And where is meee? ._.
You are a girl?
Awwww the picture makes me feel so loved now.
You are loved
And where is meee? ._.
You are a girl?
Awwww the picture makes me feel so loved now.
You are loved
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Confession time… I am going through a crisis. An age crisis. You see, I've always thought the perfect age to have kids, would be 25 or 26. 30 at the most. I don't want to be 'an old mother' you see. My mom became one quite early and thus we didn't have that much of an age gap between us. She had me at 25 and I was her third kid! But I noticed that the age gap between her and my lil' sister, is kind of making things more difficult (she had her at 32).
So anyway. It kind of hit me today that I am going to soon be 22 years old and.. well... I have nothing stable. Yeah, I know I am only just graduating from the university but I see other girls around me already engaged and shiz and my brother is getting married at 27 with his gf of what? 5 years? I don't know, I just feel that I am running out of time or something. I knooow it's a silly notion, but still, that's how I feel! In 3 years! I'll be 25 in only 3 years! Less than the years I've studied at the university and those also passed me by so quickly! ><; Meuh... Damn I shouldn't feel so time-trapped or to be setting a certain life program because you never know what life will bring your way, but still... sighs Am I even making sense? Blargh.
Love, I was an "older" mother. I was older than your mom when she had your lil' sis when I started having kids. It has been absolutely wonderful, regardless, or perhaps because. I was ecstatic when I got pregnant the first time because it wasn't supposed to be possible at all–and I had wanted to be a mom since I was old enough to know what babies were. I had excepted that one was going to be my quota, then it happened again over 4 years later--I was even older, still was and continues to be a wonderful, beautiful experience. As with most things, there are pluses and minuses to being older as there would have been with being younger.
Life throws things at us. What we do with that is entirely up to us, and has very little, actually, to do with whatever happened to or for our parents. When we try to fit our lives into some little pattern that seems ideal, that is when we get messed up. Relax. You future is still all your own to do what you need to do--even if it doesn't turn out exactly as you thought or what you had planned. Plan, as much as you can, but (and not to sound cliche) enjoy the adventure as it comes. Oh gosh, this sounds even more cliche, but it's true, so it's worth repeating; when you set your sight always on the past or the future, you miss the present and what it has to offer, which is often considerably more than most people give it credit for. <3
word, buster call done said everything what everyone else was trying to.
Got one of these stress balls. It surprisingly works as I'm imagining squeezing the life out of something that won't die. That and I have a small problem with not being able to concentrate unless I put on a hat(it pull hair and scratch my scalp for no reason when nervous)
Maybe I should get one someday.
@Chrissie: Lol, your situation was just like mine (kind of) the day before yesterday.
If it helps, my mother was 35 when she first had me, and 40 when she had my younger brother, and she was never any less of a person or woman for it.
You're going to be fine. There's no rush. Just go ahead and enjoy life.
And remember, the real challenge in a romance is what happens after the glitter and sweetness of the original passion fades. You just have more time to prepare for it. :devil:
Here's a rather… funny confession.
When I was 16 I went to a diabetes summer camp (yes, there is such a thing), and one of the first things you do when you go there is sign up for 3 areas of recreation that you'd like to do. I figured since I'm missing boy scout camp for this, I ought to do the recreation called "Leader Skills", which I thought meant leader_ship_ skills.
When I got there, I found out it actually meant _cheer_leading skills.
:S
hahahaha that's hilarious.
was it fun, though? :ninja:
word, buster call done said everything what everyone else was trying to.
exactly. stares in Aww at Buster's speech
I must learn to become as good as Buster!
Love confession: I'm struck by Luv; that is hurricane like.
In btw hiii nami… how come you live in beer?
@I:
Love, I was an "older" mother. I was older than your mom when she had your lil' sis when I started having kids. It has been absolutely wonderful, regardless, or perhaps because. I was ecstatic when I got pregnant the first time because it wasn't supposed to be possible at all–and I had wanted to be a mom since I was old enough to know what babies were. I had excepted that one was going to be my quota, then it happened again over 4 years later--I was even older, still was and continues to be a wonderful, beautiful experience. As with most things, there are pluses and minuses to being older as there would have been with being younger.
Life throws things at us. What we do with that is entirely up to us, and has very little, actually, to do with whatever happened to or for our parents. When we try to fit our lives into some little pattern that seems ideal, that is when we get messed up. Relax. You future is still all your own to do what you need to do--even if it doesn't turn out exactly as you thought or what you had planned. Plan, as much as you can, but (and not to sound cliche) enjoy the adventure as it comes. Oh gosh, this sounds even more cliche, but it's true, so it's worth repeating; when you set your sight always on the past or the future, you miss the present and what it has to offer, which is often considerably more than most people give it credit for. <3
I love ya mama :wub: Motherhood is the thing I look the most forward for as well >3< I totally want a boy and I'll name him Paul/Pavlos if I get him :ninja: coughs Anyway~ Thank you Buster. You really know how to calm someone down. I called my mom a few minutes ago btw and when I told her about my worries she laughed her butt off and called me crazy~ XP Oh, I love my mommy
Thankies Cuddles~ That last bit made me chuckle. =P
Rofl Mr. Zoro How was it?
In btw hiii nami… how come you live in beer?
I was born this way.
On another note. You know what's awkward?
Passing by a group of drunken guys with a friend and you hear them say "The left one is hot" and you're actually the right one.
Or if you're alone and walk along and people shoot you with a water pistol and tell you to "fuckin smile".
It kind of ruins your confidence.
It got boosted up a bit when I passed some other guy who nicely asked if I could smile, then I did and he said "nice".
That's what I don't like about festivals. There are so many idiots who rate every girl that pass them. I mean, it's a fuckin festival, not a fashion show and I will surely make no effort to look good just for some drunken guys. But it still ruins your mood. Because you've grown up with never being something good looking and then you learn to live with it and every time someone actually makes you a compliment, you're really happy, because you've grown up with the acknowledgement of being ugly. It already bugs me that I actually can remember these things cause it shows how much it bugs me. Thing is, I don't want it to bug me. Because I, myself, know or try to tell myself, that I'm good-looking in another sense of.. good looking. I might not be a classical beauty but … whatever. lol.
It's like they say. One compliment can make your whole day. But one insult can make you feel like the ugliest person on the planet and you just want to hide your ugly self for the rest of your life.
Sometimes I really wish I'd be beautiful. I wonder how many people would actually take the effort to talk to me just because I look good or have big breasts. On the other hand I should be happy, right? Cause the people who actually talk to me now, must see something in me that.. skin deep people don't see. Still. Sometimes it's just annoying to fall out of the normal.
meh, sorry for rambling, I think I needed to get it out of my system.
Boys are idiots Nami. Don't let them get you down.
Passing by a group of drunken guys with a friend and you hear them say "The left one is hot" and you're actually the right one.
Been there. And worse actually. I heard one guy tell his friend about me then the friend telling him "Nah, she is not worth it." And two guys when I was in the bus taking you to the plane, who thought I was foreign and went like "Hey dude, check her out" "Her? (-points at me-)" "Not her (in an insulting way). The other chick. (-points at the Italian girl with her boyfriend-)" -3-; They weren't even drunk..
It kind of ruins your confidence.
It does. Then everyone around you goes like 'Omigosh you have such low confideeeence! I can't understand whyyyy' I want to tell those people 'Come in my place once in a while and you'll figure out why.' but I am too polite for that.
Because I, myself, know or try to tell myself, that I'm good-looking in another sense of.. good looking. I might not be a classical beauty but … whatever. lol.
It's like they say. One compliment can make your whole day. But one insult can make you feel like the ugliest person on the planet and you just want to hide your ugly self for the rest of your life.
You are beautiful. Personally if I was a boy I'd slap your ass and pinch your cheeks… No, wait. I'll still do that if we ever meet. :D
I quite agree. >.<; I felt like this so many times man. I had a guy call me a submarine in my face before and I am never going to forget it. Or those guys making fun of me in a club once. Those insults delete every single compliment I heard in my life. Maybe because I unfortunately I get them more often.
meh, sorry for rambling, I think I needed to get it out of my system.
Everyone needs to let it out once in a while Nami love. huggles
This is why I smile and say nice things to people. It's just the good thing to do.
Boys are idiots Nami. Don't let them get you down.
Hey now I resent tha-
sees loaded rocket launcher stil stashed in the corner
Nevermind. sigh
Nobody that is considered good looking nowadays has classical beauty. I hope this doesn't come off bad but Nami, you're closer to classical beauty than whoever the guys were calling hot I can almost guarantee it.
Okay Nami, I'm not the kind of person to gush out compliments, it ends out in ego feeding bull shit and I don't want to be a part of that, but looking at your pictures I can honestly say that you are a beauty. Can we both agree that you have very big, striking and beautiful eyes? Not everyone has that. And that right there is a defining thing. Second, your have clean and very fair skin. We are reaching classic beauty. Third, you have pretty hair. And we are there. That easy. Fourth, if I may, and you have probably heard this before, but nothing makes a person more beautiful and glowing than a smile. And from what I can see you are at your best when you smile too. Skin deep beauty comes when you work with what you got and real beauty… Oh wait I'm reaching the corny limit. But it's true!
And yes, guys can be just as bitchy as girls. Our brains are made of the same material after all. But please, remember to not only react because of their gender. Them haters are everywhere in every shape. Including babies. Fuckin babies. Except the cute ones, they are worth it.
The bitichiest cattiest person I've ever known was a straight male who thought of himself as pretty masculine.
And yes, guys can be just as bitchy as girls. Our brains are made of the same material after all. But please, remember to not only react because of their gender. Them haters are everywhere in every shape. Including babies. Fuckin babies. Except the cute ones, they are worth it.
Agreed so hard. Being a horrible person definitely crosses all genders, ages, races, whatever, so it's dumb as shit whenever someone decides that it's just one gender/race/age. Ugh. And on that note, I fucking hate hearing guys complain about how women only go for shitty guys when there's just as many guys pursuing crappy women, as women going for crappy guys.
My personal favorite is when guys who are average or less in looks but if they see a woman that isn't physically perfect bitch about everything they find wrong with her.
"Perfect" is boring. There's a million interchangable spray on tan fake blondes. Whether they are technically attractive anymore or not isn't even the point, because after so goddamned many it gets boring.
Maybe it's even evolutionary by this point for the male brain to seek out better genetic diversity for their offspring lol.
Wow guys. Thanks for the many responses. I actually thought (or hoped?lol) you would overlook my ramblings…. uhm, glad you didn't, thank you very much.
Been there. And worse actually. I heard one guy tell his friend about me then the friend telling him "Nah, she is not worth it." And two guys when I was in the bus taking you to the plane, who thought I was foreign and went like "Hey dude, check her out" "Her? (-points at me-)" "Not her (in an insulting way). The other chick. (-points at the Italian girl with her boyfriend-)" -3-; They weren't even drunk..
Oh, I've gone through the same thing.
Or once a few years ago, I just walked and guys were passing my direction. One almost bumped into me, he looked at me and was like "fuck, you're ugly", they went on and they laughed.
or once when I was .. 14 I think. Me and my classmates were in a club and my crush bought everyone ice-cream. Except me. lol. I still remember very good how I bawled my eyes out at home and how my mother tried to tell me what a dumbass he is and that I shouldn't shed one tear for him cause he isn't worth it. I mean, she was right in the end, but it still hurts.
It does. Then everyone around you goes like 'Omigosh you have such low confideeeence! I can't understand whyyyy' I want to tell those people 'Come in my place once in a while and you'll figure out why.' but I am too polite for that.
Oh god, exactly.
You are beautiful. Personally if I was a boy I'd slap your ass and pinch your cheeks… No, wait. I'll still do that if we ever meet. :D
I still have your bikini pics and I love them
I quite agree. >.<; I felt like this so many times man. I had a guy call me a submarine in my face before and I am never going to forget it. Or those guys making fun of me in a club once. Those insults delete every single compliment I heard in my life. Maybe because I unfortunately I get them more often.
yeah, exactly.
This is why I smile and say nice things to people. It's just the good thing to do.
uhm? If there is one person who never says something nice to me then.. it's actually you. All you do is saying mean stuff all the time.
Nobody that is considered good looking nowadays has classical beauty. I hope this doesn't come off bad but Nami, you're closer to classical beauty than whoever the guys were calling hot I can almost guarantee it.
well….
here, that's the hot one.
Well, I can totally understand that people find her hot. I mean, I find her hot, tho. And she's like only half of me. Tiny, thin, still with boobs, nice long hair, nice legs… sighs
Okay Nami, I'm not the kind of person to gush out compliments, it ends out in ego feeding bull shit and I don't want to be a part of that, but looking at your pictures I can honestly say that you are a beauty. Can we both agree that you have very big, striking and beautiful eyes? Not everyone has that. And that right there is a defining thing. Second, your have clean and very fair skin. We are reaching classic beauty. Third, you have pretty hair. And we are there. That easy. Fourth, if I may, and you have probably heard this before, but nothing makes a person more beautiful and glowing than a smile. And from what I can see you are at your best when you smile too. Skin deep beauty comes when you work with what you got and real beauty… Oh wait I'm reaching the corny limit. But it's true!
Wow. Thank you very much. I really do appreciate these compliments. And don't worry, you don't come of as corny or something. I mean, I kind of asked for compliments so don't worry :P
And yes, guys can be just as bitchy as girls. Our brains are made of the same material after all. But please, remember to not only react because of their gender. Them haters are everywhere in every shape. Including babies. Fuckin babies. Except the cute ones, they are worth it.
Of course girls are the same. I would never say that only guys are assholes. Both genders can be fuckin assholes. And I also had girls laughing about me, tho.
Oh God Chrissie bikini pictures.
uhm? If there is one person who never says something nice to me then.. it's actually you. All you do is saying mean stuff all the time.
Well that's because I'm a terrible person. That should be obvious by now.
Well that's because I'm a terrible person. That should be obvious by now.
I don't believe that for a second.
Well that's because I'm a terrible person. That should be obvious by now.
you're more hypocritical than anything else.
you're more hypocritical than anything else.
Wait, wouldn't that mean I don't think I'm a terrible person but will call other people terrible?
I don't believe that for a second.
The mean to nice things I say heavily favors into the mean part.
@Monkey:
The bitichiest cattiest person I've ever known was a straight male who thought of himself as pretty masculine.
Oh my god, YOU TOO? I know twelve of those! Always makes me feel better about myself.
@Monkey:
"Perfect" is boring. There's a million interchangable spray on tan fake blondes. Whether they are technically attractive anymore or not isn't even the point, because after so goddamned many it gets boring.
Maybe it's even evolutionary by this point for the male brain to seek out better genetic diversity for their offspring lol.
So the guys Nami and I get, will be hardcore rebels? I like where this is going. Don't ya Nami? :D
Oh, I've gone through the same thing.
Or once a few years ago, I just walked and guys were passing my direction. One almost bumped into me, he looked at me and was like "fuck, you're ugly", they went on and they laughed.
or once when I was .. 14 I think. Me and my classmates were in a club and my crush bought everyone ice-cream. Except me. lol. I still remember very good how I bawled my eyes out at home and how my mother tried to tell me what a dumbass he is and that I shouldn't shed one tear for him cause he isn't worth it. I mean, she was right in the end, but it still hurts.
Meuh. Screw those guys. Just because THEY have complexes and issues with themselves, doesn't mean they have to make US have those too. =/
I still have your bikini pics and I love them
You are one of the few people in this world, I wouldn't mind having pictures of me even naked.
Your friend is pretty but you are pretty too. So \o/
You are one of the few people in this world, I wouldn't mind having pictures of me even naked.
Hahahaha. I wonder who the others are.
Other girls that are my good friends nowadays and a few guys I know and trust.
Hey I am a very trustworthy person :sideways: .
Hahaha! That's what I thought for someone else too but.. let's not talk about old wounds. =P
I don't even trust myself. I've betrayed myself too many times.
You know I'd give you naked pictures :cwy: .
Kairo, you know you can't win in this game. You'd better just give up. :P
:ninja: Then give them to me. I'm totally not gonna use them for blackmail.
It'd have to be a mutual exchange like in hostage negotiations. Which is difficult over the internet.
The only way to win against Chrissie is to play to lose.
Wait, wouldn't that mean I don't think I'm a terrible person but will call other people terrible?
What makes you hypocritical is the fact that you first say, that you only smile and say nice things to people and if someone actually tells you that this is not the way you are, you suddenly say that you're terrible.
Wether you have to learn who the hell you are
or you must stand by your word and don't act out of it.
It's not a bad thing to be sarcastic but you should know when to be honest and true and don't switch sides every second.
So the guys Nami and I get, will be hardcore rebels? I like where this is going. Don't ya Nami? :D
Oh yes, oh yessss.
You are one of the few people in this world, I wouldn't mind having pictures of me even naked.
… puts on sunglasses Bring it on
prepares tissues
But in all seriousness. It means a lot to me. Cause it says that you trust me and that you seem to consider me as a good friend. And I know and you know, what an awful human being I can be. And it's just very nice to know that you take me how I am and don't give up on me. I highly appreciate it and I thank you with all my heart for being my friend
I love you
Hopefully my package will make it soon to you >o< It's been a while already!
It's more that I smile and say nice things to people I just casually pass by or I'm in line and their next to me or something. I just don't want to be a dick to someone I don't know, and saying something nice to them usually brightens up their day.
That still makes you hypocritical if you can't be nice to people you actually know and interact with.
I mean, now I have the image of you meeting a stranger, be nice to him and if you actually … dunno become friends with them you become an asshole. That's.. stupid.
It's not like I just turn into a huge asshole. I'll just say meaner things, and by mean I mean in general, not about the person, but events, news, all that stuff. I still say nice things, just mean things come out more.
It'd have to be a mutual exchange like in hostage negotiations. Which is difficult over the internet.
Hm… Nope~ :D
The only way to win against Chrissie is to play to lose.
I'd let you win just for you to lose then. :)
Oh yes, oh yessss.
… puts on sunglasses Bring it on
prepares tissuesBut in all seriousness. It means a lot to me. Cause it says that you trust me and that you seem to consider me as a good friend. And I know and you know, what an awful human being I can be. And it's just very nice to know that you take me how I am and don't give up on me. I highly appreciate it and I thank you with all my heart for being my friend
I love youHopefully my package will make it soon to you >o< It's been a while already!
Oh yessss indeed~!
Hahahahaha! XD Do you doubt that if we hanged out in rl you wouldn't had seen me butt naked a zillion times till now? Also I would've forced ya to get naked too for my famous two-hour massage sessions.
Aww honey.. Of course I consider you as a good friend. I like, no.. LOVE honest people like you. Because they are so rare to find for one and you can always trust them. And you are not an awful human being. You just make mistakes like everyone does and you recognize them too. You know how stupid I can be too btw =P Ah! I followed your advice on that little matter I had, and it worked out at the end so thank you for encouraging me to do what I did. ;P
I am going tomorrow morning to check again :'C I hope it caaaame >3< I'll be sending out yours too since I didn't have much time before ;3;
Obviously that would be the one and only me! x3
Not really. =P
Your will is not stronger than mine! I will prevail!
Not really. =P