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    Quote Originally Posted by Captain Ugly View Post
    Sometimes you have to see how low you are to make a decision.
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    I went to buy some controlled medicine to my mother, they were all prescribed by a doctor friend of hers, the dosage is 3 capsules per day she took 30 capsules at once. I found her stoned in the bathroom full of vomit and blood. I called my dad and we took her to a hospital, she had to undergo a detox that lasted 1 day. Now she is at home, trying to sleep.

    I can't take this anymore, I will search for a place to live alone, sure I will also see a home for my mother.
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    I hope things will work out for both of you. It is completely understandable that it's a big burden to you and seeking help may be a good solution. It'll be a big step for sure, but stay strong!


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    I'm just... I'm done... I don't care about anything anymore. I'm probably at my lowest point I've ever been and I just don't care about anything right now.

    I hate my ugly horrible self. I don't even know why I'm posting here, maybe I just want to vent...
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    Quote Originally Posted by Demon Rin View Post
    I'm just... I'm done... I don't care about anything anymore. I'm probably at my lowest point I've ever been and I just don't care about anything right now.

    I hate my ugly horrible self. I don't even know why I'm posting here, maybe I just want to vent...
    You are a beautiful person, inside and outside. You are a good person from what I've seen of you. You are very intelligent too, and I like reading your posts. I am also glad that we became friends as well! And it's okay to vent out, I'm here to listen, and be here for you! :3

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    I posted here a few weeks ago about my anxiety and today I had probably the best talk of my life with my mother and I feel so much better today and I've sorted out a few issues that I've been procrastinating. Really feeling myself today.
    I've indirectly cut off a few people that are a negative influence on me and tonight I'm only going to be surrounded by positive vibes and positive people. I haven't been this happy in years now, thank you guys for your support, you've convinced me just how amazing this forum is as far as online communities go. You guys are fantastic and I mean that. Soak it in! :)

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    I realized that dancehall/reggae style songs or chord progressions make me feel kind of sad/emotional.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Jameswuds View Post
    I posted here a few weeks ago about my anxiety and today I had probably the best talk of my life with my mother and I feel so much better today and I've sorted out a few issues that I've been procrastinating. Really feeling myself today.
    I've indirectly cut off a few people that are a negative influence on me and tonight I'm only going to be surrounded by positive vibes and positive people. I haven't been this happy in years now, thank you guys for your support, you've convinced me just how amazing this forum is as far as online communities go. You guys are fantastic and I mean that. Soak it in! :)
    Congrats! And I'm glad things are going better for you as well! :3

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    About the events of friday:
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    My mother is acting weird, she is having a hard time talking and is always shaking. I talked with the nurse that takes care of her in my house, she said she wants to stay in our house one more day per week, so in the end, it will be 3 days, not bad.

    At least she started to cry again, and yes, that is a good news.


    The doctor that did the detoxification said she could have died...Yeah..
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    Quote Originally Posted by Demon Rin View Post
    I'm just... I'm done... I don't care about anything anymore. I'm probably at my lowest point I've ever been and I just don't care about anything right now.

    I hate my ugly horrible self. I don't even know why I'm posting here, maybe I just want to vent...
    Everybody reaches that point now and then Rin and it is the worst feeling, one I am well acquainted with yuck. It will get better. Good times will come, things that are worth caring for will come, so hang in there.

    Also I think you are beautiful both outside and inside. We are the hardest on ourselves really. We judge our flaws and mistakes the harshest and consider ourselves to be the worst and think that others see us like that too, because why wouldn't they? But that's not true most of the time. Most people are too preoccupied with their own demons and problems to even notice or care about our own. Anyways, what I am trying to say is, give yourself a break. You worked hard to come all this way so think better of yourself :) You can definitely overcome this as you are a pretty strong lady! *hugs*
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    Thanks.

    I should probably explain that post since I realize I was in a messed up state of mind when I posted it and I didn't exactly explain it. Noqanky actually reached out to me on Skype to make sure I was ok.

    Basically... I know someone who is getting married, so her, my best friend and I went out to a club as a kinda last hurrah, and a couple of guys were hitting on us for a decent portion of the night.

    Gonna be honest, wasn't 100% into them entirely, but it was kinda nice to be hit on. They weren't being pickup artist types or disrespectful, just showing genuine interest, and... sometimes that feels nice.

    Until the end of the night when I found out WHY they were showing interest.

    They were a gay couple and they thought I was a guy. They were trying to get me (and maybe my best friend) in a 3-4 way.

    I mean, I know I'm ugly, it's not like this was news.... but knowing in my head is one thing, having it actually confirmed for me by external people was just crushing...
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    I"m feelign so deperate right now. I may have posted this before on a different site.

    But yeah, I lost weight some months ago after counting calories (down to 1500, often less). But I realized that that wasn't good for my age even thoguh I lost wieght (I'm 16). So I don't to continue since I'm a teen and I'm still growing, and because it's stressful always being hungry at ngiht and feeling less energetic sometimes.

    So I stopped counting calories. I've been doing a lot of exercize for the last couple of months. But I'm not losing weight. It's irritating, because they say that as a teen, you can lose weight by simply cutting out junk food, and being active. But both have applied to me and I haven't consistently lost weight. It doesn't help that once in a while I binge due to other reasons (I think i have bpd).

    What should I do?
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    Quote Originally Posted by ShinigamiKing View Post
    I"m feelign so deperate right now. I may have posted this before on a different site.

    But yeah, I lost weight some months ago after counting calories (down to 1500, often less). But I realized that that wasn't good for my age even thoguh I lost wieght (I'm 16). So I don't to continue since I'm a teen and I'm still growing, and because it's stressful always being hungry at ngiht and feeling less energetic sometimes.

    So I stopped counting calories. I've been doing a lot of exercize for the last couple of months. But I'm not losing weight. It's irritating, because they say that as a teen, you can lose weight by simply cutting out junk food, and being active. But both have applied to me and I haven't consistently lost weight. It doesn't help that once in a while I binge due to other reasons (I think i have bpd).

    What should I do?
    What kind of exercises have you been doing? One possibility is that while you might be burning some fat, you could be gaining muscle mass as well. I've been doing better on eating and working out overall and I've lost very little because I've been gaining muscle mass. Also, since you are sixteen you are most likely still growing. If you are getting taller then you most likely won't be losing weight.

    As for the easting part, it depends on what you mean by binge. From what I read it's good to go a little extra one day, and by that they mean perhaps add something extra that you don't usually eat once a week. If you decide in one day to eat all fast food and just stuff yourself, that can take away the whole weeks of work, and sometimes even add weight. The main thing is to find filling foods that are good for you that keep you energized, and once a week add in something extra to reward yourself.

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    Ugh, so much is wrong with my life. Company's in a hiatus and a lot of money invested in a project is just like there without moving and it really stresses me out. My mother had a really bad diagnostic of her hip and if she doesn't undergo an operation she may never walk right again (Right now walking is an inmmense pain for her). On top of that my father want's me to be in their house for moral support but i get really depressed when i'm in there and we only end up fighting really bad when i'm there. Also i feel my brothers and even my dad don't help but when i say that everything gets twisted and the fault always ends up on me and people yell at me.

    But i'm not here for that. The thing is the one that was helping me cope with all of that, the girl i'm seeing, is mad at me. And it's a clusterfuck. You see, the thing is i haven't been able to see her for a month and a half (!) even if we talk all the time in facebook and all that. Also, her mother comes the weekends and takes all her time and...well, it sucks. The thing is the sunday i was talking to her and told her i really missed her and i wanted to see a picture of her (just her face) but she ended sending me a nude one. So I also sent her a nude one laying in bed and then one in front of the lap showing my...huh, well my penis. When i send it to her she tells me "Oh yeah, with the help of pinups right?" and i got confused. Then i saw the picture and in the back you could see facebook and the pictures of a friend that does Burlesque. She was announcing her show in facebook and they were pics of the end of the show (So it was almost full nudity and you could see a photo of her ass which i guess it's big). I know no one will believe i wasn't seeing those pictures but i really wasn't. You could even see the pics weren't open (It's an album).

    well, she got mad and said it looked like i was touching myself with those pictures instead of her and she disconnected and wouldn't answer my calls. i left a text apologizing but the next day she told me she was mad and felt like an idiot. i tried to explain but she wouldn't listen. I apologized again and when i thought i would just make it worse i just decided to stop talking to her and give her some space. So we didn't talk at all in Tuesday. In the night she left a hurtful comment in Twitter about people that say that they love you but never talk to you. I knew it was directed at me and i got really mad.

    I told her that i didn't deserve that the next day and she told me it wasn't towards me and it wasn't her fault it fitted me like a ring (I don't believe her). I had told her i was dissapointed in her (I shouldn't have said that) so then she told me she was the one that was dissapointed. That she felt humiliated and that i should put myself in her place. I apologized again but she's been weird and when i told her how to solve it she said "i don't know" but she kinda ignored me when i said "Then this doesn't have a solution? (AKA: then do we break up?).

    I'ven trying to figure out everything but i don't get it. One of the things i've been wondering is if she's Jealous of my friends. Sometimes i get the feeling she thinks she's ugly and even sometimes (i think this may be me. I don't consider myself handsome but people do seem to fancy me) i wonder if she's afraid one of my friends will snatch me from her (?? it sounds so stupid).

    i just don't know, it's so much and even a number of friends have advised since some weeks ago to break up with her since i don't see her but i don't listen to them because like two of them want something with me or have friends that fancy me so i don't know if they do it out of interest. I feel bad because i hurt her but i don't know if i should end it (Does she want that?) or what to do. Another friend tells me it's stupid and she's blowing it out or proportion. When i suggested that she got even madder. I just don't know. It's stupid that i wasn't even checking the pictures. It like life just want's to fuck me.

    Sorry for the messy and horrible writing but ugh, it's so much i really didn't want to write it here but i'm confused and stressed and everything sucks.
    Working thru some stuff. Dunno how long i will be here.

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    Quote Originally Posted by The Franky Tank View Post
    What kind of exercises have you been doing? One possibility is that while you might be burning some fat, you could be gaining muscle mass as well. I've been doing better on eating and working out overall and I've lost very little because I've been gaining muscle mass. Also, since you are sixteen you are most likely still growing. If you are getting taller then you most likely won't be losing weight.

    As for the easting part, it depends on what you mean by binge. From what I read it's good to go a little extra one day, and by that they mean perhaps add something extra that you don't usually eat once a week. If you decide in one day to eat all fast food and just stuff yourself, that can take away the whole weeks of work, and sometimes even add weight. The main thing is to find filling foods that are good for you that keep you energized, and once a week add in something extra to reward yourself.
    Weight lifting and cardio. Usually lifting 3x a week, with cardio about 2x or 3x a week when I'm not lifting.

    The binges are usually big binges, like probably eating a lot over maintenance. They've only been happening very recently for some reason.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ShinigamiKing View Post
    Weight lifting and cardio. Usually lifting 3x a week, with cardio about 2x or 3x a week when I'm not lifting.

    The binges are usually big binges, like probably eating a lot over maintenance. They've only been happening very recently for some reason.
    If you are doing a lot of weight you can be gaining a lot of muscle. It could be your body is getting used to all that working out and when you have a day off you are that hungry. Another possibility is you aren't eating correctly and that's a result of it. It could also just be a phase you are going through. If you start binging a lot then you might want to ask a professional.

    In the end, the main thing is to be healthy overall. Don't worry about an arbitrary number that you want to be. Just eat healthy and be active, and you should stay healthy.

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    Quote Originally Posted by The Franky Tank View Post
    If you are doing a lot of weight you can be gaining a lot of muscle. It could be your body is getting used to all that working out and when you have a day off you are that hungry. Another possibility is you aren't eating correctly and that's a result of it. It could also just be a phase you are going through. If you start binging a lot then you might want to ask a professional.

    In the end, the main thing is to be healthy overall. Don't worry about an arbitrary number that you want to be. Just eat healthy and be active, and you should stay healthy.
    I have a lot of body fat around my stomach though, so I know that the weight isn't only muscle.

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    On a different note, I realized that I have trouble making use of my free time. I'm not efficient with free time. I end doing "self destructive" things like binge eating and having to exercize (which takes up time) or watch porn.

    I call these self destructive because they take up a lot of time, and they are things that I usually either regret, or never planned to do.

    I've abstained from many hobbies due to the apparrent assumption that I wont' have time for them (I've stopped playing video games, becuase of studies, for instance). I also tend to think about what I want to do, but when I have the time to do it, I have trouble figuring out how to do it. Or sometimes, I lose the motivation for it.

    sometimes I'm only efficient late at night when the day's over. But even then, that's been going away, and I find myself doing nothing on most days. I need help.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Prismeru View Post
    i'm confused and stressed and everything sucks.
    I was gonna give you some encouragement, but you're gone? Wut.
    Good luck anyways, whether you can see this or not.

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    i do feel bad this time because it's been a year, but i gave my word that i'd ban him if he came back. and he still felt like posting about his dang wiener. take that stuff to the bath house forum on narutofan or something

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    It's understandable that you'd feel bad, but the thing is you can't just be all high and mighty about walking out and then apparently skulk back in like nothing happened expecting everyone to forget. That's not behavior you encourage.

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    Judging from his personal posts and posts in the News Discussion thread, though, it seems Prismeru was just trying to find an outlet for cartharsis from all the shit in his life.

    I don't condone this, ofc, forum rules being forum rules (and and the end of the day how he went about it comes off as obstinately immature), just ultimately feeling bad for him and hoping I could've reached out and convinced him otherwise :/

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    It's just, the fact that it has been a year and he was actually gone all this time. Probably he was aware that he was risking it and mods might have banned him, though.

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