Haha, but you're a sweet Idiot, Insi
So… My dad visited today. It was awesome and all but...
Some things are bugging me now.
He used my browser to search in his bank account for an adress. I didn't want to watch 'cause it's kind of private so I hid my face behind his back. But he said "You can watch", so I did. I only saw it for like one second but... It seems he has more debts than I thought he would have. He is in big Minus. And when I say big I mean HUGE. It's in the thousands.
And still he never says no to me. When I look at him with my puppy eyes he will buy me whatever I want. He's rarely using the "I have no money" excuse. Damn, that makes me feel so guilty.
But that's not all.
Last year we were on winter vacation (first time ever) and I learned how to snowboard. Since then I said I want a snowboard for christmas and we both agreed that we would go there for vacation this year again.
I don't have the snowboard yet because I still need to choose one. But honestly. I don't feel like searching for one when I know he actually has no money for it. I.. just don't want it anymore.
Same goes for the vacation. I mean I really waited desperatly for this winter to go on winter vacation and snowboard, but now... I cannot ask him to go on vacation. And I think the reason he did not mention it once the last couple of weeks was because he realised we can't go and he just not has the heart to tell me that.
Because of that I payed the lunch today to soothe the guilt I feel. Is not helping.
And that still is not all. I owe him around 700€. Because of my movement I made these debts.
So, yeah. No Snowboard, no winter vacation and I will try to get the debts lower. Last time I paid him something was november....
And this is STILL not all... I got a mail from my supplier of electric and gas energy. Annual account.
I spend too much gas the last months and I don't have the summer months yet to compensate it out. So I owe them now 400€ and they raised my monthly bill from 100 to 150€.
Awesome. I have no clue how I should pay the 400€. I mean I knew I'd had to pay back something, but 400??? Damn.
I hope the jobcenter can help me out on this. Or else I have to starve the next month.
So yeah, even so I'm really happy I was able to see my dad, I'm kind of depressed now about the financial thing and to not get a snowboard and the vacation. Because it was really something I was looking forward to...
Till now 2011 hasn't really gone good for me.