I'll still put hide tags around it so those who don't want to read it can skip it.
[hide]If everything goes right, he'll come to Budapest for two days in May. I, of course, will be putting him up for the night. This is all nice and dandy. I even said we have a substitute bed and all that so he has a place to sleep. After we left this idea a little bit under-developed, I wanted to make extra sure of each other's intentions so I asked him if our relationship was a romantic one. He said yes.
Some time after that when we talked more about our meeting I realized that we might want/try to have sex when he's here. Naturally we started talking things over (buying condoms etc.). And he even began asking for advice from his best friend.
And now I'm sitting here and thinking how strange this situation feels. You'd probably guessed that I'm a virgin and I've never ever kissed before. He too is in the same situation (no girlfriend/sex before). He says he wants to make sure it'll feel good for me too and that it won't hurt that much. He's so kind and caring~
I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's a very strange feeling I'm having now with all kinds of new emotions.[/hide]